Distress And Coma

I am in a state of mocking hysteria. Why mocking? I felt mocked at my inability to cope well in triple science :P And it comes under mask of hysterical. Triple science is definitely... not easy. It take two main supporting principle:
- Hard work
- Determination

How am I fairing?
Based on my expectation it is pretty low :( But I must really congratulate myself for going on so well:) Truthfully, I thought I would do better... However apparently it is the contrary. Well that does not mean I will quit triple science HeHe I will not stop what I start, it is my road it is my path, I would rather die trying then dropping it. It is not about pride, it is the fact that IF I quit it shows I had lost faith in myself and the rest of the people...

Anyway this few week was a rollar coaster, there are good times and bad times, and the bad times were when the desperate feeling for my study suffocates me. OKOK enough of whining and start to stand on my feet. GOOD NEWS:

The GazettE NEW SINGLES: Distress and Coma IS out in SINGAPORE on 25 March, Heerens HMV :P SIngles so it should be a range of $30 - $55.

PLEASE SUPPORT

SBS Gayo Daejun 2008

This is a dance battle with famous korean groups
Big Bang, DBSK, 2PM, Shinee, Suju - Dance Battle @ Gayo FestivalStar Wars
Featuring (in order of appearance)
Taemin (Shinee)
SeungRi (Big Bang)
EunHyuk (Superjunior)
Jaebum (2PM)
Yunho (DBSK)

Can you comprehend my pain?

Have you ever felt a point in your life where some trivial matters could pierce your heart deeply?Well I had I felt it the immense pierce through me and travelled down to my guts. And I tell you it hurts a lot..

'In the agonized rain I weep the first red tears'

What cause me to have such reaction? Well lets analysis it this way. Imagine you are a really close with this 'person' and another person close to you is spitting sarcasm at 'that person'. Can you take it? What will you feel?

'Fuck you you have no idea how he feels? 

Are complaining to the right person? 

How dare you...how dare you say that in front of me without any guilt? 

YOU ARE DISGUSTING!'

I was so angry that day, the minute I reach home I went to sleep, seriously when you are really angry, all your energy is sapped away. YOUR VERY SOUL... this really pissed me off. need to watch something nice to calm down... Plastic tree - 37

SCHOOL IS STARTING>.<

Broken hearts of broken holidays:(

This holiday is pretty eventful...

1) I went to Hong Kong for choir performance>.<

2) My big aunt is diagnosed with cancerO>O...

3) My grandfather had two falls in a row, so now in st luke hospital

4) I got into triple scienceO.0

5) My cousin met with a car accident...

6) I CUT MY HAIR short

WELL THAT IS INTERESTING LIFE. But I guess it cant be help:(

OMFG twilight is...nice

Ok I admit it Twilight is ... overly seductive. IT IS REALLY ADDICTIVE, like some love dope and Edward is the boy every girls dreams. Smart, Strong, Seductive, Persuasive, Protective, Mysterious, Charismatic and ...interesting. 'What if I am not a superhero, what if I am a bad guy' 

Let me tell you guys out there, girls like bad boys. Thats right we girls like a bit of fun and an exhilirating relationship is what we girls like to be put in.

But seriously this book is not really healthy for me. I keep giggling, tuning me into fangirl mood, which hardly surface even when Aoi is in front of me doing his trademark sexy wave.LOL okok

UPLOAD PICTURES

My favourite korean singer: DAESUNG other than junsu and eunhyukI love this HIP-PUNK poster 

MERRY CHRISTMAS

TOD.ay was a really nice day. As in the nice weather, the lovely pace the day is flowing and the angle the first sun ray is reflecting when I woke up. It is CHRISTMAS after all. Although there is no snow in Singapore, the ambience and atmosphere is enough to make me relax. 

Yesterday, I skipped tuition and headed to Johor to cute my hair. INTO BOB CUT O.O* I did cut my hair before that and I pretty much like it because at the side it look like RUKI's hairstyle >.<>.<>

I can't wait for the PSC10th annivasary peace and smile carnival 2009. The opening acts includes SCrEW and SuG wow kool man. I like their new song and mv UMBILICAL. They are more to the OSHARE kei and they are really cute:) Takeru, their vocalist really remind me of miku from Antique cafe...fuse with a bit of craziness from Miyavi= TAKERU {HA.HA.HA.H.A}

The most anticipated performace in the carnival would be THE GAZETTE!!! My friend is a huge fan of them especially RUKIo.0 In my opinion Ruki *THE vocal SATAN* is really freaky. Many say he is charismatic, but well he just scares me. Not the spooky scare but the feeling that he can see right through you. Especially those photoshoots, he look ready to pierce the camera len, he look fierce too. And the seductiveness he like to portray in his photos just make me shiver...HOW CAN ANYONE DO SUCH THINGS EASILY IN THE PUBLIC? No offense you are a good vocalist but maybe you should lessen it, it just make girls like me jealous and I don't like that felling:( When I saw his maggie mee hairstyle on Leech PV, I was thinking man this world is filled with ironies. My hair was like his hair, only it is natural. I was born with stubborn frizz hair, that make me look like a black, or malay, NEVER A GODDAMN ORIENTAL CHINESE.

I found these really nice pictures of the peace and smile company family.

All the vocalist at the left picture [from left: alice nine SHOU, The gazettE RUKI, Kaggra ISSHI, Kra KEIYUU, MIYAVI] My favourite vocalist is Shou from alice nine. When he sang blue planet, I was more attracted to his voice then the song. And he have a really friendly look *like me*. Listen to Alice Nine new song THE BEAUTIFUL NAME composed by their drummer/leader NAO. Oh and one thing that I like about shou-san, his hand gestures on stage. It is one of the kind, unique and something only he can pull of himself. His body gesture is the easiest way to make out the flow of the music. However sometime it is too overly exaggerated.

Need to go help my gran to clean the kitchen ...

HONGKONG trip

Hell IT WAS EXHILIRATING!!! Hong Kong trip was definitely fun, however in l;ife every good stuff is packaged with a few foul cookies. Lets just name the good things first before I head to the 'pain in the ass' stuff.
GOOD THINGS:
- I BOUGHT ENOUGH THINGS FOR MY FAMILY>.<(they are happy with the things I bought)
-I took a few SCARY RIDES (bigg ACCOMPLISHMENT)
-TOOK A 360DEGREE and survived q[o_0]ph
8I ate a TURKEY LEG[>.< >.< >.<]
BAD THING:
-i got scolded for drinking @_@
-I LOST MY MONEY AND FOUND IT IN MY WALLET
[THE SAD PART IS i DID NOT SPEND IT GODDAMMIT IT]
- I missed the chance to buy a mickey tote bag :(

All in all it is really fun and I get to eat a lot of seafood because some of the seniors are a bit hesitant in eating hongkong food. I think the best experience for me is the ocean park MINE TRAIN 45 degrees down!!!! q[O.O]p
I LOVE HONGKONG . I LOVE HONGKONG ♥ ♥

Pictures that get me wawawa

This Is My Favourite Picture Of All Year Round

PIctures Day

Today I came across a few magazines scan that are really nice on the internet

And the main subject today is ★ALICE NINE★

INSPIRATION FOR THE DESIRED

On the first gray of dawn
I venture out alone
Towards a big black hole
A well, a century old

In autistic denial of the external world
I was enveloped into darkeness for an eternal
A thought that dampens any lonesome figure

A selfish creature emerged
who scourns at a droplet of tears
A porcelain mask
that covers even a tint of emotion
Until you break in...

You have fallen for me
The exterior me,
The one that please everybody
But the interior me,
filled with darkeness and mystery
will never satisfy your lusty fantasy.

So please forgive me
For the reckless first kiss
It really don't mean a thing
But a rush to feel you under my skin

What a wrong move
Now you are after my every move
To get me,
No matter how dangerous I may be
Yes girl you are making me crazy
You will only your own feelings

Back Off!
My world is too dark for a goth
You will just shrink away from the glow, please god
I know you will scream that two words for blessing
But can't you see ,
the trouble you will get in
just leave me to be free, to escape the agony
cause your eyes are too memerizing

I will take it you had an infatuation
A routine that is partially believeable
The praises for my sexy figure
And flawless countenance
It is a mistake to miss the lusicious entertainment

But it is not me you are after
But the hands of god that mould my cover
If you love, you will stir free
You will stay clear away from me
To create a distance to let me see you carefully

So girl the wrong move is made

Your lonesome tears

♥Your Lonesome Tears♥
Kry-Syella
When was it I missed your sobs
Was it the day you were not the top?
Or the time our conversation was a shallow depth

I am so sorry I have negelected you
Only thinking I feel worser then you
I know the apologies will never ease your anger
But I really want to say I will love you forever

I remembered the kiss you gave me
The touch that is now a blur memory
The tears we shed without crying
The mutal understanding

We promise to bring happiness to each other
But it only brought complication together
The love was too much that it hurt
A love that could be broken with a whisper

You asked for a moment, a recognition
The memories of the briefest moment
The touch, the tangle, a wire to bind us together
It's undone cause it weight to much for us

You say we are meant for each other
Where is the action to prove that statement?
Is it the night we spend together
That desire that lead to a false acceptance

I never once look you in the eye
Those eyes that give away my lies
I never once love you
So why are you crying for me
Baby you are putting me in agony

Is it remorse?
That cause our relationship to be forced
Or the guiltiness that flip your guts
HA! It pales when compared to my stabbed heart

Yes baby I once love you from my heart
But now I will only keep it to my heart
Be free and heal the wound I had cut
Please forget me on my behalf
I am not the right lover to fill you up

Love, it is a complicated word
But love, I believe you will understand it
But it is not me to tell you the meaning
I hope you find someone that show you that feeling
I will be contented when I see you with her

So please don't cry with me
Be strong for your future
I am leaving, so don't see me off
It will only break me more
My man, my love
Remember your the nicest man that I dear
It is just that we are not meant for each other

I am the moon, you are the day
We are an eternal away
So baby boy please find your sun
As the moon travel during the night time
To find refudge, to find her time
To leave her lonesome tears
A day behind

Bolevard of wonderful friendships

In a blink it is the end of 2008 and also the end of my fourteenth year as a human. What have learnt so far?... Well I will answer that as detailed as possible, after some thinking that I plan to carry in this long year-end vacation. One thing I am sure I had learnt would be friendship.
The chalet had allowed me to witness the friendship bond that my friends and I had tied ourselves in. The thought of someone amongst us leaving was something painful. I experience the sudden ache on the second day of the chalet. The shrinking posture and serene ambience of the beach make me tense and relaxed. It was a clash of emotions, and the thought someone precious to me hurt cause me to suffocate in sorrow.
No amount of pain could compare to the ache of my pounding heart. As if by coincidence, my tears just flow freely. The world does not mean anything to me anymore, my pride, my posture it was all thrown into the predestined sea. Like the sea my heart was filled with mysterious darkness that no one can swim into. It felt cold and lost as it lost a part of itself... the joy of friendship.
When someone cried, it was due to the unbearable mental or physical pain. And for [him] - a nice and cheerful person, it must be so painful it could not be tolerated. That was in my head.
The next thing i knew my hand was covered over my mouth as a gagged on my saliva, my tears formed from the corner of my eyes, it burst and flow down, my chest was heaving, in and out, in and out, I pound my chest to stop the pain, bending forward my mind was a blank. Who was beside me, who saw it, I cant care much....
All I want to say, to me my friends are like my brothers, my sister, it is not a code, not a statement, not a clique term, it is a feeling it is something that is from the bottom of my heart stirring my emotions and questioning my character.
Hey krysyella[shuji] friends out there I KRYSYELLA WILL ALWAYS BE YOUR PRECIOUS FRIEND.........

TOMODACHI 4EVA

KOREAN NIGHT

I am so going to the Korean night and not only that I heard there is special mystery guest OMFG>.< I hope it is Super junior at least or anyone man... sigh... if only visual kei will come. I really that will happen. Anyway just came back from my chalet and it was BLOODY HELL SADDENING .... i cried big time it is that sad and touching. this song is for my friends>>>


this is the lyrics {Big Bang - OH MY FRIEND}
OH MY FRIEND
[GD] 1, 2, 3, 4!
[DS] If this world makes you sad, say my name whenever and wherever
I am 911 emergency, for you only, I’m only 5 minutes away, yeah yeah
[SR] Your sorrow that you feel isn’t sorrowIt’s a rope that bonded us together
[YB] I’ll get wet in rain for you, run without a stop,
go through a rough wind yeahYour heavy burden,
dark shadow; I will block them all now
[Chorus NO BRAIN]Oh my friend oh my friend;
I will be your friend foreverOh my friend oh my friend;
only you can make me live
Oh my friend oh my friend;
I will become a tree behind you silently
Oh my friend oh my friend;
my friend I love you (dear) friend
[TOP] Let’s rock & roll, man I don’t control
Close your eyes and open your heart (Love & Peace)
Hope you dreamed (of), trust me, tells only truth without lies
Walk straight, limp at least once, mistakes can happen to anyone
Step on a failure and get up, goodbye to a wound that aches
[GD] (Yo) Come on! Hold my hand and let’s go, let’s look for a lost dream again
Let’s fly together, brush up dusts, let’s go together, a person next to you as well
We can’t see an end but future is bright, there are many chances because we are young
Let’s love each other, scream louder, FREEDOM!
[Repeat Chorus]
(Yea, yea, yea, here we go!)
[Bridge; DS + SR + YB]Leave from bored daily life as you dreamed
Run toward the dream, dear
Go away go away, let’s go away baby
Whoa ho, Whoa… oh oh ~ (GD: Big Bang, No Brain, haha once again(Yeaaa) Everybody RUN!
[Repeat Chorus]

What A relief

OK I did not do well for my examinations this term and i am like freaking upset :(

Well I have no idea how to spent my holidays?? JIJIBOON I spent my time watching SUPER JUNIOR FULL HOUSE and ATTACK OF THE PIN-UP BOYS.

I like the show a lot it is super funny and i like KAng-in the best he is super funny.

His jokes are really nice and he gives me the best impression...

One thing I like most about him is he is not very girlish and does not care much about his look he is just very normal, chubby, cute and hilarious. HE IS MY TYPE!!!~

Another member I like most (...AFTER KANGIN...) is LEETEUK ;p

SUPER JUNIOR FOREVER

Yo The end of SCHOOL

MAN I just can bear to split with my precious classmate and man this is really breaks people into agonized sorrows:( Listening to The GazettE to calm myself...*banging my head on a imaginary mayonnaise puddle on the floor* Talking about The GazettE THERE IS THE NEXT PSCarnival on the 1st month of 2009

Exam is over >.<

This semester's paper was pretty difficult and yes i had doubts in scoring high, in fact I wonder if I could even get into A-math class considering math is my weakest and I hate like it is a mayonnaise killer. Got addicted to another food and that is sausages!!! The thought of it sizzling in the toaster just make my mouth water and pretty thoughts conjured in my mind. 'ADD MAYONNAISE', 'ADD HONEY AND MUSTARD DRINK IT DOWN WITH CUCUMBER JUICE', 'DIP IT IN COKE AND EAT WITH PIG'S SKIN'

Anyway there is nothing much to do during the holidays. The Malaysia trip is cancelled

:( *DAMN THOSE BANANA FIGHTERS* Will I be jailed if I say that? WHO CARES.

This year someone precious is leaving me, in fact every year someone is leaving from me...:(

Please don't leave me alone

I just want to hold on to your hands

The warmth of your tears, pour on my world like rain

Drop your dreams, Ah~how selfish I had been

Lala~i am crying like a cat,

haha~you're like the dreams in my nap

That blows when you pat my hand

Time such nasty things, such playful beings

I'll miss the time we eat our first beef patties

As we talk about a boy-girl relationship

Life couldn't get better

Life would be different without you....

LALA~Will it be beautiful?

So well this is dedicated to my lovely friends and kins. Well as for what I will do this holiday? Read books, write lyrics (LOTS OF THEM), draw disfigured faces, eat a big mayonnaise diet and watch lots and lots of concert... I think there won't be any overseas trip installed this holiday due to the GLOBAL economic crisis and my father countering at a position near the frontline:(

Looks like another series of financial rationing is needed that means o.0 the returns of DOOMS-KRY.....................................

*listening to plastic tree- Replay to calm down*

REPEATED COUNTLESS ERROR

ITS FINALLY OUT THE LONG WAITED ITEM I PROMISED TO CHERISH. I am buying at well just hope no one finds it haha.Youtube has it already, and many people say that it is very like yokohamas' with not much surprises. It seems like Ruki was rushing in his song and there was little emotion mixed in with it. Screams were made at the wrong time. Every individual was good but it did not put a tingle on the audience skin. BUT WHO CARES!!! But i expect them to be better, seeing those comments, i really wonder what ere they doing. SCARED? I can't say much because I am not a musician, but I really expected more...

DOMO-KUN Revolution

I am in love with DOMO-KUN. It is super cute and he is freaking hilarious, i went to see one of the AMV of his and it was hahahahaha... (the song is by The Pillows-21 Fingers)

Wow!! Shocked

Today I was damn angry in choir. i was scolded by my junior (I don't wish to name her.) i ask her to move a bit and she scolded me, "Aiya never mind lar, you not seating here! Go the other side lar." <[-.-]> I was so pissed man. Yesterday I went to bollywood veggie farm and darn it is beautiful. But it do be nicer if we went on a breezy day. Well to day is the first day of the seventh month hope nothing happens to me, since I am prone to staring.... Well the whole month was ok accept the fact that I had to escape many ways from Amanda's physical training. Never mind Si Xian's expectation and task is even torturous.

The quiet Singapore

Today after dinner with my uncles and aunt we went to a secluded place near Hort Park and it was beautiful. I had never seen Singapore with so much greenery and I felt so relaxed so stress-free. I vowed to go back there to take a look and mebbie have a picnic. Seriously those residents sure know how to lead a good life. Well today nothing special really happened accept the fact mayday concert DVD cause a boom and I like Jam Hsiao's 蕭敬騰 vocal. He is a midnight sensation. I really got touch by his voice. However I don't think he is suited for singing sentimental like Sodagreen's [Xiao Qing Ge].