My days

Well it was okok I went to the zoo for CIP and it was a bit exciting and a bit boring aha. Now I am like spending time reading and studying. My grades were good and a few surprising like top for Chinese in the hold secondary two and distinction in math. I was really happy wanted to continue the good job and I wrote some songs and was praised by my friends. I was really happy that they like the songs and really hope to create more inspiring ones. Well there was one issue that i felt really concerned. It was about Natasha Jamilah. Well I sat with her last year the whole year. To me she is a really quiet girl and it takes a really long time for her to open up to you and well I am not sitting next to her and she is sitting with amanda now and well she is suffering so is amanda because they hate each other. So once Amanda hurt her when her heart was already shattered and bleeding becuse she has not even one friend. She is alone. She cried and as her first friend I felt a mixture of guiltiness and sadness and I really want to help her but I can't I don't know why I just fear to lose my current friend becuase of her. I felt really selfish and disgusting. i FELT LIKE CRYING. i TOLD MY FRIENDS AND THEY TELL i WAS JUST EMOTIONAL. What Am I going to do???? I felt really sad
Tears I cried was bleeding crimson blood.

Songwriting

I wrote a song and it I used the Billy joel's pianomen

Mr. Aaron’s Fantasy

It six o’clock on a morning dawn
As the sun goes up shining
It says its time to milk the cow
While running for a mile

Oh~ Jesse time to wake up
Time to show the world~

Run as the wind shows you to your way
Fly like a bird as you dash the plains
Sway like a grass as your father stood
Looking proudly at you

Oh~ dream, dream of being me
Dream of fantasies

Oh~ what are you doing? I’ll like to ask
Why are you stuck in this place?
You could be a cartoonist~
What was in your head?

As god heard your plead and grant you a wish
You had met a new friend…
Someone who like dreaming a dream
Someone who like imagining

Come play a game, our secret game
Where our confidents will gain
Open our eyes as we waken our minds
To see the world so nice

Oh~ dream, dream of being free
Free for fantasies

Sing us a song, you are now a man
Sing us a song about your land
It’s bitter, sweet? But I know it’s complete
Like how your friendship has been

Don’t worry now its going to be fine
Your wish has ended early
But so has your test been started now
To prove you are worthy for a crown

But is it some kind of joke god had given me
To prove I’m a good kid
Do I looked like a boy who didn’t mind
To lose a good friend of mine

Can you feel the pain I tried to suppress?
As my tears flew down freely like the river flow
How I ach as the glorious day…
No longer shine on my head

So dreams are only dreams
Don’t say such lonesome thing
Just see the day in a brighter way
To make the day a little gay…

here is how the real song is like and I really like it



enjoy!

The Holidays

I would have to say it is very eventful. I watched a total of three movies. Long Pte led, CJ7 and KUngfu Dunk. And I would have to say the best is of course Jay chou's Kungfu dunk very nice and very funny. Never see jay chou so childish before. Anyway pay a visit to fathers old man and god was his new house pretty.It was at bukit panjang and it is the best haha. Well skinny old ma says come live at her house. Well like hell no. I don't know what they may do to me. And please I don't think anyone in my mama's family will allow. Sigh~ tough life. Yeah a have wholesome love from everyone but heck I ini't not feeling it. Went to cineleisure yesterday to look for the shop. ZOMG it just dissappear and I can't find it. And god pissed me, out came second bro Meng and zhihao. WTFG are they following me because they are watching the same movie at THE SAME TIME!!! Lucky it was not the same hall. Or I would run home and pack my things and find a living at KL. Well got to go my uncle's computer is going geexiao already. BYES well end of holiday let hell break out man

Videos DAY \ >.< /

Here is some video I really love.

Phanstamagoria - Eternal silence


LUNA SEA - BELIEVE (GOD BLESS YOU～One Night Dejavu～)


This are really touching songs from the pioneers of visual kei and yeah they disbanded. Lets have a few minutes of silence

The Chinese Day

Yesterday was the day of the chinese new year. And it was really nostalgia./ Why nostalgis? Well I went on a walk to jelta and it was really fun. The street was the same as the past 3 years and henry park was the same except the parade square thwy are building something more and it seems to be another sports hall. SO lucky lar. If only repeat primary school. Khai Xin said everyone miss. Puh-lease like they will. They are like so happy. LIke they will remember me. O.0 Anyway I went to jelta and wanted to buy this mushroom and two mushroom cost 2.49 singapore dollars. I was like wow are you sure. Daddy even allow me. He rwally know how to spend. He actually pay thousands of dollars to buy a limited edition watch. Ridcule. I mean you can like know them does not mean you buy them rite. A thousand of dollars can allow me to attend 10 of The gazette tour including air tickets. HAHAHAHA. Well later we went to Suntec and ate korean food before buying a big bloody duck. He say he is going to cut it. Well I am fine excluding the head dangling with its eyes staring with retorting agony and it intestine that drips mercilessly down as it entangles into a massive gut mash. hopeless insane mental image of death really disgusting. I wonder how it feels to slaughter a cow. Imagine a blood clot up milk. *shudder* Well never mind after that I went home. And use my computer till 10pm. Then I watch MTV EMA awards 2007. With Snoop Dogg as MC hot I will say. From them I get to know 30 seconds to Mars. Not really that good as MCR but is really nice. At least there is not much screaming. And there is Nelly Furtardo and TOKIO HOTEL who won an award. I love tom not bill. Tom's guitar skills is much better and tom only know how to sing only. Tom is very funny ok >.< Yea kool It was held in Munich by the way and the stage was BIG and PRETTY and the crowd was just lovely. I am like in land gaming shop with all my cousins now and I am the only one blogging right now. Which is kind of weird but who cares a fuck right. haha anyway i ust went to my mother's mama house for visit and well one thind it is crap up boring. But I watch this show on tv it is a japanese variety show. About primary kid bounding their leg to another kid and running acros 50 metres and there is like 30 kids so it was really hard to run. I was touched by their teamwork and really think it is touching I actually cried okies. Another thing I felt like crying is Luna sea's One night De JaVU during last year's chiristmas eve I felt like crying. It was my first time listening to them and I had such great emotions. Oh wonder so many people like them. it is deepest regret to not listen to them. Well got to go le bye

Happy Chinese New Year!!!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!



Life was not so simple after ALL !!! Aunt said she will take my radio away so I can't listen to music AT ALL anymore. I am really angry that I cried a lot of times alone. I really long for freedom. I mean my mum is so much better. I really hate it when people push me into a corner. I really hate it.... Hatred just swell up in my head and heart. I really my current lifestyle. It is rotting me into a person of greed. It is like this, when you have no love no freedom there you are, a person who do evil for attention and a person who try all ways to find happiness that people think is freedom.

Anyway never mind that... IT is CHINESE NEW YEAR yea. This years chinese new was quiet... very quiet. NOT that it is a bad idea because I really enjoyed the peacefulness brought by the silence. We took a late night bus of 111 to see the quiet night life of orchard road and it was really kool. Imagine what will happen if no one evers patronize orchard again. That would be the result. So life can really be pleasant if you imagine it that way. I watched the Bridge to Terabithia and I find the story really wonderful. I tells us to not only see your surroundng with your eyes but also with your mind. 'Keep your mind wide open'. That is something I really appreciate. We must have an open mind, A mind that debates, a mind that accept and rejects. You must have all three and the most important... imagination. Everyone has different way of imagine, for me I like to imagine things that I long for which is typical to all people. I also think of the past and reflect. I like to compare. I like to complain. I complaint to my mind. i complaint to i.... I also like to think of freedom, life and all the beautiful word I can think of. Anyway What I want to say is most of the time I prefer to stay alone and peaceful. I don't like to mess in the crowd unnesscarily. Anyway thats all I got to write HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR. Oh I have another blog. NICE !!!! It is a music blog so yea awesome >.< Well going to Jealita so yea BYES here is Alicia Keys in Japan for you

Guren

I found this really touching. Though I may not know much about the conflict that happened in their country. So no offense ok. I think Pink really spoke her mind out and i find it really daring being able to be heard AND ACCEPTED by a crowd of thousands of people. HAHA. Actually I am blogging on the SLY. Anyway you know Aoi's birthday is on the 20th leh so sad I did not know *sigh* Anyway i found the Guren video and I really like wait arh here it is sexy you know Ruki. They created a series of jewellery called JamCherry Debut The GazettE I only like Ruki's necklace, the rest is very plain leh....

Wow so long never blog. REally miss this place LOL anyway... well i am still a big fan of visual kei haha. I heard really bad news and good news. Tora-san have spinal disc heiration. that means he has spine problem. He is healing now but I am really worried for him. They are fetting more popular it will be unfortuanate if he quit. All the best I hope... Well recently many things happen.... Like an excursion to Esplanade to catch a live performance of local production 'Beauty World' Nice cabaret show. Very funny. Anyway this month was a really bad month lol. The cd i burn was confiscated, I cant go back to hpps again. SAD! anyway I am now at my father house spending weekend there. I saw the Guren video already nice man. Now currently my favourite song LOL. Also got miyavi new mv. But I dunno i dun like miyavi new mv. No Sugizo SAD. I really want to talk to Khia lor miss her. My school days are worse... MY test are getting worse so hard. ESPECIALLY chemistry in science. I don't even thing I can go to shanghai anymore. SAD.... I freaking want to go to japan but unless got good results leh. HOPELESS lor. My relation with my relative is thinning in my head. SIGH.... here is a poem i suddenly thought:

The things we did churn as the clock chim in peace

No longer are we gripping as we question the fate reality

Soon have we lost the reasons that keep ringing...

No more bond that cheer through lonesome years

So where have we gone to draw a line

In't we all the same

You and I

The title erm... is 'Silent Disappear'

Anyway I have been writing all the small things everywhere. In my portfolio beside my pictures everything. What i think i write out, i sing out, i draw out. weird right here is a picture i like....

ガゼット.ルキ Ruki

Anyway Here is the Guren MV that just came out really nice especially Urha-senpai's solo. WEll I got to go already will come back later.

miyavi and Sugizo

I so long never blog already. School is fun especially with juaniter, jaslin and si xian. Got new girl, she is called Wendy damn freaking rich lar. But i don't really like her i think she is very braggart and like to xuan yao. She like everything also know. From piano grade four to SJAB corporal position. Hope she dont know guitar or i die for her to see. LOL. Anyway Shikana found Miyavi new singles and I found this band that is scarier then THe Gazette or even MARILYN MANSON called NoGod but they remind me of Janne de Arc Acid Black Cherry. Anyway I don't really like the Wendy girl because I think shelike very fake i mean how can you be a corporal at the same time as a choir member. But her voice is very good, she in soparano one. I don't know is it i jealous of her is it. But whatever I can tell she is one who have never gone through hard life before. Well she is really afraid of insects. Actually I am very scared also. But Well she is rich unlike me who have to run whenever i see creditors. LOL tough life then.... I still remeber the sucidal day. Never forget that. It was one of the complete blank out days. I still remember the day I was caught stealing in the bookshop LOL. Like stealing is only done by bad people..... Anyway I am like really rebellious this few days. I just can't take the sudden change after holiday. I like totally lost all my chance of using the computer and listen to music. I was like so crazy that I even thought of piercing my lip again. I was like standing at this tattoo shop at Thoing wanting to pierce my lip like miyavi and Aoi. AHHH how much I wish for an exciting life. I want to have a lot a lot a lot live shows. I want to be a guitarist like urha. Anyway my schooling life is very boring. Anyway found a few really pretty live concerts again



I really like the lighting at the starting it was really nice. Mao is a really got singer and he really portray as a jazz singer on a verge of screaming obscenities.

SChool starts....

so yup the school start like three days ago. Very nice. OKOK. I am sitting with Juaniter and she is really nice. I love her. I like her A LOT.... She is a really good friend. I like Si Xian and Jaslin and Yan Er. They all my girlfriends. And they are really important friends to me. I cherish them like how i cherish Khia Lynn. *SMILE* Anyway... School was fun I like it a lot. I have new teachers like the english teacher who is very nice and very easygoing. And my old math teacher who I wrote FUCK to her..... We had new students. VERY quiet veryveryveryveryvery One is a korean. She like Rain haha... Another is a Indonesian. And she is from queensway last year. Cool. She is nice. And she is filthy rich. She live in Orchard Road. WHATEVER!!! Like I care. But She is nice. SWEET. Wonder she like Visual Kei? I had orientation for sce one and I must say they are all bitches man. MAke friends with a few band seniors wow I like them. Angela like Gazetto. Ok not like but heard of them. I like them. Well now at parents house. So can use computer. Aunt won't allow even do online assignment they must see me do. I hate it no privacy. I don't like how they controll me even worse then mum. At least mum allow me to touch it. They son't even allow!!!. I am like trying to burn cd because I only left a radio. KANASHI!!! Anyway juaniter next wednesday. Must buy present for her. Her birthday 8th january. Now I don't know what to get her??? Now I am crazy of Tactics the manga very nice. I just love japanese demon. I want to see a tengu. handsome one. LOL Miss visual kei. Now listening to mayday only. JUST WAIT. Blogging stop now trying to blog at least twice a month. Got things then blog. BYES (bought a new tactics book cost $5.50 lat time only $5.00 lor stupid GST)

HAPPY NEW YEAR

A new year is coming soon. So... HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! I hope next year will be better than the last 3 years. I hope everything can remain the same. Still intact. I just hope for that. It is simple but difficult but i dun give damn about it. This 3 years taught me a lot. Give me a lot of learning experience. But I just want to take a break. To follow the normal pace. I just want to see a new perspective. I want to be normal... I will still be me. I will still be a visual kei fan but i will open my mind bigger. It will be slow but as time come it will be normal soon. So I had a resolution: A peaceful 2008 onwards.
I am following up on other genres of music like R&B. I love this song by Rihanna "Umbrella". I did destest it at the starting thinking that it holds no meaning, but actually it was very catchy and I'm totally addicted to it. Last time I was not a big fan of english songs but I'm ok with it now. Some of them were really touching like Red Jump Suit Apparatus. They have this song "my guardian angel" which I thought was really pretty. Finally found a new collaboration by Miyavi and and I really like it. Guren single coming out soon. Khia is screaming off my head. We need to meet someday. Hope that the reunion will be starting soon. I hope I can get back to it soon when I'm more steady. Taking a break for a while, but on and off willl still check up on them because very busy.
So won't be blogging for quite a while. Will stick back to yellow book. If I can find a computer then I will blog. Ulverworld has new album called Corpulaton. Kinokuniya will the only place to quench my thirst.
Alice nine label mate beast disbanded. Shika cried so sad meh. I only like their song "days" Krysyella

HIKING!!!!!!!!!

Today went with my father and Aunty Jacaulinqe to HIKE at BUKIT TIMAH HILL O.O Freaky she damn fit lor. But really the place very nostalgia. It remind me of primary 5 diary farm camp a lot. I really like those time although there is BAD time.... But hey still kool with it. I didn't really participate in any of the games though. SCARED of it mah. Height scared. VERY!!~ I like the stream A LOT. Then after that went to sunset estate to eat shabu shabu. WAH OIISHI~ I love beef with raw eggs. I really like the beef so tender. ARGH I want to stay there forever. That estate very nice, very peaceful. Soma live there she told me before. Never went to her house though. WOnder how she is??? Arh~ miss 6A.... After that went to Eunos to warehouse shopping.... CAnt find the warehous in the end. Stranded for atleast an hour. Wasting time lor... Any way that is all I did today. Found this website with Miyavi new singles. I heard it .... FANTASTIC. He collaborate with his senpai SUGIZO. VERY GOOD http://soso2008.multiply.com/music/item/206 I like the song. A LOT. He is having his next tour soon next year. Even to the United States. The GazettE have new singles soon too Guren Khia told me on the Feb 13. MYV is on jan 18. I think CAnt really remember... Well Got to Go love BYees~

ARGH!!!! The GazettE kool

The Words I want to blog got problem so I lost it. FUCK-UP computer *middle Finger*

Choir Concert 23/12

Well the concert was a huge success !!! It went really well. All of us was able to listen and feel together. There was this part where all of us flat together! AWESOME. It is like we were thinking the same thing. Like we are one. It is really kool and I love the sound balance. Although the audience is not really enthusiastic. But all in all i got the feeling of a performer and I really like it a lot and at the starting I was really nervous but in the everything was okok. Guess why? I was like in my head thinking I need to calm down. Then I thought of Ruki. He is performing in front of 17.000 people and it was so well. And he is the only vocalist so if he WENT OFF PITCH. It will be a hard time to cover. Maye the guitar. Or ig the sound man was fast to change it the volume down. Imagine his circumstances allowed me to calm down and listen to my rest of the members. So most of the time I thought of them. LOL right. Here I am singing vocals while thinking of rokkou. But it works though. Instead I remained calm really really calm anyway yeah. It was holy god fun. I was like hey is there encore? I WANT TO SING AGAIN!!!!!!!! Choir really help collect part of the experience I need. But I know it is not sufficient. Someday I know I need to create a whole lot of trouble to get that min. experience. YES I will head of to Nippon to take a look. And if by chance maybe catch a show at yokohama hall or Budokan. NUMBER ONE dream step into this two concert hall as and employee, employer or ARTISTES. Lolol. NVM I just want to help bring a good concert. As a child I have always dream that and I will work hard to step foot in there. Well or I need to do now is study. LOL really that may lift my closer. Don't know. Khia lynn is working hard to perfecting her piano while me is the guitars. She is going for song writing courses. LUCKY her. I am like struggling really hard to get inspiration. I like every time I watch a concert I will then think of inspiration. So I love watching concerts. They let my mind do pretty imaginations. Allow me to see a things in all kind of way. I really love concert especially those really pretty ones. The GazettE is another. Alice Nine is also okok. But I want something big. Massive. I think I will need to work really hard to write songs like Ruki and play like Aoi. The choir concert is just the start of my performer journey and no way it will quench my thirst for concert. I will start fast. And I want to catch up fast really fast. And it is not about any genre. All means and ways I will do it. HAHAHA. LOL tsk.tsk now I am grounded from using the computer because I used it till the late nights and I watch The GazettE. HAHAHA inspiration freak I am. Well now is all up to me. Independents no way can I rely on anyone any more. I lost one person close. No more freaking such bonds any more. Attachment free. That is good. I love no one. LOL that is sweet. Friends I have. I need is seclusion. What I want is my ambition, my lust, my dream. YES nuts I am. I must admit I am NUTS but i Love the feeling so yep happy. I will look at satisfactory. I will only take, learn all that. THAT IS ALL NO MORE SHIT FEELINGS OF LOVE...........................
GOTTA GO WRITE TO YOU Went I can. maybe next holiday. BYE

20th december 2007

Sorry did not write for so long. I was really lazy. Well this few days I had a few calls from Khia Lynn and I really miss her. LOL. But well my family members disagree with me hanging with her. Well understandable since both of us talk like crazy people lol. Im like really pissed lor. When I was like talking halfway my aunt or my cousin will start FREAKING. I talked about Andrea has a boyfriend. I am really angry with this stupid timing for my bedtime. OKies about Andrea well she is nuts… WHY? Well I said before about the oral sex that she had with Evan, her boyfriend, mind you. She… to say in an ugly way…. She gave Evan a blow job. Right AND nearly got herself FUCKED. What the hell…. I am like really shocked that Andrea, a complete social withdrawal, the last time I see her was like this now. I mean yar she is wild and crazy at times. She does physical harm on herself… but no way can I believed she did that. YAR they may think they used condoms so it is no biggie. But hey, Khia told me the guy is a HIV freak and also a freaking drug addict. No sniffing…. It is JABBED. With a bloody non-sterilized needle and she still love him, till she has BDSM dreams of that Australian good-for-nothing. Grate and I thought she was a bisexual…. I was really happy that she has a boyfriend… someone of the opposite sex who care for her. I mean I was happy. I thought they would you know… know their limit that their age allow. NONO what was I thinking no Andrea is not! She have to do it so fast. And The guy he is every problem that a girl do not want frustrating. I am really worried for her. I talked to khia lynn yesterday I missed. I really want to talk to someone who like visual kei. Someone like me. I was happy when I talk to her I just want to continue talking till in the morning. I was really happy and glad to hear her voice. She is the only person who understand my favourism of the music. Well yar I really love talking to Khia. And I think my aunt and cousin are really extreeeemely protective of me. I mean I really like to scare them. I will pretend to like you know not go to choir when I actually got to scare them. Well I had many happy things this few days also. There is like this shop on the six floor in cineleisure that sells The GazettE guitar pick and photos. They also have Miyavi and Alice Nine very kool. Khia says there is punk-rock and lolita clothes. They can cosplay as Vk artiste. I wonder if have GazeROCK t-shirt. WOW I really wonder when I can go to Japan. I must like study really hard like hell next year to go to Japan. I really want to take a look at Budoukan. I really want to check it out and so is Harajuku. Anyway well I am like really busy with the stupid choir concert. Man Yaner's voice was really good. She was like praised by Miss Khor. Trying really hard to get my pitching correct. LOL. Anyway still listening to The GazettE. Find them too kool to ditch. Hope to meet them in live. My dream is like to have a concert with them lor. Well Anyway still trying to handle my choral voice cum rock voice together. Really diffcult. Practising hard on Guitars too. So well I am 13 so I hope to be better whrn I am 18. Still not giving up my studies. Still studying hard. STill worried with maths though. But I think the rest should be okies. Just memorize. I LOVE MEMORIZING. I feel pre-occupied. Well I think I must do really well I MUST GET FOUR PERFECT A's IN ORDER TO HEAD TO TOKYO... HOPE TO CATCH SOME FAMILIAR FACES ^^ & BUY SOMETHING I LIKE (still thinking)

Running o.0

Omg I had to go running today.xain lor Well. I had choir today and it was fun. WAtching Moon child now...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FubcVQKaFHE&NR=1

11 December day.... DEATH DAY?

OMG I like totally spend my whole day shopping. And believe it was totally not enjoyable. I had to shop for a white polo t-shirt and a FUCKING white skirt. What in the name of any god did I buy a skirt? Because my choir concert's costume consist of it. DAMN it... I was really irritated lor okok. I can't find a single white skirt and the polo shirt I found was way translucent that I need a singlet inside. And my boobs totally showed. I really wish I am a flat-chest. I mean I don't mind no guys liking me. At least I look nice. Anyway nowdays guys don't go for girls with big chest. If they really do, they are just imature. BUT however.... my day was brighten in the end, because I bought two shirt that fit exactly and look NICE on me. >.<>.<

Choir

Well went to Queenstown for choir. It was damn tiring but we didi not lose face. LOL Queenstown haas really improved though. DOn't feel like blogging today. Reading Naruto fanfiction. BDSM LOL. Anyway here is a video I personally like.... It got my favourite guitarist....




Well I will blog tommorrow well byees~

My friend called...

I spent the morning watching wu yue tian concert and The GazettE concert. I was doing concert analysis. Well Final Home was really tame while The GazettE was really... wild. Final Home has more props and it is more grand but the atmosphere is not really 'crazy'. It is high, it is very happy and touching but I think it lack the kind of crazy antics that The GazettE holds. Well it is also partly because of the songs actually. Wu Yue Tian's song is too happy, too pure. That is why no matter how much scary sound effect we put it does not holds the atmosphere of a dark world. They actions too were too wide, too smothering. Soft and all that. That is why they have so many people who like them. They prove to the world that rock those always have to be abut screaming and shouting. They also can be tame and all that. There could also be really meaningful meanings hidden in it. As for The GazettE... well their concert is really wild. From the deem lightening and sound effect you can sense they are stressing on something sorrowful. They scream at the correct time, at the point where they emphasis the meaning of the song. They use different hand signs and all kinds of method to show the expression of each different song. There was this part where Ruki was doing nice hand rail sliding and he was sucking his hand. Man that was nuts. He really showed he was singing a song of sex. Mega LOL. Anyway I like most is the echo effect. So when they scream it sound like the scream is still ringing in your ear after it ended 10 sceonds later. And Aoi-san scream was really nice. It was really awesome the two bands. It showed to different side of rock. So if you ask who I would prefer... well I think both were good in their ways. But truthly I think it was The GazettE. Am I being prejudice like what Mengmeng say? Well we were about to go for dunner at Sakura BUFFET and guess who called? WU KHIA LYNN. It was so embarrassing when she shout into the phone and my aunt and cousin heard it. She called because she saw MANA'S GUITAR -.- Well really I am not really a big fan of Malice Mizer. They are like okok. But she is a big fan... But seriously I really miss her and her screams of visual kei. But just the thought left to worry again. I can't talk to her musch any more.... I have just landed in a good school. I can't go bak to them. I can't continue with our crazy antics. SIGH* Well later after dinner which was nice, we went to kinokuniya. And I found Neo Genesis Yearbook. And guess who was on the front cover? THE GAZETTE. ARGH.... can't they just leave me alone. Every where is them..... And another sad thing... BIS is disbanding why...why. They are really nice people and their sounf are good. They are label mates of Alice Nine. ARH.... Well then later I got really mad with my cousin MengMeng. I really don't like when he act kool lor. Like you know like jay chou or something.... It is stupid. Then him caring about everything of me. My language, my english, my music, my manners. I mean I don't give a damn lor. He like give this really blank face when I say something nasty. Which I hate.... And he treat me like a kid, like I don't know what I am saying. Once I say I help him buy bondage pants. He saying I don't know what it means. OF course I do, but please don't be so sensitive lar. It is only a pants. It is not like I am going to ask him to use it for BDSM. GROSS.... Bloody mental image. That is so scary. Well i need to go le. TIME for choir. At queenstown....secondary hope to see josephine or yuping