kry-syella

ANGIE: Introduction to melanch

2009-11-16T21:20:00.000-08:00

Guess this few days were a bit mellow. Maybe because of the rain, it somehow seems to be latching on my back, pouring at the most unexpected time. Well I seriously don't mind it at all. Well a bit of an introduction, Angie here. I currently lounging in Japan, travelling, this is my er... third month? ya. I go to every where. Wards, state, countrysides. Money is a problem, since right now I am running low on cash, I may have to come back. Then probably off to somewhere else. It never occur to me to blog about my travel. I just want it between myself and the landscape. Ya... KRY wanted me to join GINBAJODA.INC let just say a bunch of bored out goones who want to tell their boring life to console readers that their life is not that boring. YET.

Seriously friends of Kry-syella or Kenny, THE K2 (which they really act like one), you guys must be saints to hold up with them. especially with Kry-syella's new fashion sense, I can't help but spill my oreo blended latte when i recieved her self-taken photo. Has Singapore became an animated farmyard. Cause kry-syella as a friend you should seriously take my advise and slim down. In no time you will spill out of my laptop screen. heehee. And please tone down with that smile, no one wants to know when was the last time you brush your teeth.

I remember not liking to brush my teeth when I was young. Those were my favourite days, was a fan of Blondie, gosh no one could beat in terms of attitude with Debbie Harry. It was sweet to just sit on your bed, boom the radio, GAZZEE... then you pray, 'come on BlondieBlondieBlondieblondie..' then when the DJ do play, my mum screams from the other side of the room, SHUT THE RADIO. haha. Then just like that i fell asleep under Deb's sweet voice....
NO BRUSHING OF TEETH. Seriously i hated it, having to slip on squeshy sandals and squeak!Squeak! over to the basin, coated in yellow tar. Probably my mum's spit. Then you stuck your toothbrush into your mouth, AWWW... disgusting, all your muscles contracting, then you gack, then here is the best your mind when numb with mint and then you puke dinner and supper, after that your head starts throbbing and the back of your throat still sting... especially after eating chilli. OK NO MORE GO EAT DINNER bye.

Björk "Who Is It"

Taylor Swift pranked by Ellen Degeneres

2009-11-01T05:09:00.001-08:00

CAN THIS BE ANY FUNNIER, THE ALL SO ELEGANT TAYLOR SWIFT GETTING SWIPPED OFF HER FEET. I WAS DARN THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT I DO TO MY FRIENDS AND YET IT WILL NEVER GET ONE MILLION VIEWS IN TWO DAYS. FAMOUS PEOPLE JUST GETS ALL THE ATTENTION, EVEN IF THEY FELL OVER A BANANA PEEL...

A Day in Paradise concert

2009-10-31T08:13:00.000-07:00

This how the tickets look like. Collaborating with Queenstown, Clementitown, Yusof Ishak and Hai Sing Catholic School. It is an honour TRUELY. Come to think of it I feel quite proud of the final product of the ticket. It is our first time.

GINBAJODA.INC... it has been decided

2009-10-31T07:54:00.000-07:00

GINBAJODA.INC will officially tak over this website hence there will be myself, Kry-syella, Rulee, LYNN and many others as authors. what will me talk about? Anything all you need to do is tag us:) we will set this blog as best as possible to cater you guys in the latest music, fashion and entertainment whatever. please out up with our private life yaddar yaddar... ok so this is all have to say OPENING DATE IS 16 NOVEMBER 2009

2009-10-24T02:57:00.001-07:00

kry-syella comeback winter 2009

2009-10-23T20:44:00.000-07:00

LOL okok. when was the last time i did a post july? june... whatever. Results were as per normal. PLAIN SUCK. haha, got a lecture from my oldie man.Hey what is wrong with triple science being poor in studies... a bit a bit...ironic. bet a couple of followers are missing me haha HI IM BACK FROM TEXTBOOK WAR.

Now life revolve around choir. Anxiety,excitement,BLAH RAH. Our very collaboration gig... sigh... it just feels good, but it do rock my socks if a couple of bands and dancers are added in, maybe a specail appearance form epik high to scratch their stuff.

Epik High - Wannabe, fabulous and creative. CATCHY ORIGINALS. in a new indie company MAP THE SOUL? Did i get that correct. Come on man check them out, you might be looking at the next Big Bang. They are crazy in lyrics, versatile. Their songs are real yet virtual, surreal infact.

LiFe is getting suck... suck suck. it cant be helped I guess I am a brooding, hormone raging tennager. it is a 365 days race, against something that i am losing interest in.
seriously thinking of dropping physics ...
EPIK HIGH-WANNABE

LALALA Bungan Sayang

2009-06-08T20:51:00.000-07:00

Last Sunday went for private vocal training with Ms Khor, Sorry did I say vocal, more like stomach inflammation. LOL...
Miyavi had his new company J-Glam, http://www.j-glam.net/ Wish him well. At least he faced it head front I am proud of you :)
Came back from CAP camp, Love ALL OF YOU
- Kenyi
- Kaining
- Kelly (Hot MAMA)
- Lakshini
-Gideon (Cold JOKER)
- Alethia (Pee BOIZ inventer)
There are too many, but I want to thank all of you >.<
- ADAM (RI boy), my partner in the art workshop, change my perception of RI boys. Had the installation with me, may display it in my school so check it out.
Feeling home slightly more wonderful. Installed speakers in my room, 24 hours BOOM BOOM POW. Grades are beyond imgination... I mean negatively. Hopefully would be the worst in my studying years haha.
Got a couple of news from Angie, in Kyuushu, well if you see this post please for god sake tag. Angie has just discuss with her family and decided to stay in Chiba and work as a magazine editorial post?? something like this. Had not chat with Frenchy NOno for a long time.

Well a bit more about myself... camps and more, TO THE SL CAMP NEXT.Haiz sweat, thirst and vigor...

Oh did i tell you I am president of choir??... NO? YES?... Well now you know. Hope to strive Choir forward, never look back, never think back, Art is not art without your heart...(learn from CAP)
Guys if there is anytime you feel down send me a comment or tag me, I could... you know talk you out, or chat about it okies:)

found a new song>.<

2009-04-10T06:51:00.000-07:00

AYA KAMAKI!!! I bought it at HMV Heerens. THE USUAL JAPANESE PRICE :( cant wait for my Super Junior album to come, bought it on yesasia.com. She like the japanese of AVIRL LAVIGNE.

Angie went back to Japan to do things. Location:Nakano. Haiz, hope she will buy some more stuff for me:o Confirm will not buy me The GazettE singles:( ANGIE I LOVE YOU.

No matter where you are
No matter what you are, who you are.
Make it the day you see him
A rare flower that bloom in the night
A concept, not a definition
It is not forever there...

Angie I was just a small kid then but thanks to you I had grown a lot, you are like my sister, my mother. I love you so much so I felt so jealous.
I don't want to share you with anyone, not Jia Rong and not even Kenny, I just want you and me and nothing changes.

THEN you said you need to go, for work, for liberation, for whatever. I can't be selfish, it's your road.

I felt a trick was constantly played on me. When things went off-hand my mind starts to flood with different perspective, good and bad, funny and depressing. However when I wanted to relate it to someone, I am in a lost. All of a sudden their faces become distant, convoluted with sarcasm. I would say things that does not rationale, hoping to show the pain I felt. I hope and pray they understand but they never so I gave up...

Till I saw you...
Angie please come back quickly

The End of March Holiday

2009-03-31T03:50:00.000-07:00

Yes people the moment you have anticipate for a long time:) THE GAZETTE MAKE PUBLIC APPEARANCE FOR THEIR SINGLES 'DISTRESS AND COMA'. Held on April 2 with a massive capacity of 1500 people yes, GOOD BRAVO. The [2009.01.03 Peace & Smile Carnival] is out already check it out on YOUTUBE
It is beautiful AND explosive. Ruki seriously must cut down on his smoking habit, it will spoil his singing before he even die.
Something good happen to day MUSHAHAHAHAHAHAHA I threw the cockroach into the sanitary pad dustbin. Watched the Gazette RCE again and must say they are way better then Fall Out Boys in Indoor National Stadium, BUT worth it:) SHIBUYA AX - TH GAZETTE NAUSEA AND SHUDDER.

There is something I want to tell a certain person. It is very unusual for me to interfere with other people's affair and it is most unlike me to criticize someone, especially someone close to me. I am greatly disappointed in her actions and her lack in sensitivity towards her victim. I thought of her as a seemingly appealing girl when I first met her, however her arrogance put off a few of my friends. Still I insisted that she is a girl whose interest is focused more on her friends and social life, and therefore continued to try accepting her.
However this year, her behaviour has been atrocious, especially recently, paying people to play pranks, causing grieve to her friend. What have the POOR GIRL done to YOU? BACKSTABBED? TALKING BEHIND HER BACK? She merely just wanted to make friends, unfortunately with the wrong method.
I hope YOU will reflect YOUR actions properly. Because there is no reason YOU should do such mean things to a harmless person. Think about it, if you were merely trying to make friends and someone instead of making friends with you,not only ignored you, resolved to underhand and cowardly actions to physically or mentally hurt you, is PLAIN DISGUSTING!!!
IF YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE, PLEASE UNDERSTAND THAT I DONT HATE YOU, THERE IS NO REASON FOR ME TO DO THAT, BUT I THINK YOU MAY JUST PROVE YOUR SHAMELESSNESS TO SOME OF US.

2009-03-27T07:10:00.000-07:00

Well well well 72th POSITION!!! I improved by two position :P Last year 74TH or 76TH hahaha
Walked all the way from starting point to ending point with Clarabelle and Jia Min. Thanks GUYS company me all the way.

My Good pal cum enemy.
He won Juaniter man. Good job girlfriend:D

After that, when to Jurong Point and eat with SiXian, Jaslin and Juaniter :D LOLX Watched this support 'ACTIONED-PACKED' It is quite boring la. Like V-cinema shows. But the fighting scene damn nice. I spot a few notorious Street Fighter fighting strategies and technique. But CHUN-LI don't look like the Chun-Li we all see in the game. No unproportional thigh, lack of boob job. The actress look english somemore, cannot speak chinese. TSK, regretted not watching hotel for dogs or departure:(

We started to make a nuisance in the cinema, crunching popcorn, stick out legs, fall asleep, scream AND Hand Flapper. Ok la quite fun, as long is watch with friends, also nice la.
Now at my new home, Thomson View. Super empty, ceiling to high and kitchen TOO SMALL. The toilet is leaking and the sofa creaks. It is too quiet and too big. NOT USED... I will stick to freeloading at my aunt's house, at least there is a nice homey kitchen to slack in:P I wonder if they find out about the MARS Meiji wrapper under the sofa? OHMG, I forget to put my clothes in the 'BIN' O.O
Here is a few HEART-THUMPING, HYPER-VENTILATING, MOUTH-WATERING pictures of THE GAZETTE

They look so cool and this is how a Visual Kei flamboyant costume is designed:O

This is Alzhemier13's first draft then she took a simple pix of the design and actually HANDMADE THE WHOLE COSTUME. you are the best man

MARCH HOLIDAYS ARE GONE O>O

2009-03-22T07:04:00.000-07:00

O.M.G OH MANIAC GIGOLOS... MY freedom is like a dream, Sign... I left a few more hours and I have not finish any homework yet.:P Who cares? Sleep is redundant, anyway there is Mr Teo's class for nappys:D haha.

Two days ago, I was confused by a puzzling event. Why can't human work in peace with EVERY other human? Choir to me is like eating to stay a life. Choir, choir... I cried for choir, I laugh with choir, I got angry with and for choir. Choir, Choir, Choir it is all about choir. What makes me so commited to choir, is that it is so closely related to my hobbies, music. Any kind of music intrigues me. But on Friday I was shock, such beautiful innocent passion for music leads to a series of agonizing events. CLASHES OF EMOTIONS. A persistent stand from both party, leading to a tense atmosphere, where inspirations dissipates, where trusts are questioned.

All I want To say to both parties, that Choir is a teamwork. Teamwork is not something we can say easily! PUT YOUR MOUTH IN YOUR HANDS. Every choir member if you see this, please know that your actions determine the status of our choir. It is up to you to get choir to a higher level or to slide down below the curbs. AND THIS REQUIRE TEAMSWORK. IF YOU THINK CHOIR IS NOT DOING WELL, EXPRESS YOUR OPINION TOGETHER, WORK IT OUT TOGETHER! EVERY CHOIR MEMBER PLEASE REMEMBER: CHOIR IS NOT A ONE-MAN SHOW!

There is in no amount of effort, an individual is able to move choir higher, so please if you love choir, if you care for Choir bury the hachet, lower down your pride and work hard together. People say I am always cheerful, it is not born in me, I too learn through the hard way to accept anyone, everyone. No one is perfect, There are flaws in everyone:P

LETS WORK TOGETHER FOR A BETTER ENVIRONMENT TO EXPRESS OURSELVES.
HERE IS A SONG FOR ALL OF YOU

Fashion DESIRES

2009-03-19T03:47:00.000-07:00

H.Naoto...

This is a mixture of Gypsies style and lolita.

http://www.s-inc.com/hnaoto/

SUPER JUNIOR COMEBACK STAGE

2009-03-19T02:58:00.000-07:00

YEA super junior is back with their new album yea. AND THEY ARE MATURED AND SEXIER. Their new song is EUREKA! SORRY SORRY- Super Junior

A very retro image, remind me of a mixture of Pink Floyd and The Beatles. LOL Heechul look like he is tripping on LSD. Man this is rocking nice.

Super junior-Sorry Sorry

-I like their Jodhpur suit pants >.<
-They include in their cheorography, Bi Rain, SHINee and Michael Jackson O.O
-I like the catchy tune

I AM GOING TO BUY JODDHPUR PANTS if got size :P

Ghost and vampires

2009-03-19T01:47:00.000-07:00

Ok people this post is going to look very gruesome so don't read this article if you are not up to it

So here goes; people nowdays are having more favourism in Ghost, Vampires and Werewolves. However this is due to the influence of the media. Twilight everyone's favourite VAMP BOY, Edward Cullen has change modern people's preception of vampire as a man of good, discipline and beauty. Yes, in a way Vampires are smart, however they are too smart to our disadvantage. Also vampires are not good creatures, IN FACT I do not even believe there is such a creature. If I am not wrong mystical creatures are created in the olden days to scare young children, to make sure they behave, to make sure they come back before the sun sets or the 'VAMPIRE will look for them'

A more reliable source has pictures a vampire to look like this:

Ok sorry to disappoint you guys but ya actually they look like this. Personally I like them a lot too, but they are after all a different creature from us. So please leave them alone don't create a fuss of unravelling them, looking for them. They have their reason for hiding away from the human race. So to reduce their pain, stop temptimg them.

NOW GHOST:

I am very scared of ghost. Ghost in those horror movie. However does a spirit really look like this? I don't think so, in fact I hoped not I don't want to look so ugly when I die haha. Spirits in my opinion should look happy, innocent and carefree, flowing with the wind, dressed in white flowry dress, for the man maybe a white shirt with cotton capri pants.

But again the media made a misconception in our minds making us thing that ghost look like this:

WATCH A YOUR OWN RISK!!!

Well to horror-movie goers have fun catching The Grudge third instalment>.<>.<

HAPPY.BIRTH.day mommy

2009-03-17T07:10:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was my mother's birthday. Sorry mum I nearly forget about it:D But all I want to say is love you MUAKS* MUAKS*
Two things I did to day:
- Went out with JS :D
- Went out with JS :D
It was the best MUHAHAHA. *.* We went to the arcade. And ok today I accidentally come across a very highly confidential blog in the world, JM's blog O.M.G (for those who know). UNBELIEVABLE He have somebody he like and I thought he is HOMO!!! @.@ The girl is XM, LOL what the fuck la.... I was utterly stunned. Is she a nerd or wart??? Anyway today spent nearly $30 bucks on arcade game HAIZ... But worth it.
Xians seems like everyone near me has a boyfriend or a girlfriend, NEVER MIND MUSIC IS MY SOULMATE. Created a small part of melody today NO RIFFS NO SCRATCH just pure harmony cords MUAHAHA inspired by THE BEATLES :D But use different pluck methods and rythem...
The GazettE Distress and Coma music video come out already YEA JIAYOU GAZETTO. Today in a pretty relax mood, Nothing depressing to write about. Oh I saw Plain White T's album, feel like buying, now my list is like this:
- The GazettE, DIstress and Coma [ Optical impression] $33+
- Super Junior, Comeback 3rd Album $39+
- Sodagreen, XIAO JU DAN Concert DVD $46+
- Guns and Roses, Chinese Democarcy CD + Mercahandise $79.60
- Coldplay, Viva La Vida $14.95
- Plain white Ts, Second album $12+

My piority is THE GAZETTE :D

To my loves and humans on Earth

2009-03-14T11:56:00.000-07:00

Sorry for writing such depressing stuff. I would prefer to refer my past posts as touching. Depressed is a perception one gives, it is more opinion-oriented :) The pass few post are true events that happen in my life. It is not depressing to me, like I said there is no time for pessimism in this racing-for-time society. Time is precious, we must treasure. We make the best out of every minute. IF we have 12 homework and 2 test we make the best out of it by incentives, motivations and reassurance.

It is not an easy task to always look on a bright side of life. However think of it this way, start by giving yourself a pat on the shoulder whenever you thought of positive things. To me being happy everyday is a great victory towards life. We study hard to hope for a better or extravagance life in the future.

We spent half of our life slogging to rest for the later half, then there is commitments, to family, to work, then people when is the time you rest? When is the time you felt true happiness, among your books, chemistry, physics or biology?

What I want to say is, it is only right to work hard to attain your goals, but don't forget the ultimate goal, to lead a meaningful life.

Here is a song for people who are down:)

Jason Mraz - Im Yours
I had post this before. I love it, one of the best performance ever I listen to this when I was down it cheers me up a lot:P THIS IS FOR PEOPLE WHO WANT TO FEEL HAPPY WHEN THEY ARE DOWN

Plastic Tree - Spica
I cried when I heard this song. I was choking painfully. I had a bad day when I heard this song, I started breaking down. I felt the song was able to relate to my turbulent feelings. So when the song came to its climax, I too let out all my feelings. Very nice song, beautiful and sweet. If you are really stress up PLEASE LISTEN just let all your feelings out with it:) I assure you on a first-hand experience you will feel better

Time, time, time, has not scared me yet

2009-03-14T06:10:00.000-07:00

I am racing against time. day after day it will lurk behind me, catch me off guard and swing me into a frenzy state.

' We can never buy time' So true, too true :(

Time make me anticipate, make me long
Time make me miss, make me pissed
Impatient, as seconds fly
Unwilling to make things history
Time create memories, sad and beautiful
Time so scarce, with care
Shape me into a human, that I plan to be...

Today went to IT fair to by mini notebook for aunt:( Boring. Walk till my leg super pain. I regreted wearing my flats instead. Now my leg look like a cooked pig trotter. Went to Bugis after that and bought this nice black starry shirt and bambi t-shirt for 13 each :) HAPPINESS.

Timothy Treadwell is kidnapped by rabbit scientists, transformed into a bear, cloned, and then sent to a far away planet to fight an alien.
Music by James & the Rainbros

When The Sun Sets, Another of My Life Began

2009-03-13T08:07:00.000-07:00

In a blink of an eye, nine weeks has passed; two months and thirteen days; one term; a small chapter of life. Happiness, sadness, hope and anxiety we still have to hug all of these in our lives to travel this journey without an end.
I choose to take a slow steady stroll, to put on a smile. Life is too short for pessimism. We work hard to enjoy then we have to work again to enjoy a higher standard of relaxation. Can't we work hard while enjoying every ounce of effort we make?
Taking a rare flight, loving myself more, I’m watching my favourite view of life. Sunshine mist and the love I received. I face the sky and fly, singing the song I like, crying when I feel like it.

I saw a friend, a good friend whom I had left out in the past few months. It is not intentional, neither is it naturally. We could always choose to meet, but we never. Somehow a boundary, thin but dense, wrapped him from me. I choked on my thoughts as my mind rambles through bits and pieces of memories, vivid yet vague, happy yet sad, beautiful and lonely, like how I felt when I saw him.

I tried to persuade myself he was still the same old him, just in a different uniform, but the path is apart, one at Henderson and another at Bukit Timah. I am sorry but we will continue thinking of you, missing you and anticipate you. Friendship never dies. When there is a day I will die slowly I will think of my parents then you.
Friends are the nutrients for life, family love water my soul. Togther they make me a human. Are we humans or are we dancers, my life is vital but my hands are cold and I am on my knees looking for the answer are we humans are we dancers, when my frieds are gone

A toast to friends. BANZAI

If there is a chance to be reborn, I hope to be friends again. Not brothers, not sister, just pure good friends, just to satisfy my nostalgic yearnings :P

CAUSE you are a bad girl

2009-03-07T06:39:00.000-08:00

TODAY is A FUCKING DAY. I lost my EZ-link card o.0 So I could not go to school. TO HELL even to think of walking to school. SUCX COINcidence NO COINS. Yesterday should not have bought KIT-KAT...

Then in the afternoon went to meet ah ken:( nearly got whacked for saying something wrong again. Then the normal things happen...

- Go makan
- Laze around at scape park to wait for ANGIE
- GO Far East Plaza, look at my dream nike Nike Obama Series-023
[Obama-023]
- Then went to Liang Court and eat DON DON

WASTE MY EFF'ING money so expensive >.<>

Anyway BIG NEWS:

MR. Handsome LEE decided to give a surprise and announce we are moving to Thomson plaza opposite the Condominium :( NOT HAPPY

Distress And Coma

2009-02-27T07:11:00.000-08:00

I am in a state of mocking hysteria. Why mocking? I felt mocked at my inability to cope well in triple science :P And it comes under mask of hysterical. Triple science is definitely... not easy. It take two main supporting principle:
- Hard work
- Determination

How am I fairing?
Based on my expectation it is pretty low :( But I must really congratulate myself for going on so well:) Truthfully, I thought I would do better... However apparently it is the contrary. Well that does not mean I will quit triple science HeHe I will not stop what I start, it is my road it is my path, I would rather die trying then dropping it. It is not about pride, it is the fact that IF I quit it shows I had lost faith in myself and the rest of the people...

Anyway this few week was a rollar coaster, there are good times and bad times, and the bad times were when the desperate feeling for my study suffocates me. OKOK enough of whining and start to stand on my feet. GOOD NEWS:

The GazettE NEW SINGLES: Distress and Coma IS out in SINGAPORE on 25 March, Heerens HMV :P SIngles so it should be a range of $30 - $55.

PLEASE SUPPORT

SBS Gayo Daejun 2008

2008-12-30T07:15:00.000-08:00

This is a dance battle with famous korean groups
Big Bang, DBSK, 2PM, Shinee, Suju - Dance Battle @ Gayo FestivalStar Wars
Featuring (in order of appearance)
Taemin (Shinee)
SeungRi (Big Bang)
EunHyuk (Superjunior)
Jaebum (2PM)
Yunho (DBSK)

Can you comprehend my pain?

2008-12-27T02:59:00.000-08:00

Have you ever felt a point in your life where some trivial matters could pierce your heart deeply?Well I had I felt it the immense pierce through me and travelled down to my guts. And I tell you it hurts a lot..

'In the agonized rain I weep the first red tears'

What cause me to have such reaction? Well lets analysis it this way. Imagine you are a really close with this 'person' and another person close to you is spitting sarcasm at 'that person'. Can you take it? What will you feel?

'Fuck you you have no idea how he feels?

Are complaining to the right person?

How dare you...how dare you say that in front of me without any guilt?

YOU ARE DISGUSTING!'

I was so angry that day, the minute I reach home I went to sleep, seriously when you are really angry, all your energy is sapped away. YOUR VERY SOUL... this really pissed me off. need to watch something nice to calm down... Plastic tree - 37

SCHOOL IS STARTING>.<

2008-12-26T06:38:00.000-08:00

Broken hearts of broken holidays:(

This holiday is pretty eventful...

1) I went to Hong Kong for choir performance>.<

2) My big aunt is diagnosed with cancerO>O...

3) My grandfather had two falls in a row, so now in st luke hospital

4) I got into triple scienceO.0

5) My cousin met with a car accident...

6) I CUT MY HAIR short

WELL THAT IS INTERESTING LIFE. But I guess it cant be help:(

OMFG twilight is...nice

2008-12-25T01:12:00.000-08:00

Ok I admit it Twilight is ... overly seductive. IT IS REALLY ADDICTIVE, like some love dope and Edward is the boy every girls dreams. Smart, Strong, Seductive, Persuasive, Protective, Mysterious, Charismatic and ...interesting. 'What if I am not a superhero, what if I am a bad guy'

Let me tell you guys out there, girls like bad boys. Thats right we girls like a bit of fun and an exhilirating relationship is what we girls like to be put in.

But seriously this book is not really healthy for me. I keep giggling, tuning me into fangirl mood, which hardly surface even when Aoi is in front of me doing his trademark sexy wave.LOL okok

UPLOAD PICTURES

My favourite korean singer: DAESUNG other than junsu and eunhyukI love this HIP-PUNK poster

MERRY CHRISTMAS

2008-12-24T21:21:00.000-08:00

TOD.ay was a really nice day. As in the nice weather, the lovely pace the day is flowing and the angle the first sun ray is reflecting when I woke up. It is CHRISTMAS after all. Although there is no snow in Singapore, the ambience and atmosphere is enough to make me relax.

Yesterday, I skipped tuition and headed to Johor to cute my hair. INTO BOB CUT O.O* I did cut my hair before that and I pretty much like it because at the side it look like RUKI's hairstyle >.<>.<>

I can't wait for the PSC10th annivasary peace and smile carnival 2009. The opening acts includes SCrEW and SuG wow kool man. I like their new song and mv UMBILICAL. They are more to the OSHARE kei and they are really cute:) Takeru, their vocalist really remind me of miku from Antique cafe...fuse with a bit of craziness from Miyavi= TAKERU {HA.HA.HA.H.A}

The most anticipated performace in the carnival would be THE GAZETTE!!! My friend is a huge fan of them especially RUKIo.0 In my opinion Ruki *THE vocal SATAN* is really freaky. Many say he is charismatic, but well he just scares me. Not the spooky scare but the feeling that he can see right through you. Especially those photoshoots, he look ready to pierce the camera len, he look fierce too. And the seductiveness he like to portray in his photos just make me shiver...HOW CAN ANYONE DO SUCH THINGS EASILY IN THE PUBLIC? No offense you are a good vocalist but maybe you should lessen it, it just make girls like me jealous and I don't like that felling:( When I saw his maggie mee hairstyle on Leech PV, I was thinking man this world is filled with ironies. My hair was like his hair, only it is natural. I was born with stubborn frizz hair, that make me look like a black, or malay, NEVER A GODDAMN ORIENTAL CHINESE.

I found these really nice pictures of the peace and smile company family.

All the vocalist at the left picture [from left: alice nine SHOU, The gazettE RUKI, Kaggra ISSHI, Kra KEIYUU, MIYAVI] My favourite vocalist is Shou from alice nine. When he sang blue planet, I was more attracted to his voice then the song. And he have a really friendly look *like me*. Listen to Alice Nine new song THE BEAUTIFUL NAME composed by their drummer/leader NAO. Oh and one thing that I like about shou-san, his hand gestures on stage. It is one of the kind, unique and something only he can pull of himself. His body gesture is the easiest way to make out the flow of the music. However sometime it is too overly exaggerated.

Need to go help my gran to clean the kitchen ...

HONGKONG trip

2008-12-17T07:55:00.000-08:00

Hell IT WAS EXHILIRATING!!! Hong Kong trip was definitely fun, however in l;ife every good stuff is packaged with a few foul cookies. Lets just name the good things first before I head to the 'pain in the ass' stuff.
GOOD THINGS:
- I BOUGHT ENOUGH THINGS FOR MY FAMILY>.<(they are happy with the things I bought)
-I took a few SCARY RIDES (bigg ACCOMPLISHMENT)
-TOOK A 360DEGREE and survived q[o_0]ph
8I ate a TURKEY LEG[>.< >.< >.<]
BAD THING:
-i got scolded for drinking @_@
-I LOST MY MONEY AND FOUND IT IN MY WALLET
[THE SAD PART IS i DID NOT SPEND IT GODDAMMIT IT]
- I missed the chance to buy a mickey tote bag :(

All in all it is really fun and I get to eat a lot of seafood because some of the seniors are a bit hesitant in eating hongkong food. I think the best experience for me is the ocean park MINE TRAIN 45 degrees down!!!! q[O.O]p
I LOVE HONGKONG . I LOVE HONGKONG ♥ ♥

Pictures that get me wawawa

2008-12-01T06:47:00.000-08:00

This Is My Favourite Picture Of All Year Round

PIctures Day

2008-12-01T06:29:00.001-08:00

Today I came across a few magazines scan that are really nice on the internet

And the main subject today is ★ALICE NINE★

INSPIRATION FOR THE DESIRED

2008-11-30T03:19:00.001-08:00

On the first gray of dawn
I venture out alone
Towards a big black hole
A well, a century old

In autistic denial of the external world
I was enveloped into darkeness for an eternal
A thought that dampens any lonesome figure

A selfish creature emerged
who scourns at a droplet of tears
A porcelain mask
that covers even a tint of emotion
Until you break in...

You have fallen for me
The exterior me,
The one that please everybody
But the interior me,
filled with darkeness and mystery
will never satisfy your lusty fantasy.

So please forgive me
For the reckless first kiss
It really don't mean a thing
But a rush to feel you under my skin

What a wrong move
Now you are after my every move
To get me,
No matter how dangerous I may be
Yes girl you are making me crazy
You will only your own feelings

Back Off!
My world is too dark for a goth
You will just shrink away from the glow, please god
I know you will scream that two words for blessing
But can't you see ,
the trouble you will get in
just leave me to be free, to escape the agony
cause your eyes are too memerizing

I will take it you had an infatuation
A routine that is partially believeable
The praises for my sexy figure
And flawless countenance
It is a mistake to miss the lusicious entertainment

But it is not me you are after
But the hands of god that mould my cover
If you love, you will stir free
You will stay clear away from me
To create a distance to let me see you carefully

So girl the wrong move is made

Your lonesome tears

2008-11-23T06:56:00.000-08:00

♥Your Lonesome Tears♥
Kry-Syella
When was it I missed your sobs
Was it the day you were not the top?
Or the time our conversation was a shallow depth

I am so sorry I have negelected you
Only thinking I feel worser then you
I know the apologies will never ease your anger
But I really want to say I will love you forever

I remembered the kiss you gave me
The touch that is now a blur memory
The tears we shed without crying
The mutal understanding

We promise to bring happiness to each other
But it only brought complication together
The love was too much that it hurt
A love that could be broken with a whisper

You asked for a moment, a recognition
The memories of the briefest moment
The touch, the tangle, a wire to bind us together
It's undone cause it weight to much for us

You say we are meant for each other
Where is the action to prove that statement?
Is it the night we spend together
That desire that lead to a false acceptance

I never once look you in the eye
Those eyes that give away my lies
I never once love you
So why are you crying for me
Baby you are putting me in agony

Is it remorse?
That cause our relationship to be forced
Or the guiltiness that flip your guts
HA! It pales when compared to my stabbed heart

Yes baby I once love you from my heart
But now I will only keep it to my heart
Be free and heal the wound I had cut
Please forget me on my behalf
I am not the right lover to fill you up

Love, it is a complicated word
But love, I believe you will understand it
But it is not me to tell you the meaning
I hope you find someone that show you that feeling
I will be contented when I see you with her

So please don't cry with me
Be strong for your future
I am leaving, so don't see me off
It will only break me more
My man, my love
Remember your the nicest man that I dear
It is just that we are not meant for each other

I am the moon, you are the day
We are an eternal away
So baby boy please find your sun
As the moon travel during the night time
To find refudge, to find her time
To leave her lonesome tears
A day behind

Bolevard of wonderful friendships

2008-11-03T05:40:00.000-08:00

In a blink it is the end of 2008 and also the end of my fourteenth year as a human. What have learnt so far?... Well I will answer that as detailed as possible, after some thinking that I plan to carry in this long year-end vacation. One thing I am sure I had learnt would be friendship.
The chalet had allowed me to witness the friendship bond that my friends and I had tied ourselves in. The thought of someone amongst us leaving was something painful. I experience the sudden ache on the second day of the chalet. The shrinking posture and serene ambience of the beach make me tense and relaxed. It was a clash of emotions, and the thought someone precious to me hurt cause me to suffocate in sorrow.
No amount of pain could compare to the ache of my pounding heart. As if by coincidence, my tears just flow freely. The world does not mean anything to me anymore, my pride, my posture it was all thrown into the predestined sea. Like the sea my heart was filled with mysterious darkness that no one can swim into. It felt cold and lost as it lost a part of itself... the joy of friendship.
When someone cried, it was due to the unbearable mental or physical pain. And for [him] - a nice and cheerful person, it must be so painful it could not be tolerated. That was in my head.
The next thing i knew my hand was covered over my mouth as a gagged on my saliva, my tears formed from the corner of my eyes, it burst and flow down, my chest was heaving, in and out, in and out, I pound my chest to stop the pain, bending forward my mind was a blank. Who was beside me, who saw it, I cant care much....
All I want to say, to me my friends are like my brothers, my sister, it is not a code, not a statement, not a clique term, it is a feeling it is something that is from the bottom of my heart stirring my emotions and questioning my character.
Hey krysyella[shuji] friends out there I KRYSYELLA WILL ALWAYS BE YOUR PRECIOUS FRIEND.........

TOMODACHI 4EVA

KOREAN NIGHT

2008-11-03T04:55:00.000-08:00

I am so going to the Korean night and not only that I heard there is special mystery guest OMFG>.< I hope it is Super junior at least or anyone man... sigh... if only visual kei will come. I really that will happen. Anyway just came back from my chalet and it was BLOODY HELL SADDENING .... i cried big time it is that sad and touching. this song is for my friends>>>

this is the lyrics {Big Bang - OH MY FRIEND}
OH MY FRIEND
[GD] 1, 2, 3, 4!
[DS] If this world makes you sad, say my name whenever and wherever
I am 911 emergency, for you only, I’m only 5 minutes away, yeah yeah
[SR] Your sorrow that you feel isn’t sorrowIt’s a rope that bonded us together
[YB] I’ll get wet in rain for you, run without a stop,
go through a rough wind yeahYour heavy burden,
dark shadow; I will block them all now
[Chorus NO BRAIN]Oh my friend oh my friend;
I will be your friend foreverOh my friend oh my friend;
only you can make me live
Oh my friend oh my friend;
I will become a tree behind you silently
Oh my friend oh my friend;
my friend I love you (dear) friend
[TOP] Let’s rock & roll, man I don’t control
Close your eyes and open your heart (Love & Peace)
Hope you dreamed (of), trust me, tells only truth without lies
Walk straight, limp at least once, mistakes can happen to anyone
Step on a failure and get up, goodbye to a wound that aches
[GD] (Yo) Come on! Hold my hand and let’s go, let’s look for a lost dream again
Let’s fly together, brush up dusts, let’s go together, a person next to you as well
We can’t see an end but future is bright, there are many chances because we are young
Let’s love each other, scream louder, FREEDOM!
[Repeat Chorus]
(Yea, yea, yea, here we go!)
[Bridge; DS + SR + YB]Leave from bored daily life as you dreamed
Run toward the dream, dear
Go away go away, let’s go away baby
Whoa ho, Whoa… oh oh ~ (GD: Big Bang, No Brain, haha once again(Yeaaa) Everybody RUN!
[Repeat Chorus]

What A relief

2008-10-18T08:26:00.000-07:00

OK I did not do well for my examinations this term and i am like freaking upset :(

Well I have no idea how to spent my holidays?? JIJIBOON I spent my time watching SUPER JUNIOR FULL HOUSE and ATTACK OF THE PIN-UP BOYS.

I like the show a lot it is super funny and i like KAng-in the best he is super funny.

His jokes are really nice and he gives me the best impression...

One thing I like most about him is he is not very girlish and does not care much about his look he is just very normal, chubby, cute and hilarious. HE IS MY TYPE!!!~

Another member I like most (...AFTER KANGIN...) is LEETEUK ;p

SUPER JUNIOR FOREVER

Yo The end of SCHOOL

2008-10-12T05:47:00.000-07:00

MAN I just can bear to split with my precious classmate and man this is really breaks people into agonized sorrows:( Listening to The GazettE to calm myself...*banging my head on a imaginary mayonnaise puddle on the floor* Talking about The GazettE THERE IS THE NEXT PSCarnival on the 1st month of 2009

Exam is over >.<

2008-10-12T01:32:00.000-07:00

This semester's paper was pretty difficult and yes i had doubts in scoring high, in fact I wonder if I could even get into A-math class considering math is my weakest and I hate like it is a mayonnaise killer. Got addicted to another food and that is sausages!!! The thought of it sizzling in the toaster just make my mouth water and pretty thoughts conjured in my mind. 'ADD MAYONNAISE', 'ADD HONEY AND MUSTARD DRINK IT DOWN WITH CUCUMBER JUICE', 'DIP IT IN COKE AND EAT WITH PIG'S SKIN'

Anyway there is nothing much to do during the holidays. The Malaysia trip is cancelled

:( *DAMN THOSE BANANA FIGHTERS* Will I be jailed if I say that? WHO CARES.

This year someone precious is leaving me, in fact every year someone is leaving from me...:(

Please don't leave me alone

I just want to hold on to your hands

The warmth of your tears, pour on my world like rain

Drop your dreams, Ah~how selfish I had been

Lala~i am crying like a cat,

haha~you're like the dreams in my nap

That blows when you pat my hand

Time such nasty things, such playful beings

I'll miss the time we eat our first beef patties

As we talk about a boy-girl relationship

Life couldn't get better

Life would be different without you....

LALA~Will it be beautiful?

So well this is dedicated to my lovely friends and kins. Well as for what I will do this holiday? Read books, write lyrics (LOTS OF THEM), draw disfigured faces, eat a big mayonnaise diet and watch lots and lots of concert... I think there won't be any overseas trip installed this holiday due to the GLOBAL economic crisis and my father countering at a position near the frontline:(

Looks like another series of financial rationing is needed that means o.0 the returns of DOOMS-KRY.....................................

*listening to plastic tree- Replay to calm down*

REPEATED COUNTLESS ERROR

2008-08-08T02:58:00.000-07:00

ITS FINALLY OUT THE LONG WAITED ITEM I PROMISED TO CHERISH. I am buying at well just hope no one finds it haha.Youtube has it already, and many people say that it is very like yokohamas' with not much surprises. It seems like Ruki was rushing in his song and there was little emotion mixed in with it. Screams were made at the wrong time. Every individual was good but it did not put a tingle on the audience skin. BUT WHO CARES!!! But i expect them to be better, seeing those comments, i really wonder what ere they doing. SCARED? I can't say much because I am not a musician, but I really expected more...

DOMO-KUN Revolution

2008-08-02T06:18:00.000-07:00

I am in love with DOMO-KUN. It is super cute and he is freaking hilarious, i went to see one of the AMV of his and it was hahahahaha... (the song is by The Pillows-21 Fingers)

Wow!! Shocked

2008-08-01T07:20:00.000-07:00

Today I was damn angry in choir. i was scolded by my junior (I don't wish to name her.) i ask her to move a bit and she scolded me, "Aiya never mind lar, you not seating here! Go the other side lar." <[-.-]> I was so pissed man. Yesterday I went to bollywood veggie farm and darn it is beautiful. But it do be nicer if we went on a breezy day. Well to day is the first day of the seventh month hope nothing happens to me, since I am prone to staring.... Well the whole month was ok accept the fact that I had to escape many ways from Amanda's physical training. Never mind Si Xian's expectation and task is even torturous.

The quiet Singapore

2008-07-20T06:05:00.000-07:00

Today after dinner with my uncles and aunt we went to a secluded place near Hort Park and it was beautiful. I had never seen Singapore with so much greenery and I felt so relaxed so stress-free. I vowed to go back there to take a look and mebbie have a picnic. Seriously those residents sure know how to lead a good life. Well today nothing special really happened accept the fact mayday concert DVD cause a boom and I like Jam Hsiao's 蕭敬騰 vocal. He is a midnight sensation. I really got touch by his voice. However I don't think he is suited for singing sentimental like Sodagreen's [Xiao Qing Ge].

The move

2008-07-19T07:36:00.000-07:00

Well we quarrelled and it was horrible (in my opinion)so I had enough and I felt I had treated them too bad. I am not fit to accept their care and concern. I am such handful that I myself found myself hateful and disgusting. We can't accept each other, so to save everyone I give up first. It was so much easier, so much faster. I feel tired too tired i can't sleep. Mum is scolding me by the bed.

China Trip

2008-06-07T07:54:00.000-07:00

Long time no blog already. So how was life? NOT SO BAD! well exam was over and I did PRETTy well all A1s' and A2s'. I came in fifth in class right after Si Xian and I was so happy. BUT I think I should improve more on my english, so I started reading more books. I am currently in love with Haruhi Murakami and Soseki Natsume's works. It is really lovely. It talks about the world and the character's view towards his or her own life and the people surrounding her. I think their books are more close to the livelihood of us humans. Well I just came back from China. I went to Shanghai and Beijing and I must say, although they are both parts of China, one is the capital and another is a commercial district, Beijing is so much more peaceful and clean. The environment they portray to the tourist is a place filled with rich history. It also exert a sense of uniqueness and hospitality. However it is not as prosper as shanghai nor is it a concrete jungle with high rise buildings. THe most memorable thing I did is I act smelly toufu and it is delicious the XIao longbao, beijing duck and fried sauce ramen is delicious. I totally love it. It is a whole new experience for me. Great wall of China is just magnificent, one of the beauties mankind have created.

Watching this show very funny

Camping

2008-03-11T06:32:00.000-07:00

It was an interesting experience and I really love it. The most memorable time is the warcry camp. I would say it is a mixture of happiness and sadness. I was really demoralised when everyone seem dejected and sadden. They were all relunctant to participate and I was really sad I was about to cry. And who knows the most ah bang in class, Amirul cheered me up. I could not explain how sad I was when I saw all the girls in my class so discouraged. Man in the end it was still a success. Of course it is also not only my job it is all thanks to zhihui and shuan. It was a really emotional experience. I would really like to thanks the whole of sec 2F for making it so memorable day. Well right now I am at grandma's house. I really love it here. Spending time with an elderly especially my granny is really peaceful. I felt really free. The air I smelt was so fresh. I really like my granny's house it is spacious and clean no heavy aura. It gave me memories of the last few days with mommy and daddy. I love the shampoo. Oh yea you know this few days I was really pissed with Juaniter I felt like screaming in front of her. I don't even know if she is interested in this friendship. And she is so frequently mood swinging . So angry it is like only she can get angry and hurt people. I hate it it is so selfish. OMG i really hate people like that. I hope she can improve her attitude i dunt wish to thin this bond. Now I am currently into Amy Winehouse

My days

2008-02-23T06:05:00.000-08:00

Well it was okok I went to the zoo for CIP and it was a bit exciting and a bit boring aha. Now I am like spending time reading and studying. My grades were good and a few surprising like top for Chinese in the hold secondary two and distinction in math. I was really happy wanted to continue the good job and I wrote some songs and was praised by my friends. I was really happy that they like the songs and really hope to create more inspiring ones. Well there was one issue that i felt really concerned. It was about Natasha Jamilah. Well I sat with her last year the whole year. To me she is a really quiet girl and it takes a really long time for her to open up to you and well I am not sitting next to her and she is sitting with amanda now and well she is suffering so is amanda because they hate each other. So once Amanda hurt her when her heart was already shattered and bleeding becuse she has not even one friend. She is alone. She cried and as her first friend I felt a mixture of guiltiness and sadness and I really want to help her but I can't I don't know why I just fear to lose my current friend becuase of her. I felt really selfish and disgusting. i FELT LIKE CRYING. i TOLD MY FRIENDS AND THEY TELL i WAS JUST EMOTIONAL. What Am I going to do???? I felt really sad
Tears I cried was bleeding crimson blood.

Songwriting

2008-02-23T05:34:00.000-08:00

I wrote a song and it I used the Billy joel's pianomen

Mr. Aaron’s Fantasy

It six o’clock on a morning dawn
As the sun goes up shining
It says its time to milk the cow
While running for a mile

Oh~ Jesse time to wake up
Time to show the world~

Run as the wind shows you to your way
Fly like a bird as you dash the plains
Sway like a grass as your father stood
Looking proudly at you

Oh~ dream, dream of being me
Dream of fantasies

Oh~ what are you doing? I’ll like to ask
Why are you stuck in this place?
You could be a cartoonist~
What was in your head?

As god heard your plead and grant you a wish
You had met a new friend…
Someone who like dreaming a dream
Someone who like imagining

Come play a game, our secret game
Where our confidents will gain
Open our eyes as we waken our minds
To see the world so nice

Oh~ dream, dream of being free
Free for fantasies

Sing us a song, you are now a man
Sing us a song about your land
It’s bitter, sweet? But I know it’s complete
Like how your friendship has been

Don’t worry now its going to be fine
Your wish has ended early
But so has your test been started now
To prove you are worthy for a crown

But is it some kind of joke god had given me
To prove I’m a good kid
Do I looked like a boy who didn’t mind
To lose a good friend of mine

Can you feel the pain I tried to suppress?
As my tears flew down freely like the river flow
How I ach as the glorious day…
No longer shine on my head

So dreams are only dreams
Don’t say such lonesome thing
Just see the day in a brighter way
To make the day a little gay…

here is how the real song is like and I really like it

enjoy!

The Holidays

2008-02-10T02:31:00.000-08:00

I would have to say it is very eventful. I watched a total of three movies. Long Pte led, CJ7 and KUngfu Dunk. And I would have to say the best is of course Jay chou's Kungfu dunk very nice and very funny. Never see jay chou so childish before. Anyway pay a visit to fathers old man and god was his new house pretty.It was at bukit panjang and it is the best haha. Well skinny old ma says come live at her house. Well like hell no. I don't know what they may do to me. And please I don't think anyone in my mama's family will allow. Sigh~ tough life. Yeah a have wholesome love from everyone but heck I ini't not feeling it. Went to cineleisure yesterday to look for the shop. ZOMG it just dissappear and I can't find it. And god pissed me, out came second bro Meng and zhihao. WTFG are they following me because they are watching the same movie at THE SAME TIME!!! Lucky it was not the same hall. Or I would run home and pack my things and find a living at KL. Well got to go my uncle's computer is going geexiao already. BYES well end of holiday let hell break out man

Videos DAY \ >.< /

2008-02-08T01:55:00.000-08:00

Here is some video I really love.

Phanstamagoria - Eternal silence

LUNA SEA - BELIEVE (GOD BLESS YOU～One Night Dejavu～)

This are really touching songs from the pioneers of visual kei and yeah they disbanded. Lets have a few minutes of silence

The Chinese Day

2008-02-08T01:00:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was the day of the chinese new year. And it was really nostalgia./ Why nostalgis? Well I went on a walk to jelta and it was really fun. The street was the same as the past 3 years and henry park was the same except the parade square thwy are building something more and it seems to be another sports hall. SO lucky lar. If only repeat primary school. Khai Xin said everyone miss. Puh-lease like they will. They are like so happy. LIke they will remember me. O.0 Anyway I went to jelta and wanted to buy this mushroom and two mushroom cost 2.49 singapore dollars. I was like wow are you sure. Daddy even allow me. He rwally know how to spend. He actually pay thousands of dollars to buy a limited edition watch. Ridcule. I mean you can like know them does not mean you buy them rite. A thousand of dollars can allow me to attend 10 of The gazette tour including air tickets. HAHAHAHA. Well later we went to Suntec and ate korean food before buying a big bloody duck. He say he is going to cut it. Well I am fine excluding the head dangling with its eyes staring with retorting agony and it intestine that drips mercilessly down as it entangles into a massive gut mash. hopeless insane mental image of death really disgusting. I wonder how it feels to slaughter a cow. Imagine a blood clot up milk. *shudder* Well never mind after that I went home. And use my computer till 10pm. Then I watch MTV EMA awards 2007. With Snoop Dogg as MC hot I will say. From them I get to know 30 seconds to Mars. Not really that good as MCR but is really nice. At least there is not much screaming. And there is Nelly Furtardo and TOKIO HOTEL who won an award. I love tom not bill. Tom's guitar skills is much better and tom only know how to sing only. Tom is very funny ok >.< Yea kool It was held in Munich by the way and the stage was BIG and PRETTY and the crowd was just lovely. I am like in land gaming shop with all my cousins now and I am the only one blogging right now. Which is kind of weird but who cares a fuck right. haha anyway i ust went to my mother's mama house for visit and well one thind it is crap up boring. But I watch this show on tv it is a japanese variety show. About primary kid bounding their leg to another kid and running acros 50 metres and there is like 30 kids so it was really hard to run. I was touched by their teamwork and really think it is touching I actually cried okies. Another thing I felt like crying is Luna sea's One night De JaVU during last year's chiristmas eve I felt like crying. It was my first time listening to them and I had such great emotions. Oh wonder so many people like them. it is deepest regret to not listen to them. Well got to go le bye

Happy Chinese New Year!!!

2008-02-06T05:46:00.000-08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!

Life was not so simple after ALL !!! Aunt said she will take my radio away so I can't listen to music AT ALL anymore. I am really angry that I cried a lot of times alone. I really long for freedom. I mean my mum is so much better. I really hate it when people push me into a corner. I really hate it.... Hatred just swell up in my head and heart. I really my current lifestyle. It is rotting me into a person of greed. It is like this, when you have no love no freedom there you are, a person who do evil for attention and a person who try all ways to find happiness that people think is freedom.

Anyway never mind that... IT is CHINESE NEW YEAR yea. This years chinese new was quiet... very quiet. NOT that it is a bad idea because I really enjoyed the peacefulness brought by the silence. We took a late night bus of 111 to see the quiet night life of orchard road and it was really kool. Imagine what will happen if no one evers patronize orchard again. That would be the result. So life can really be pleasant if you imagine it that way. I watched the Bridge to Terabithia and I find the story really wonderful. I tells us to not only see your surroundng with your eyes but also with your mind. 'Keep your mind wide open'. That is something I really appreciate. We must have an open mind, A mind that debates, a mind that accept and rejects. You must have all three and the most important... imagination. Everyone has different way of imagine, for me I like to imagine things that I long for which is typical to all people. I also think of the past and reflect. I like to compare. I like to complain. I complaint to my mind. i complaint to i.... I also like to think of freedom, life and all the beautiful word I can think of. Anyway What I want to say is most of the time I prefer to stay alone and peaceful. I don't like to mess in the crowd unnesscarily. Anyway thats all I got to write HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR. Oh I have another blog. NICE !!!! It is a music blog so yea awesome >.< Well going to Jealita so yea BYES here is Alicia Keys in Japan for you

2008-02-06T05:45:00.000-08:00

Guren

2008-01-28T04:48:00.000-08:00

I found this really touching. Though I may not know much about the conflict that happened in their country. So no offense ok. I think Pink really spoke her mind out and i find it really daring being able to be heard AND ACCEPTED by a crowd of thousands of people. HAHA. Actually I am blogging on the SLY. Anyway you know Aoi's birthday is on the 20th leh so sad I did not know *sigh* Anyway i found the Guren video and I really like wait arh here it is sexy you know Ruki. They created a series of jewellery called JamCherry Debut The GazettE I only like Ruki's necklace, the rest is very plain leh....

2008-01-26T22:02:00.000-08:00

Wow so long never blog. REally miss this place LOL anyway... well i am still a big fan of visual kei haha. I heard really bad news and good news. Tora-san have spinal disc heiration. that means he has spine problem. He is healing now but I am really worried for him. They are fetting more popular it will be unfortuanate if he quit. All the best I hope... Well recently many things happen.... Like an excursion to Esplanade to catch a live performance of local production 'Beauty World' Nice cabaret show. Very funny. Anyway this month was a really bad month lol. The cd i burn was confiscated, I cant go back to hpps again. SAD! anyway I am now at my father house spending weekend there. I saw the Guren video already nice man. Now currently my favourite song LOL. Also got miyavi new mv. But I dunno i dun like miyavi new mv. No Sugizo SAD. I really want to talk to Khia lor miss her. My school days are worse... MY test are getting worse so hard. ESPECIALLY chemistry in science. I don't even thing I can go to shanghai anymore. SAD.... I freaking want to go to japan but unless got good results leh. HOPELESS lor. My relation with my relative is thinning in my head. SIGH.... here is a poem i suddenly thought:

The things we did churn as the clock chim in peace

No longer are we gripping as we question the fate reality

Soon have we lost the reasons that keep ringing...

No more bond that cheer through lonesome years

So where have we gone to draw a line

In't we all the same

You and I

The title erm... is 'Silent Disappear'

Anyway I have been writing all the small things everywhere. In my portfolio beside my pictures everything. What i think i write out, i sing out, i draw out. weird right here is a picture i like....

ガゼット.ルキ Ruki

Anyway Here is the Guren MV that just came out really nice especially Urha-senpai's solo. WEll I got to go already will come back later.

miyavi and Sugizo

2008-01-10T22:19:00.000-08:00

I so long never blog already. School is fun especially with juaniter, jaslin and si xian. Got new girl, she is called Wendy damn freaking rich lar. But i don't really like her i think she is very braggart and like to xuan yao. She like everything also know. From piano grade four to SJAB corporal position. Hope she dont know guitar or i die for her to see. LOL. Anyway Shikana found Miyavi new singles and I found this band that is scarier then THe Gazette or even MARILYN MANSON called NoGod but they remind me of Janne de Arc Acid Black Cherry. Anyway I don't really like the Wendy girl because I think shelike very fake i mean how can you be a corporal at the same time as a choir member. But her voice is very good, she in soparano one. I don't know is it i jealous of her is it. But whatever I can tell she is one who have never gone through hard life before. Well she is really afraid of insects. Actually I am very scared also. But Well she is rich unlike me who have to run whenever i see creditors. LOL tough life then.... I still remeber the sucidal day. Never forget that. It was one of the complete blank out days. I still remember the day I was caught stealing in the bookshop LOL. Like stealing is only done by bad people..... Anyway I am like really rebellious this few days. I just can't take the sudden change after holiday. I like totally lost all my chance of using the computer and listen to music. I was like so crazy that I even thought of piercing my lip again. I was like standing at this tattoo shop at Thoing wanting to pierce my lip like miyavi and Aoi. AHHH how much I wish for an exciting life. I want to have a lot a lot a lot live shows. I want to be a guitarist like urha. Anyway my schooling life is very boring. Anyway found a few really pretty live concerts again

I really like the lighting at the starting it was really nice. Mao is a really got singer and he really portray as a jazz singer on a verge of screaming obscenities.

SChool starts....

2008-01-04T07:44:00.000-08:00

so yup the school start like three days ago. Very nice. OKOK. I am sitting with Juaniter and she is really nice. I love her. I like her A LOT.... She is a really good friend. I like Si Xian and Jaslin and Yan Er. They all my girlfriends. And they are really important friends to me. I cherish them like how i cherish Khia Lynn. *SMILE* Anyway... School was fun I like it a lot. I have new teachers like the english teacher who is very nice and very easygoing. And my old math teacher who I wrote FUCK to her..... We had new students. VERY quiet veryveryveryveryvery One is a korean. She like Rain haha... Another is a Indonesian. And she is from queensway last year. Cool. She is nice. And she is filthy rich. She live in Orchard Road. WHATEVER!!! Like I care. But She is nice. SWEET. Wonder she like Visual Kei? I had orientation for sce one and I must say they are all bitches man. MAke friends with a few band seniors wow I like them. Angela like Gazetto. Ok not like but heard of them. I like them. Well now at parents house. So can use computer. Aunt won't allow even do online assignment they must see me do. I hate it no privacy. I don't like how they controll me even worse then mum. At least mum allow me to touch it. They son't even allow!!!. I am like trying to burn cd because I only left a radio. KANASHI!!! Anyway juaniter next wednesday. Must buy present for her. Her birthday 8th january. Now I don't know what to get her??? Now I am crazy of Tactics the manga very nice. I just love japanese demon. I want to see a tengu. handsome one. LOL Miss visual kei. Now listening to mayday only. JUST WAIT. Blogging stop now trying to blog at least twice a month. Got things then blog. BYES (bought a new tactics book cost $5.50 lat time only $5.00 lor stupid GST)

HAPPY NEW YEAR

2007-12-31T02:12:00.000-08:00

A new year is coming soon. So... HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! I hope next year will be better than the last 3 years. I hope everything can remain the same. Still intact. I just hope for that. It is simple but difficult but i dun give damn about it. This 3 years taught me a lot. Give me a lot of learning experience. But I just want to take a break. To follow the normal pace. I just want to see a new perspective. I want to be normal... I will still be me. I will still be a visual kei fan but i will open my mind bigger. It will be slow but as time come it will be normal soon. So I had a resolution: A peaceful 2008 onwards.
I am following up on other genres of music like R&B. I love this song by Rihanna "Umbrella". I did destest it at the starting thinking that it holds no meaning, but actually it was very catchy and I'm totally addicted to it. Last time I was not a big fan of english songs but I'm ok with it now. Some of them were really touching like Red Jump Suit Apparatus. They have this song "my guardian angel" which I thought was really pretty. Finally found a new collaboration by Miyavi and and I really like it. Guren single coming out soon. Khia is screaming off my head. We need to meet someday. Hope that the reunion will be starting soon. I hope I can get back to it soon when I'm more steady. Taking a break for a while, but on and off willl still check up on them because very busy.
So won't be blogging for quite a while. Will stick back to yellow book. If I can find a computer then I will blog. Ulverworld has new album called Corpulaton. Kinokuniya will the only place to quench my thirst.
Alice nine label mate beast disbanded. Shika cried so sad meh. I only like their song "days" Krysyella

HIKING!!!!!!!!!

2007-12-30T01:20:00.000-08:00

Today went with my father and Aunty Jacaulinqe to HIKE at BUKIT TIMAH HILL O.O Freaky she damn fit lor. But really the place very nostalgia. It remind me of primary 5 diary farm camp a lot. I really like those time although there is BAD time.... But hey still kool with it. I didn't really participate in any of the games though. SCARED of it mah. Height scared. VERY!!~ I like the stream A LOT. Then after that went to sunset estate to eat shabu shabu. WAH OIISHI~ I love beef with raw eggs. I really like the beef so tender. ARGH I want to stay there forever. That estate very nice, very peaceful. Soma live there she told me before. Never went to her house though. WOnder how she is??? Arh~ miss 6A.... After that went to Eunos to warehouse shopping.... CAnt find the warehous in the end. Stranded for atleast an hour. Wasting time lor... Any way that is all I did today. Found this website with Miyavi new singles. I heard it .... FANTASTIC. He collaborate with his senpai SUGIZO. VERY GOOD http://soso2008.multiply.com/music/item/206 I like the song. A LOT. He is having his next tour soon next year. Even to the United States. The GazettE have new singles soon too Guren Khia told me on the Feb 13. MYV is on jan 18. I think CAnt really remember... Well Got to Go love BYees~

ARGH!!!! The GazettE kool

2007-12-29T05:48:00.000-08:00

The Words I want to blog got problem so I lost it. FUCK-UP computer *middle Finger*

Choir Concert 23/12

2007-12-24T01:50:00.000-08:00

Well the concert was a huge success !!! It went really well. All of us was able to listen and feel together. There was this part where all of us flat together! AWESOME. It is like we were thinking the same thing. Like we are one. It is really kool and I love the sound balance. Although the audience is not really enthusiastic. But all in all i got the feeling of a performer and I really like it a lot and at the starting I was really nervous but in the everything was okok. Guess why? I was like in my head thinking I need to calm down. Then I thought of Ruki. He is performing in front of 17.000 people and it was so well. And he is the only vocalist so if he WENT OFF PITCH. It will be a hard time to cover. Maye the guitar. Or ig the sound man was fast to change it the volume down. Imagine his circumstances allowed me to calm down and listen to my rest of the members. So most of the time I thought of them. LOL right. Here I am singing vocals while thinking of rokkou. But it works though. Instead I remained calm really really calm anyway yeah. It was holy god fun. I was like hey is there encore? I WANT TO SING AGAIN!!!!!!!! Choir really help collect part of the experience I need. But I know it is not sufficient. Someday I know I need to create a whole lot of trouble to get that min. experience. YES I will head of to Nippon to take a look. And if by chance maybe catch a show at yokohama hall or Budokan. NUMBER ONE dream step into this two concert hall as and employee, employer or ARTISTES. Lolol. NVM I just want to help bring a good concert. As a child I have always dream that and I will work hard to step foot in there. Well or I need to do now is study. LOL really that may lift my closer. Don't know. Khia lynn is working hard to perfecting her piano while me is the guitars. She is going for song writing courses. LUCKY her. I am like struggling really hard to get inspiration. I like every time I watch a concert I will then think of inspiration. So I love watching concerts. They let my mind do pretty imaginations. Allow me to see a things in all kind of way. I really love concert especially those really pretty ones. The GazettE is another. Alice Nine is also okok. But I want something big. Massive. I think I will need to work really hard to write songs like Ruki and play like Aoi. The choir concert is just the start of my performer journey and no way it will quench my thirst for concert. I will start fast. And I want to catch up fast really fast. And it is not about any genre. All means and ways I will do it. HAHAHA. LOL tsk.tsk now I am grounded from using the computer because I used it till the late nights and I watch The GazettE. HAHAHA inspiration freak I am. Well now is all up to me. Independents no way can I rely on anyone any more. I lost one person close. No more freaking such bonds any more. Attachment free. That is good. I love no one. LOL that is sweet. Friends I have. I need is seclusion. What I want is my ambition, my lust, my dream. YES nuts I am. I must admit I am NUTS but i Love the feeling so yep happy. I will look at satisfactory. I will only take, learn all that. THAT IS ALL NO MORE SHIT FEELINGS OF LOVE...........................
GOTTA GO WRITE TO YOU Went I can. maybe next holiday. BYE

20th december 2007

2007-12-20T05:56:00.000-08:00

Sorry did not write for so long. I was really lazy. Well this few days I had a few calls from Khia Lynn and I really miss her. LOL. But well my family members disagree with me hanging with her. Well understandable since both of us talk like crazy people lol. Im like really pissed lor. When I was like talking halfway my aunt or my cousin will start FREAKING. I talked about Andrea has a boyfriend. I am really angry with this stupid timing for my bedtime. OKies about Andrea well she is nuts… WHY? Well I said before about the oral sex that she had with Evan, her boyfriend, mind you. She… to say in an ugly way…. She gave Evan a blow job. Right AND nearly got herself FUCKED. What the hell…. I am like really shocked that Andrea, a complete social withdrawal, the last time I see her was like this now. I mean yar she is wild and crazy at times. She does physical harm on herself… but no way can I believed she did that. YAR they may think they used condoms so it is no biggie. But hey, Khia told me the guy is a HIV freak and also a freaking drug addict. No sniffing…. It is JABBED. With a bloody non-sterilized needle and she still love him, till she has BDSM dreams of that Australian good-for-nothing. Grate and I thought she was a bisexual…. I was really happy that she has a boyfriend… someone of the opposite sex who care for her. I mean I was happy. I thought they would you know… know their limit that their age allow. NONO what was I thinking no Andrea is not! She have to do it so fast. And The guy he is every problem that a girl do not want frustrating. I am really worried for her. I talked to khia lynn yesterday I missed. I really want to talk to someone who like visual kei. Someone like me. I was happy when I talk to her I just want to continue talking till in the morning. I was really happy and glad to hear her voice. She is the only person who understand my favourism of the music. Well yar I really love talking to Khia. And I think my aunt and cousin are really extreeeemely protective of me. I mean I really like to scare them. I will pretend to like you know not go to choir when I actually got to scare them. Well I had many happy things this few days also. There is like this shop on the six floor in cineleisure that sells The GazettE guitar pick and photos. They also have Miyavi and Alice Nine very kool. Khia says there is punk-rock and lolita clothes. They can cosplay as Vk artiste. I wonder if have GazeROCK t-shirt. WOW I really wonder when I can go to Japan. I must like study really hard like hell next year to go to Japan. I really want to take a look at Budoukan. I really want to check it out and so is Harajuku. Anyway well I am like really busy with the stupid choir concert. Man Yaner's voice was really good. She was like praised by Miss Khor. Trying really hard to get my pitching correct. LOL. Anyway still listening to The GazettE. Find them too kool to ditch. Hope to meet them in live. My dream is like to have a concert with them lor. Well Anyway still trying to handle my choral voice cum rock voice together. Really diffcult. Practising hard on Guitars too. So well I am 13 so I hope to be better whrn I am 18. Still not giving up my studies. Still studying hard. STill worried with maths though. But I think the rest should be okies. Just memorize. I LOVE MEMORIZING. I feel pre-occupied. Well I think I must do really well I MUST GET FOUR PERFECT A's IN ORDER TO HEAD TO TOKYO... HOPE TO CATCH SOME FAMILIAR FACES ^^ & BUY SOMETHING I LIKE (still thinking)

Running o.0

2007-12-12T06:54:00.000-08:00

Omg I had to go running today.xain lor Well. I had choir today and it was fun. WAtching Moon child now...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FubcVQKaFHE&NR=1

11 December day.... DEATH DAY?

2007-12-12T02:48:00.000-08:00

OMG I like totally spend my whole day shopping. And believe it was totally not enjoyable. I had to shop for a white polo t-shirt and a FUCKING white skirt. What in the name of any god did I buy a skirt? Because my choir concert's costume consist of it. DAMN it... I was really irritated lor okok. I can't find a single white skirt and the polo shirt I found was way translucent that I need a singlet inside. And my boobs totally showed. I really wish I am a flat-chest. I mean I don't mind no guys liking me. At least I look nice. Anyway nowdays guys don't go for girls with big chest. If they really do, they are just imature. BUT however.... my day was brighten in the end, because I bought two shirt that fit exactly and look NICE on me. >.<>.<

Choir

2007-12-10T06:22:00.000-08:00

Well went to Queenstown for choir. It was damn tiring but we didi not lose face. LOL Queenstown haas really improved though. DOn't feel like blogging today. Reading Naruto fanfiction. BDSM LOL. Anyway here is a video I personally like.... It got my favourite guitarist....

Well I will blog tommorrow well byees~

My friend called...

2007-12-09T17:11:00.000-08:00

I spent the morning watching wu yue tian concert and The GazettE concert. I was doing concert analysis. Well Final Home was really tame while The GazettE was really... wild. Final Home has more props and it is more grand but the atmosphere is not really 'crazy'. It is high, it is very happy and touching but I think it lack the kind of crazy antics that The GazettE holds. Well it is also partly because of the songs actually. Wu Yue Tian's song is too happy, too pure. That is why no matter how much scary sound effect we put it does not holds the atmosphere of a dark world. They actions too were too wide, too smothering. Soft and all that. That is why they have so many people who like them. They prove to the world that rock those always have to be abut screaming and shouting. They also can be tame and all that. There could also be really meaningful meanings hidden in it. As for The GazettE... well their concert is really wild. From the deem lightening and sound effect you can sense they are stressing on something sorrowful. They scream at the correct time, at the point where they emphasis the meaning of the song. They use different hand signs and all kinds of method to show the expression of each different song. There was this part where Ruki was doing nice hand rail sliding and he was sucking his hand. Man that was nuts. He really showed he was singing a song of sex. Mega LOL. Anyway I like most is the echo effect. So when they scream it sound like the scream is still ringing in your ear after it ended 10 sceonds later. And Aoi-san scream was really nice. It was really awesome the two bands. It showed to different side of rock. So if you ask who I would prefer... well I think both were good in their ways. But truthly I think it was The GazettE. Am I being prejudice like what Mengmeng say? Well we were about to go for dunner at Sakura BUFFET and guess who called? WU KHIA LYNN. It was so embarrassing when she shout into the phone and my aunt and cousin heard it. She called because she saw MANA'S GUITAR -.- Well really I am not really a big fan of Malice Mizer. They are like okok. But she is a big fan... But seriously I really miss her and her screams of visual kei. But just the thought left to worry again. I can't talk to her musch any more.... I have just landed in a good school. I can't go bak to them. I can't continue with our crazy antics. SIGH* Well later after dinner which was nice, we went to kinokuniya. And I found Neo Genesis Yearbook. And guess who was on the front cover? THE GAZETTE. ARGH.... can't they just leave me alone. Every where is them..... And another sad thing... BIS is disbanding why...why. They are really nice people and their sounf are good. They are label mates of Alice Nine. ARH.... Well then later I got really mad with my cousin MengMeng. I really don't like when he act kool lor. Like you know like jay chou or something.... It is stupid. Then him caring about everything of me. My language, my english, my music, my manners. I mean I don't give a damn lor. He like give this really blank face when I say something nasty. Which I hate.... And he treat me like a kid, like I don't know what I am saying. Once I say I help him buy bondage pants. He saying I don't know what it means. OF course I do, but please don't be so sensitive lar. It is only a pants. It is not like I am going to ask him to use it for BDSM. GROSS.... Bloody mental image. That is so scary. Well i need to go le. TIME for choir. At queenstown....secondary hope to see josephine or yuping

About that saturday 8th Dec

2007-12-08T20:05:00.000-08:00

ok I am now like being irritated by my dear cousin.... wait sorry nono not dear.. I need to analysis concert then they come kachou me. LOL Now they are complaining about my english like shit. Anyway about yesterday. Well in the morning I went to Suntec City shoppin. with my dad, aunt, uncle and grandma. There was this Gothic lolita shop at 'Mr. PLAYground'. Quite big.... As big as the one in Bugis. OKOK mebbie I can't really fit in any of them. But I really feel happy when I saw it, at least I know I am not the only one that like it right. They maybe have GAZErock is NOT Dead T-shirt. If it is cheap maybe I can buy for Khia Lynn as birthday present. I really miss her man. Anyway later I went to tuition and you know what Ah Leow said.... 'Hey, your past live is a boy you know...' I ask how he know, he say I look like a boy and act like a boy. Maybe got put the wrong sex for me. LOL because he say I would be a very pretty boy. Well~ after tuition I headed for my FIRST lesson of guitar. It was really fun and exciting. The teacher is really. His guitar skills are awesome. I was really nervous and I can't really sight read fast enough so I jumbled up. Even easy songs like 'Ode for Joy' was a challenge to me. Half of the lesson I was thinking of three guys.... Aoi-san, Urha-san and guitar god, Miyavi Kami-sama. I really want to be like them or at least like the Danger Gang guitarist, Hiko,( She is a female)
Well after the lesson we went back to dad's house to watch football with my dad uncle and cousin. Well for me it was not exactly watching football... I was busy using the computer to change my blog. background. Tedious for a technologynoob like me. Well that was all for my day in 8th December 2007. oh yar I got a christmas present. It was from my second uncle. It was a cushion... I guess. I was touch... it was my first real christmas present.

PS company picture

2007-12-08T08:24:00.000-08:00

This are the picture taken during the PSC Carnival tour 2005. YAYA-Chan just added words so it is not real. (I meant the one on the right)

This was during the *What a Wonderful World* Era. I think it is one of the most colourful dressing he had. But one of the most serious ones. He like very long never smile.

This was I think during the M.R.D concert back in 2005. It was one of the happy moments I guess. I think Ruki was forcing Reita to sing with him. They really good mates man.

Well I cant really blog now. I am at my dad's house with my uncle and two cousin. STUPID football. Well write tomorrow.....

LUNATIC running!!

2007-12-07T05:35:00.000-08:00

OMFG. Here I was walking home from choir and I met this guy. Well he is a stranger. But at the starting he just as me where block 150 is? As I am new I don't really know either. But suddenly he just say thanks and shake my hand. Then not only that he ask me if I am scared of cats when we saw one. Mega LOL.... What the Hell he is really freaky. Then he ask if I am a Chinese. He thinks I am a Malay, Eurasian mixed. Well weird for a stranger to ask. Not that no one ask. I mean they will like say behind my back, 'Hey that malay girl can speak chinese' Anyway, he freaked me when suddenly he patted my back. Great I thought I will be raped anytime. SO I just walked quickly to the lift. Then he followed me. I was like really freak if he go into the lift with me. But he just stood outside. AND he ask me my name. Guess what name I gave? Lee Shu FU. I can't think of any name to give, so the first thing I thought and then say was SHU FU. Weird name maybe I was thinking of Tou Fu.... Well he ask me where I studied I said Queenstown. -.- BIG LOL. It is really freaky. I was like thinking... 'what will he do to me?' 'Is he a lunatic?' 'blablahblah.. I was like really shocked today when Andrea say she did erm.... oral sex with her boyfriend, Evan. And not only that erm well she dreamt of a BDSM dream with Evan??? CAn that be any grosssss~ Well I will never loss my virginity that young. But she seems more than eager to get married and you know.... S.E.X.... And you know when she told me told me that I was actually watching Decomposition Beauty and.. man was Aoi's scream damn nice man. It was good. He is a really sexy screamer and guitarist. Well I don't know if this is true but Khia lynn say he is married.... SHIT. I like love him a lot lor. Well I also admire him. He rmind me greatly of Miyavi. AND he also have anger management
problems. SO I will catch him in South-East asia like never. First to Germany but never to any near SEA. Like NLSG and MRD and PWB are only in Japan and so on. Never in the life of me will they Sinhgapore. SO pissed. I hope they will hold a PScompany tour again. I would really hope soo~. IMAGINE all of them reunited. Miyavi and AOI!!!!

TO JAPAN!!! \o/

2007-12-06T18:44:00.000-08:00

OKOK this is really serious. I just find myself really happy this two days. Mebbie because I got my life back or something. Well I found a few really touching videos that I want to put in this lovely blog so I can remember it when I grow up. By then I would say 'hey that was the song that I like a when I was young'. WAY nostalgic.... Anyway I was like really going to study real real hard. WHY? Because if I get 4 As I would get to go to Japan. The place I always wanted to. OMG right!!! Then if I do better than that maybe I could buy a merchandise of any band I know. Unless if I come across lar. I don't think I will buy any albums because I could just download it online. RiGhT!! I mean I may find a Aoi PLUSHIE. LOL not buying Ruki's, or else Khia will snatch it away from me. MEGA LOL. Mebbie I should buy one for Khia. DID she like Ruki or Kai more?? Maybe there is Miyavi's concert DVD. ARH..... That is something not easily found in Singapore. WELL wish me good luck for year 2008!!!!
TO JAPAN MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The last Performanc I cried because it was really sad. Miyavi cried too. I was like OMG. Why does all band have to end up disbanded one day???

What A DAY!!!

2007-12-06T04:31:00.000-08:00

Wow I was like really happy and really mad. LOL. Mad because I was given by my all to nice cousin, WONG JUN MING. ARGH.... But anyway thanks to it I was really relieved... That I am still not a worthless computer geek. LOL. Well today I didn't really used the computer till now in the night. I was like watching the Final Fantasy Advent Childeren and... man was Cloud really good looking. Actually everyone in the anime is good looking. Even the baddie. And yea the baddie was the next handsome. BIG LOL. His voice kind of remind me of the vocalist from Antique Cafe damn cute. I loved all the fighting scenes. Meng brother love Tifa and long for his to come. MEGA LOL... Anyway well I forget to tell you something LAST saturday, first of december you know who I saw?? I think you also won't know. RYAN LEONG!!!~ He has grown up really fast. Well growing a bit more handsome haha. Well I really do miss him a bit. He was a really nice person if you know him well. And actually we got together *as friends* because he is a BIG FAN of Jay chou and so was I at that time. He is really nice prson trust me. Although he is a bit irritating and all at times. WEll I gtot my spectacles done. Purple totally fifferent no one I knowtried that so I gave it a shot. Well gtg reading naruto fanfiction

The GazettE

2007-12-04T22:49:00.000-08:00

Well I still cant really get over them. I mean how can you forget them. There is like 3 sexy guys gods no 4, no actually five sexy guy gods. And all of them basking under all the neonlights during the concerts. And freak look and Aoi in that translucent see-through shirt. I mean it was them hot~. Shit my fangirl is all up again.... *WEE FEELING HYPER* Anyway I think the most I cant resist is Ruki and Aoi. They are like really kool and all that. And man, Ruki can do some really sizzling things like... He is like licking his fingers all over. And was dancing in front of Urha or worst pole dancing with the fence. Totally eccentric. Oh wonder Khia love him the most. And my oh my Urha's leg is totally eye-opener lar. He have such nice thighs, I wish to have it too. *pouting* At the starting I thought he was a girl. Major LOL. Their songs are really nice too. I love how Ruki sings and his stage presence is awesome. Oh and Kai OMFG. You I saw this part of decomposition Beauty. Kai was like looking at the camera with the side of the eyes as he continue drumming and it was like really kool. He look damn hottie. He don't really look that innocent. Sometimes he can continue drumming non-stop like a lunatic. And you do think he has gone mad.... It was like he like possessed. LOL he is like totally different in backstage lor. Oh I found a band that look like The GazettE. AND I SAY LOOK. Yea the vocalist look a bit like Ruki when Ruki have blond hair and there is one that dress like Urha and have really sexy thigh. LOL AND they are from the same PSCompany!~ SHIT Brother saw it again. WELL MEBBIE they are not really lyrical nice.... but I would to like to learn for stage presents. Well after all I want to be hot like them. I decided to learn from AOI and RUKI!!!!!!!!!!

The Starting would be very boring all talking blahblahblah but the drumming is really nice and so is the duet with Reita. I think they work really hard to perfect their indivdual skills. And I must say it is not easy playing a bass guitar. 1) You get really influenced easily by the drummer and mixed your rhythem up 2) It is darn heavy. Carrying all day could kill you as it nearly killed me. 3) And the strings are bloody thick and it is really painful to press.

Bloody make-up

2007-12-04T21:54:00.000-08:00

Well today was the same Normal Day. Well other then the fact I scratch my face. I was like trying to follow how those visual kei people do their eyes you know... With thick eyeliner and all that. Well I just did a simple one... just with eyeliner. I learn it from the video. And well... it turned out nice with my hair down. I was make it well in the horror department. It was damn freaky... but I like it. But the problem is, it is bloody hard to remove it and I was like using the facial sponge to rub it. I rub for so long until can see my both eyes at the side got scratch. Very painful under the water... I wonder how visual kei people take it lor.... I learned a new japanese word koibito - sweetheart

Bloody Cursed Computer

2007-12-04T04:43:00.002-08:00

So ‘The Legendary Computer’ once again has broken down. The connection is damn bloody weird. It is will totally not working in alternate days. I was thinking of watching this anime called ‘Paradise Kiss’ or see if Crunchyroll has this anime called ‘Blaue Rosen’… *Dirty thought streaming through my mind* Well you know the things I said about my aunt yesterday? Well I understand why she was so agitated. She was really angry with dad because he just left mum’s picture in that women’s car. Which mum would really hate. And she felt really painful that, yesterday it was mum’s last day and dad still treat it in a relax way. In fact, he even puts her picture in such a hateful position. So yar that was what she felt really angry. My dad had really angered my mum over the pass few years…. Causing her to get liver cancer over the pass few years. In fact she has depression. LOL My mum has depression and I have anger management problems. Well I think I really cool off a lot unlike when I was Primary 4 to 5. I don’t know why… I don’t get angry often when I was outside, but I get pissed easily at home. It is like I am against something. Well about my mum’s depression… Well she had it when our family went totally wrong. First is my dad, his job, money management, illness and…. rumored affairs. Second is me of course, I was really rebellious; I had anger management problems, and my TYPE of music and of course my studies. Well not that I say I am very bad nor I am very good. But my mum really expects a lot from me. The more her standards rise the more I get angry, the more I hurt her… Well I would say I am an average kid, or one who is trying to be an average kid. I don’t gang bang. I don’t take drugs. I don’t smoke. I don’t play truant. I don’t even skipped class. Yes, I do talk a lot in class. I do talk back. I do sleep or zone out in class. I do sometimes don’t homework. But other than that I am okok. My grades are average. Not the best, not the worse. I know she did not really like my class in Primary school. She was really angry that I landed in that class. But I must say without that class I would not learn what the worse is like. They were really nice people though. They are just all problematic. Like me. I was like them, they were like me. That year I finally felt that I was not the only one, there were others. But I guess it did not last long. I went to secondary school. Well I did make a few nice friends but not close enough. They don’t really like what I like, and a few of them are really scary people. They are like people with a mine bomb, the minute you say something wrong or do something wrong, they kind of explode. Weird people. Well never mind about that…. My mum also hates the music I listen to. She say they are people who take drugs, who do unmistakable things, and they are really dark people and worshipped the ‘wrong things’, their lyrics are very dark also. In fact their voice tone will not match my chorus voice. LOL. Well yeah it may kind of affect me in my voice color and articulation. But I never say I will make a living in the choral world. In fact I want to experiment with different genre of songs. And in fact visual kei really express me well. It is a genre that can express all kind of things anger, sorrow, happiness and best of all confusion. I mean which genre can express as well as visual kei. Rhythm and Blues only express love and lust no more. Have they ever talk about friendship about family? Pop genre… I think it is a very funny genre. It is a really commercialized but in the mind of a music person… it is a very shallow form of music. The lyric holds not much of a meaning. And I like Visual Kei song because the songs lift my spirit up, make me depressed… and so on. Like Alice nine and Miyavi and Kra make me happy while The GazettE and Plastic Tree make me depressed. Well that is all I can say. About My dad you know lar….. Hopeless Geezers

Plastic Tree - Harusaki Sentimental

2007-12-04T04:27:00.000-08:00

I saw this PV and I was like really in love with this song. The vocalist is really handsome. And guess how old he is? HE IS LIKE
30++. The melody is really nice. I love it. It make me want to cry.
They are those lonely wholesome... Ryutaro is absolutely adorable. ♥

Outing with my dad

2007-12-03T05:24:00.000-08:00

Well today in the morning went to temple to pray to mother. It was really... quiet I dont dare to speak and ... well the same things went on. But today early in the morning I was so pissed. I was like insisting that I must buy the flower but my dad said no..... And you know why he say no, because it is the last day and he say that it is no use buying flower because the helper in the temple will clear it up. Fuck it... What kind of attitude.... Your wife is dead and you can't even present a flower to her on her last day. What a husband??? Then later I went out with him. And we had a special guest. Aunty Jacaliqne. Great we had her. We went to make a spectacles for myself. She came along we us, for dinner too. We went to Kushin-Bo to eat. That was Gulity NO1. Oh there is this place beside Kushin-bo. It is a garden. There is a fountain. It is nice place, very pretty during dusk. I bet mom will like it. That was Guilty NO2. Then we went to eat. I was having a lot of fun. Aunty was nice. That is Guilty NO3 and NO4. I like her but not as my new mum. She was fun to be with, she is my friend... I never treat her like my real mum. Then I went home. My 2nd aunt found out I went out with that aunt. I did not tell her the truth. I lied to her I only went out with dad. Then she got angry because I was unfilial. Because I was enjoying my time with someone else other then my mum. I am really shocked by her way of talking to me. I now know no one liked me. First is my mum, then it my cousin then now my aunt. I know I am wrong, I am guilty but what am I to do? Don't go out with my dad? What? I am very confused. I hate it. I dont want to lie. I dont want to hide. I want to be normal. Is it wrong ? Please leave me alone. I am very tired. I don't want to be hated. I don't want to be unfilial. I don't want to hurt anyone. But why is everyone hurting me. First they disagree with my music, then my size, now they even disagree with my everything...... I did not mean to really... to just leave mum and have fun. I am really sorry. Actually now my current state, I realise something.... I have no one to love. In fact now everyone I think is hate and meaningles blabber. Whatever. You don't like me fine. I cant do anything. I give up. I am not nice anymore. And I will just remain nochalant.

2007-12-02T00:06:00.000-08:00

I am so pissed just now. I was like using the computer and meng meng ask me to shut the computer off because I used for too long. Hell with it I was like darn pissed. But it did not last long lar. I went to do other things. I tried to add english lyrics to Alice Nine 'Q'(Question). It sounded soso but the meaning was a total mess. It was yet again a complete BLACKNESS. No meaning no happiness. *Sigh* when can I write like last time? Last time I wrote quite a few poems and it was pretty nice. I guess... Because when I showed others no one believed it was my work. LOL... I really hope to write more of them like this. Kitboy said it was due to the song I am listening currently. Well I must admit it is true *mostly*. Well I remember the last time I wrote a poem, I was a big, big fan of Miyavi. And now well ..... I like other band but I still like Miyavi. I think the cause was The GazettE. Ever since I listen to them I was like really obsessed with Ruki because of the lyrics he wrote. SHIT. I guess I will have to really forget them. So wish me all the best.... Ganbante

Yesterday Night

2007-12-01T19:12:00.000-08:00

I went to somewhere really nostalgic. I went to Marina South. It was really nice. Peaceful and all. But most of it is empty. Only left the bowling alley and a few steamboat eatery. No more curry rice place. The flying kite area has shrink to only a limited area. I miss that place. I still remember flying the kite there. Eating the curry rice with my family. It is really nostalgic. Some how I find it is truely a peaceful place to be at.... It is really nice unlike the busy streets of 'Concrete Jungle' But sadly it would be demolished soon to make way for the new SANDS resort. With beautiful high class hotels and Casinos for rich people. Fuck it man.... I mean it would be nice if Singapore become Las Vegas number two, but wont it really sucks if all the old, familiar and nostalgic disappear... Places where it holds really deep memories?? Places that you go when you are young??? I really do look forward to IR but not so fast right....

2007-12-01T19:04:00.000-08:00

Whoa today I woke and realised I cried.... While I was sleeping. I had a really terrible nightmare. I could still remember. 'She' was there.... 'She' came back again. Everything of her was scary. The way I shake. The way I was really powerless. I cant say a word, I cant move... And what is with the bloody arm there??? The way every muscle on her face move when she flare up was really creepy.... I can't say I love 'She' .... But the more I can't say I hate 'She'....Tomorrow would be her last day. I hope to make it the best... With whatever love and respect I have towards her. I wish her happy journey onwards.... Please forget me .

Jrock music

2007-12-01T07:17:00.000-08:00

WELL….today nothing interesting happened (of course it is the morning now only)
But Today I am really happy…. I dreamt of guess ….. A group of fat people freaking me and asking me to slim down or I would be like them… And if I am not wrong I thought I saw the fatty guy in The GazettE PV ~Filth In The Beauty~. Seriously Creepy -.- Well yesterday I downloaded a lot of singles…. I finally found Charlotte mini-album. It is called, Sharundenashi BLUES. Ok lar the songs….very cute and it sound as good as Antique café. Oh Bou left Antique Café this year march… I wonder why? But I am like not really affected by it… I dun really listen to their songs… But seriously Bou is really cute. But without him and including Yuki and Takuya (New replacement) the band becomes more masculine and that was kind of ok… I mean how long can this kind of band last if they continue acting cute right??? Oh and Kra new mini-album, Creatures. It is really nice a blend of Jazz and rock. My favorite song is World. I think Keiyuu voice is really good lor… He is like 29 this year right. Oh wonder his voice so mature. I cried when he sang Setsugekka. I was really touched by his voice. I have this Singles by a new band called Sendai Kamotsu
It is really cute. I also have Neu a Indie band singles ~Splash!~ Wah like Takuya from uverworld meet Antique Café. I just don’t like the sound effect. It is very irritating. I have the Aqua timez ~Dareka no Chijoue~. It is really nice but I think their song last time is better. Last time was completely soft rock. Now more noisy. Not that I CANT stand noisy song, it is just that I prefer them softer for Aqua Timez because the vocalist voice tone not so fit for hard rock. His voice would sound much better with soft rock, more peaceful. I mean that is just my opinion ^^ Something sad is I cant FIND Alice Nine New Album ~Alpha~ It is like everyone is saying that it is really nice and I must admit it is I only have the Cosmic World PV and Blue Planet PV and it was really nice. Blue planet is like complete happiness, although there is this pinky bunny. I bet all the Fangirls are like totally angry when they saw it. LOL The bunny was like totally seducing them with that extra tight tight mini mini skirt that could just show her butt. So it was kinda disgusting Well gtg le byees….

The concert

2007-11-29T03:28:00.000-08:00

Choir concert is coming really soon
It is really scary
All the songs are really erm....HIGH~
And there is so many songs to memorize
I mean how am I to memorize a french song
The pronounciation is so weird
Well talking about concerts
I saw Alice Nine Concert Hello Dear Numbers
It was really awwwesome
I mean I saw Saga licked his bass and it was HOT
Well Shou sang way better than during the PSC tour
And the funny thing
Nao FALLED!! during the Encore
Damn funny he tripped over the platform LOL
Well Nao drum solo was really good
But without the sound effect it would be excellent
I just saw Kai's solo and was really shocked
I was really good....better than Yasuno
But because of that I saw so many fangirls screaming
That made me mad because....
1) His mine so no one is to like him
2) He have so many fans *jealous*
3) They remind me of ..... me
And I just read a Fanfiction of AoixKai
I was completely flustered by it.
Well I had finished my Music Project on Alice Nine
Hope you all like it........

Shocked! Reputation of Jrock

2007-11-27T06:58:00.000-08:00

I was like so pissed with Yoshiki
He actually broke a brand new drum set
It totally broke the image of a rocker
He is like on some drugs
And it truly makes me shudder
I mean no one should break their drums
And to be honest S.K.I.N concert is not really nice
Unlike the other band that I have seen
They like do not have the bonding, kizuna
Unlike The GazettE, Alice nine, Kra and SID
That is what they lack....after all they are all soloist
For a pretty long time
I would not be surprise if Miyavi has forgotten about Due le Quartz
Or Gackt has forgotten his time in Malice Mizer
Or Yoshiki has to X Japan and Sugizo to Luna Sea
Maybe it was because I was not use to this....
Kind of *too wild* Rock Concert
But whatever it is I will feel really uncomfortable if i attended
Partly because I hate it when violence took place,
And because I am looking at someone who seriously
Looked like he ate a packet of drugs...or something
I was also really mad at Yoshiki
Because just his action has brought a bad reputation To ROCK genre
People may use him and judge that rock is not a good thing
Because I myself was shocked....
If I ever want to be a rockstar....
I will never learn from them....I will probably learn from Mayday
Afterall they were the one who taught me rock is a....
Form of expression Not a form of violence
I will learn from Alice Nine, Kra and Uverworld for lyrics
The GazettE and SID for visual style
Kaya, 12012 and antic cafe for fashion style
I will not and never touch anything that
Relates me to touch anything harmful
Causing to lose the trust of my fans
I will............................................
Lead my fans to a good path
Become one with my members and fans
This is what a good rocker is....
Some times I will add a few songs that was inspired from My feelings
That is all .... NO DRUGS MAN
Yoshiki, you are going nuts...X japan *shudder*
Now I have doubts weather Hide-san did sucidal
He creepy person bash his drum set
Better make sure Kai and Nao does not....
Bash drums ....Or I will so be out of Jrock

Budget Terminal

2007-11-27T06:02:00.001-08:00

Well today was a day of fun

I went out with my uncle and aunts

My cousin came along

We went to Terminal Three, Budget Terminal

It was erm.... really new

Well not many things lar. All too new.

We started the day with a breakfast at....

East Coast Park Burger King

And it is really fun... watching the sea while eating

Then we headed to Terminal Three

It was really nice....very new

Kinda of like Korea airport

Then we went to the older Terminal

Then at Terminal one

Yuping (cousin) say that there was a really .....

Nostalgic place

Yea it truely was

When I was young
My whole family, uncle, aunts and cousin

Would head there for Swensens ice-cream

And it was the sweetest gathering we had

Both of us really missed it...

The place changed and swensen is now

Next to the Arrival hall

There is one too at Terminal Three

Well it is really fun.... Yar cheese!!!

Man...I really miss this happy girl

Well after that we head to Mellina Walk, Suntec City

(dont' know how to spell)

Well That all *smile*

OMG! fight...

2007-11-26T16:40:00.000-08:00

OMG!~ They fought o.0
The two always friendly and caring brothers fought
And GREAT! They fighting because of me...
That got me really pissed and disappointed
Yar I know they were really worried about me
But hey if you are then please leave alone
Because your fight has really jeopardized me
And that you HAVE ADD ANOTHER PROBLEM IN ME
I really hate it when people fight
It really frightens me
It is just disgusting and horrifying
Especially it is people I know really well
And those people who are really nice and friendly
Well they were actually fighting over how to talk to me
How to understand me??
Well I dunno but i have this feeling they will never succeed
If my mum cant, could they?
The closest failed will the rest pass
They should just give up....
They should just let me figure the hard way
Like this no one is hurt
Not me, not them
So well .......................
LEAVE ME ALONE OKOKOK
I am darn freaking hecking
TIRED ARGH....
I sometimes feel really tired of this world...

Fight!

2007-11-25T06:58:00.001-08:00

Morning

2007-11-24T17:06:00.000-08:00

Preparing to a journey to pilgrimage.... LOL well not really

I was just heading towards the temple at River Valley

Actually I kind of like going to the temple

Especially those really peaceful ones.

It makes me able to think. Sometimes I will think

'Hey life is not that messed up'

Well it won't last long. But it truely make my day....

Well yesterday 0.00am. Brother Meng and I had a talk

He said he hate The GazettE for a reason...

They talked too lightly of death

A disrespect he thinks. I really admire Brother Meng

He went through Depression

And now....well his doing just fine

He did 'darken' through that period

Just ask him and he can explain to you in details

If you dare.........

Well he explain that music through can affect....

ones thinking... ones feeling...

Well for your information

Satan was The Angel of Music

MWAHAHAHA

*On the verge of sanity abortion*

Well thats all for today byee~

PS Company Carnival tour

Third row: Shou, Keiyuu, Miyavi, Ruki, Kaggra vocalist LOL

(Loved them most)

Nature Pleasure

2007-11-24T05:04:00.000-08:00

Today was a sweet day.
Tuition was really fun.
Ah Leow and his joke just make me crack up like a freak.
Well one thing I learned
That academic is important
But so is your talent and skills
Well I cant really say I have a talent or skill
But I really like music
So I hope to create a skill in music soon...
I want to write really heart lifting songs like Shou-san
Scary and touching songs like Ruki-san
Happy, simple but straight to the point song like Miyavi-san
They wrote really well lyrics and I badly wanted to be like them
Maybe you would think I am over-thinking considering my age
But I think it would be nice to start when you are young
For example,
Miyavi-san started playing the guitar at 15
Then two years later he joined Due le'quartz
Which is really awesome
He learned so much in just two years
For me all I ever did was drooling at him....
And I was really jealous of Ruki at one point
I was really angry...
I was like 'Hey that guy is so cool'
He is like this really naughty boy...
Who has a cool band,
Who have one-man concert every year
And is loved by so many fans
While me a normal girl
With a normal life
Normal school
Only have a dream....
A dream to be like them
lol MOKKORI
OKies I learnt it from Tora
Pervert!~
Well anyway today
I accompanied my aunt and uncle
To a vegetarian cafe
My father came along
Well it was really nice
Eating while making small chats
Making a few small jokes
The cafe is really cosy
It's called 'Nature pleasure'
At fortune centre
So nothing went wrong today
I am glad ^^

The NEOlancer

2007-11-22T00:00:00.000-08:00

Today in the morning I went for a walk.
Then headed to the kopitiam across the road.
I was repeatedly fooled by two hawkers.
At least I had the name of one of them
'Uncle john' .....-.-
Very cute, they were really funny
We were like acting all goofy in public
And we don't give a damn
I was having a really nice feeling
I wonder why everyone in this world act so cautious
They all seem afraid to step on the wrong stone
That may ruin their reputation
They follow the flow.....
Everything, from manners to fashion
Everything in this world is too well categorized
If you are a punk you must be punkish, u must be bad
If you are a well-mannered you must listen to Beethoven, wear long dress
If you are a Goth you must be all black
So weird
Is there a catergory where you are free to think?
If there isn't....
I will start one
'The NEOlancer'

Weird things

2007-11-21T07:24:00.000-08:00

I said the weirdest things today -.-
My dad SMS me, using oka-san's phone
I feak and type.....
'.....are you mom....?'
And he freak...
Then just now
I said I was hungry
Then I said
'I am very hungry I need to go to the toliet....'
Weird... I never thought I like shit ><

'Pretty Normal Day'

2007-11-18T08:00:00.000-08:00

I went to the temple at Geylang early in the morning
and had three hours of prayers .....
Relaxing?
Try kneeling for three hours
WITH no breakfast eaten...
Okies I am not suppose to complain...
Then I went with father to eat a Kushin-Bo
Had the sweetest Alaska crab tasted
Then catch a movie of 'Game Plan'
Very funny ^^
Well it was a 'Pretty Normal Day'
But everything is to the mind to create.....

Gazeboys new looks

2007-11-16T05:38:00.000-08:00

>.<>

What did Kai do to his hair?

Aoi why did you f***king took off your lipring?

Just who do are you Ruki? Madonna?

Reita well still the same big brother look

Well Urha I really trust your style nowdays

You look HOT with short bangs!~

Vocalist: Ruki

Lead Guitarist: Urha

Guitarist: Aoi

Bassist: Reita

Drummer: Kai

Miyavi new singles

2007-11-16T05:34:00.000-08:00

It was really nice and really entertaining
Miyavi had done another good job
In fact his vocals have improve
and the rap and everything fits much better than the last one
'Neo Visualizm'
I am glad to be able to hear it the very same day it was released
14 November 2007
Well keep up with the good job Miyavi
We will always back you up

I cried

2007-11-11T07:39:00.000-08:00

I was listening to Kra - Setsugekka and i just cried in front of my two cousins and in front of my aunt and uncle. It was embarrassing.... but I cant let it stop flowing. I was really touched by Keiyuu. His vocal was really good. The melody just flows with my mood. It was also because I was worried with my dad. I just could not stop thinking of the lonely figure of him. The disheartened soul when I told him I can't go back home with him. I am really sad. Then that cousin of mine went to criticize jrock and this song. So i cried......

Concert Day

2007-11-04T00:25:00.000-07:00

Well today was the same day slacking AND OH YAR RUNNING 0.O I ran with junjie brother, very xianz. Four round around the Queenstown complex. Lucky i Had my MP4 with me or i was sure to give up halfway. Oh i had the whole of the GazettE's new album Stack Rubbish. It was really nice. All the SONG was good but i find it was pretty messy the way they arrange the songs. It is like there is a slow song then a fast song than again another slow song. It does not help build the mood of the listener. But each song is nice. The melody itself was able to wow me. I really admire them. They really are true visual artiste. I really want to be like them. In fact i am planning to be like them...so anyone wants to form a band with me? I have this very weird feeling when i watch their lives. It is like this mixture of excitement because they are really unpredictable, happiness because i really like their music, Belonging, weird right i felt i was one of the members and the weirdest of all, Jealous. I am really jealous of them. They have so many fans, so many lives, so many talent, so many inspiration..... Me? i cant even think of anything. Even if i come out with a song...my cousin don't like it. They say it is too dark, too gloomy. Filled of sadness, lust, vengence and negative thinking. Well it is what i am thinking right now. I mean i can come up with happy things but the sad one pop out first. Well today i was suppose to attend a concert at Esplanade. The ~Rock A Capella~ or something. They sing a capella. I am not really a big fan of them, but why not try it right? I think they are kool creating sounds with their vocals without any need for instruments. I guess today was not a really good day for me. I was completely pissed today. Pissed at everything. I think i need to see a Shrink. lol. Or maybe Anger Management courses again. Because right now my chest feel really painful and heavy. Well i got to go already. Concert Time. LET ROCK !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND SING AND FORGET YOUR WORRIES LET IT DROWN, LET IT DROWN~

The GazettE - ☆BEST FRIENDS☆

2007-11-03T01:36:00.000-07:00

This is the lyrics for best Friends

☆BEST FRIENDS☆
osanakigoro yume mita mirai yosouzu wa
ima mo iroasezu azayakani mae wo muiteiru
ookikunareru you ni senobishite mita keshiki
toki ni wa kujikesouni naru keredo gutto namida koraete

hitotsu no ookina yume ni mukai hashiri hajimeta
taisetsuna nakama ga iru kara ganbaretanta

tsuyoku ikiru shounentachi yo
hitori janai yuuki wo dashite
tsuki susunda sono saki ni wa
nakama to warai kagayaku kimi ga iru

kore kara aruku kewashii michi wa hikari ni ochita IBARA no michi da
yokumo warukumo saisho de saigo douse yaru nara yume wa kanaeru
mimamotte kureru hito no tame ni daisuki na hito ya jibunra no tame ni
ishiki no REBERU chou HIGH ni shite kyou mo aruku onore no michi

hitotsu no ookina yume ni mukai hashiri hajimeta
taisetsuna nakama ga iru kara ganbaretanta

bokura ga ima aruku michi wo
takai kabe de fusagarete mo
tomaranai sa buchikowashite
yume ni mukai susunde iku

tsuyoku ikiru shounentachi yo
hitori janai yuuki wo dashite
tsuki susunda sono saki ni wa
nakama to warai kagayaku boku ga iru

This the Translation of Best Friend

☆BEST FRIENDS☆
As a child, I dreamt of the future
Even now it doesn't fade, but is vivid as I look forward
So that I'd grow, I'd hold the tears in as I watched the scenery I grew
up with crush under time.

I began to run towards that one big dream
Because my good friends were with me, I did my best

Live well, young men
You're not alone, so muster your courage
Lunge forward, for right beyond this
You'll be laughing and shining with your friends

The steep path that you'll be walking will be lit, but full of thorns
Good or bad, from start to finish, you're gonna do it anyway, so make
your dream come true
For those who watch over you, for the ones you love and for yourself
Get your senses to a super high level, and walk your own path today

I began to run towards that one big dream
Because my good friends were with me, I did my best
Even if there's a high wall in our way, we're not stopping
We'll break it down and go on towards our dream

Live well, young men
You're not alone, so muster your courage
Lunge forward, for right beyond this
You'll be laughing and shining with your friends

OUTing

2007-11-03T00:41:00.000-07:00

I went out with my aunts,uncle and grand mama. It was the usual Saturday outing at Plaza Singaura. But the problem is there could be tuition and i think i forget to go harhar... OKies never mind about that. It was really boring today... I went to Thiong bahru plaza later and yet another boring thing. I went to popular bookshop to select some assignment books. Arh.... That moment it kind of remind me of mum. Most of the time we will spend hours at Tao Payoh Hub's popular the whole day. That is how we wasted our time there. Just slacking our time there reading book and discussing about the various books we like. She like Chinese novels, I Like English novel. Even that quiet moment, we felt a sense of peace to have each other's company. Well i guess i am really alone now.... LOL Whatever... Then i went to Comics connection and guess what i saw.... Miyavi's Picture book for 2006. It contain mostly of Senor Senora Senorita Mv pictures. It was so nice ^^ I really wish one of them could come to Singapore to perform.... I mean since GazettE has been to Germany and Miyavi has been to L.A. why not come to one of the countries in South-East Asia right. Oh ya I found this book really nice. Yakuza Moon. It is really awesome. I am not going to give you spoilers. Here is where you can find this book. Harris in Orchard MRT and Thiong Barhu Popular. If there is other places please tell me. I am dying for that book.

This is Alice Nine.....

This is Alice Nine too....

Choir Practise

2007-11-02T08:09:00.000-07:00

So tired...I am so pissed with my voice today. It just won't freaking come out. Would i join the Alto's next year. That do be nice hanging out with Sharon and Chris more often....Muhaha....Anyway We are learning the Flower Duet by Charlotte Church. It was so freaking high. I nearly broke my voice. I went off-pitch many times and sounded like Ruki screaming. That would be the nicest scream. But that is not what i want. I want a solid perfect sound and i can't achieve that. Sad. I would like to try sing rock song with choral voice. I think it would sound funny but it is worth a try har. Oh i bought another diary for me to write. The other diary, i have decided would be just for the year 2007. So i have a different diary every year. ^^Well enough talk later get back to you

Wah bad things

2007-11-01T07:34:00.000-07:00

Shit i cant find my choir file die lar how leh?? I lost it just recently and bought and photocopy all the scores now i lost it again. How noob can i get?? Maybe i am like Kai very forgetful and also blur. No actually Khia Lynn is more blur lor. lol. I have to go buy again xian lar. I realise i have a lot of bad habits lor here is a list. If there is any the same as you... High Five man.
1) Screaming. I have a habit of screaming and shouting anytime, anywhere
2) Laughing. I have a problem with my laughter. I laugh like a witch or laughing in a really squeaky sound. I laugh at the slightest thing
3) I talk real loud. I have no secrets
4) I need to say at least on ~I love you~ a day
5) I like to stare at people's hair. That is becos i am trying to look for visual kei hairstyles
6)I have hearing problem. Maybe because i like blasting my music.
7) I get goosebumps when a cute girl walk past. Anti-Lesbian...I hope
8) I talk to myself (esp in front of the com like now)
9) I jam in the bathroom. The bathroom is a good place to sing, good echoing. I remember singing in the girls toilet with my choir mates (yaner, sharon and chris) to practise for an audition. FUN>.<>
10) I sleep in the bathroom. Early in the morning. While trying to shit i fell asleep. I woke because of the smell. LOL
This are my top ten bad habits....

On the First of November

2007-11-01T03:26:00.001-07:00

LoL. It is boring. Well actually not really lar. I went to queensway and bought a shoe. Adidas Orion. Pretty nice but not what i would love. I bought because it is just right for school and casual wear. I saw the Limited Edition ones ...arh... Subarashi >.<. There is one where the whole thing is filled with golden Chinese flower printing. Pretty very PRETTY. There is another with roses on black leather. Mine is kool. It is purple very common but am cool. I hardly buy Adidas. I usually look for nike. But whatever brand it is. It is nice i buy as long it is within budget. I don't like those people with a lot of branded stuff. It makes the whole image fake. They may find it glamorous but i don't think so. I prefer someone who wears it casual and comfortable. So if you ask me what kind of people i like to hangout with? People who do not have any agenda or cunning. Someone carefree and does not care about other's status and accept who they are. Yea as long someone carefree and .... happy thats right. I tell you I recently very unlucky lor. Yesterday i was taking the MRT to Jurong Point. And saw this advertisement of a band. I was like thinking is that a visual kei and without realising i bang against the pole when the train jerk and a group of boys from SOME SCHOOL LAUGH AT ME *trying to refrain from pointing middle finger* So not gentlemen. What is wrong with nowdays boys and man? I realised they are much more a spendthrift that ladies. In fact they can compete with the girls (the number of hours in the toilet competition). Ridiculous!! They spend so much time in the toilet styling their hair!! I mean yes spiking hair and all that is nice but hey not that long man. come up with a standard design that you think fit you and use for a few months or what. I keepseeing them change, then change another way, slope another, spike it another way man i was like ROFL le. Of all the hair i see i like Miyavi's hair in ~kekkonshiki No Uta~ and Ruki's hair in ~zakuro gata no yuutsu~ I like all of Aoi's hair and Kai's accept in Stacked Rubbish. No wavy hair for Kai... I think the hairstylist of all visual kei band are gods man. They are really pro man. They can really think of really funky, punky, elegant styles that fits the outfits and the mood of the song. Oh one thing is very funny RUKI'S ENGLISH SUCK LIKE SHIT FROM PIGS. lol really i swear. You don't believe me listen to ~Carry~ and ~Silly God Disco~ I laugh like shit. His pronunciation is really weird especially the word enjoying very funny. Unidentified words haha. Oh ya i heard Aoi sing not bad quite nice. I also forget to tell you something! How can i forget i am so BLUR stupid of me!! I have this video ~Peace and Smile Company Tour Finale~ Very nice. It totally RAWKS. There is Alice Nine, Kaggra, Kra, The GazettE and last but not least Miyavi. It is so nice. Here is the Video...It is really nice i cant stop watching it. You can watch in youtube. i show you here will take a long time to upload lor. Well i need to go le sleep sleep. Oyasuminasai

Boredom Perish when Nameless liberty of the Six Guns came

2007-10-30T20:58:00.000-07:00

I am so bored lor. That is the problem with school holidays. What am going to do in this two months holidays. Slack? I want to how to play the guitar. But my cousins does not agree. He thinks i will think too much about guitars and neglect my studies. I may even think of dropping out of school and join some band and live my life as a hippies. No way man!! Studies is a definite must. I don't have to be best in class nor the worst just average. No way am i quitting school to join a band. Ya music is really important to me but studies is too it is my back up plan you know. Anyway about hoilday... EVERYONE WANTS ME TO RUN!!!O.0 Save me!?!? ANYONE! Now i am just slacking in font of the computer or either eating till I vomit. I cant even download any songs (...opps...). And no nice anime leh. So bored that all i did is just watch videos and more videos. I just watch finish The GazettE Nameless liberty of six guns. It is really nice i was greatly touched okies. So who say rock and roll people are just people who gets wild and take drugs.(Reita said NO to drugs okies). I was like crying when i watch finish the concert and backstage happenings. They cried during the finale! I was shocked when Ruki cried with Kai and Aoi. It burns... Well I can feel what it is liked. i cried too when i left my primary six friends. i got really depressed. I was like thinking OMGs who am i going to talk to about visual kei, who is going to laugh and scream with me in public. Who is going to join me in attaining uncivilised manners??? Usually in this kind of circimstances, you cry because you are lost. You felt you lost some kind of suport and you don't where to continue alone. That was how i felt when i lost my mum. I was like where am i going to live? Who else would be caring about me? Because although we argue really badly i still feel that protection from her, that even when i am lost i can still seek her guidiance. That goes for The GazettE too. Imagine leaving a place where there is a spread of love and passion for the same music. I will get depressed too. You came a long way with your supportive fans and members. You went through bad and good troubles and stick on. You felt the lowest and the highest at the same time in the tour. And now here you are leaving from one of your member....The GazeFans. It hurts when you leave someone you cherish...... Always take good care of your loved ones, Don't regret.....

Korea Trip

2007-10-30T02:29:00.000-07:00

Yoz

My aunt and her family went to Korea a few months ago during August and i finally found a few really pretty pictures of it....

This is a toliet actually. Very....ancient lol.

Alamak so nice. Oishii >.<

Hey nice drums Kai you want?

OMFG! That is the latest LG shine!?!?

If only I could go with them and mebbie I could get a look at the latest album of all my favoueite korean artiste like DBSK and Kangta>.<> that is one hottie. He is so kawaii>.<>

Well enough of Korea I gtg le ByyES

LM.C

2007-10-29T07:10:00.000-07:00

Okies what is LM.C (Lovely-Mocochang) ?? They are a Japanese band that plays rock and electronic pop. They consist of Maya (vocalist) and Aiji (Guitarist). Maya is actually a support guitarist for Miyavi-san, while Aiji was from Pierrot.

So they officially formed LM.C when Maya quit from Miyavi-san's support band and Aiji's band disbanded.

They make their major debut in October 2006 . Subsquently they release many singles.

'Boys and Girls' this song was used as the opening theme for the anime 'Reborn!'.

Personally I prefer 'Liar Liar' this song. It has a really catchy tune with a very cute but sincere way of putting words.

I think this band is really kool and Maya so remind me of Miyavi but don't get me wrong they are not visual kei okies. They are really nice too^^.

Actually i really wonder why maya did not want to form a visualkei band, after all Maya wasunder Miyavi for quite a long time and Aiji is from a Visual kei band.

If you want to know what is Maya like in Miyavi's band check this website

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iL64wd0lxh0 where Maya was bullied by Miyavi. lolx

I have to go already Byees

About This Noob Blogger

2007-10-28T08:49:00.000-07:00

Why am i noob blogger? Because I have many blogs, but i lost a total of 3 password!?! Can you believe? That i am soo freaking forgetful... Nevermind, i finally have one (...This one...)^^

Well i am Kry-syella. Why i created this name? Because it sounds kool. It is not from anywhere, it is not a copy and it does not have any meaning. I just like it. How i created it.... I forget. Anyway, why i want to create this blog is not to talk about my all-too-boring life, but about music...

Ahhhh.... Music is a fantastic thing! It changes you, it teaches you and also it worsen you. It just darn influential. But i love it ^^ I want to use this
blog to share with everyone the various Subarashi songs that i heard. But dont expect too much English songs beacuse i am not really a big fan of Western music. I am currently more into Visual Kei if you have notice.... So visual kei fans HIHI >.<
WEll I think that is all I have to say

Sayonara