I am so pissed just now. I was like using the computer and meng meng ask me to shut the computer off because I used for too long. Hell with it I was like darn pissed. But it did not last long lar. I went to do other things. I tried to add english lyrics to Alice Nine 'Q'(Question). It sounded soso but the meaning was a total mess. It was yet again a complete BLACKNESS. No meaning no happiness. *Sigh* when can I write like last time? Last time I wrote quite a few poems and it was pretty nice. I guess... Because when I showed others no one believed it was my work. LOL... I really hope to write more of them like this. Kitboy said it was due to the song I am listening currently. Well I must admit it is true *mostly*. Well I remember the last time I wrote a poem, I was a big, big fan of Miyavi. And now well ..... I like other band but I still like Miyavi. I think the cause was The GazettE. Ever since I listen to them I was like really obsessed with Ruki because of the lyrics he wrote. SHIT. I guess I will have to really forget them. So wish me all the best.... Ganbante

Yesterday Night

I went to somewhere really nostalgic. I went to Marina South. It was really nice. Peaceful and all. But most of it is empty. Only left the bowling alley and a few steamboat eatery. No more curry rice place. The flying kite area has shrink to only a limited area. I miss that place. I still remember flying the kite there. Eating the curry rice with my family. It is really nostalgic. Some how I find it is truely a peaceful place to be at.... It is really nice unlike the busy streets of 'Concrete Jungle' But sadly it would be demolished soon to make way for the new SANDS resort. With beautiful high class hotels and Casinos for rich people. Fuck it man.... I mean it would be nice if Singapore become Las Vegas number two, but wont it really sucks if all the old, familiar and nostalgic disappear... Places where it holds really deep memories?? Places that you go when you are young??? I really do look forward to IR but not so fast right....

Whoa today I woke and realised I cried.... While I was sleeping. I had a really terrible nightmare. I could still remember. 'She' was there.... 'She' came back again. Everything of her was scary. The way I shake. The way I was really powerless. I cant say a word, I cant move... And what is with the bloody arm there??? The way every muscle on her face move when she flare up was really creepy.... I can't say I love 'She' .... But the more I can't say I hate 'She'....Tomorrow would be her last day. I hope to make it the best... With whatever love and respect I have towards her. I wish her happy journey onwards.... Please forget me .

Jrock music

WELL….today nothing interesting happened (of course it is the morning now only)
But Today I am really happy…. I dreamt of guess ….. A group of fat people freaking me and asking me to slim down or I would be like them… And if I am not wrong I thought I saw the fatty guy in The GazettE PV ~Filth In The Beauty~. Seriously Creepy -.- Well yesterday I downloaded a lot of singles…. I finally found Charlotte mini-album. It is called, Sharundenashi BLUES. Ok lar the songs….very cute and it sound as good as Antique café. Oh Bou left Antique Café this year march… I wonder why? But I am like not really affected by it… I dun really listen to their songs… But seriously Bou is really cute. But without him and including Yuki and Takuya (New replacement) the band becomes more masculine and that was kind of ok… I mean how long can this kind of band last if they continue acting cute right??? Oh and Kra new mini-album, Creatures. It is really nice a blend of Jazz and rock. My favorite song is World. I think Keiyuu voice is really good lor… He is like 29 this year right. Oh wonder his voice so mature. I cried when he sang Setsugekka. I was really touched by his voice. I have this Singles by a new band called Sendai Kamotsu
It is really cute. I also have Neu a Indie band singles ~Splash!~ Wah like Takuya from uverworld meet Antique Café. I just don’t like the sound effect. It is very irritating. I have the Aqua timez ~Dareka no Chijoue~. It is really nice but I think their song last time is better. Last time was completely soft rock. Now more noisy. Not that I CANT stand noisy song, it is just that I prefer them softer for Aqua Timez because the vocalist voice tone not so fit for hard rock. His voice would sound much better with soft rock, more peaceful. I mean that is just my opinion ^^ Something sad is I cant FIND Alice Nine New Album ~Alpha~ It is like everyone is saying that it is really nice and I must admit it is I only have the Cosmic World PV and Blue Planet PV and it was really nice. Blue planet is like complete happiness, although there is this pinky bunny. I bet all the Fangirls are like totally angry when they saw it. LOL The bunny was like totally seducing them with that extra tight tight mini mini skirt that could just show her butt. So it was kinda disgusting Well gtg le byees….

The concert

Choir concert is coming really soon
It is really scary
All the songs are really erm....HIGH~
And there is so many songs to memorize
I mean how am I to memorize a french song
The pronounciation is so weird
Well talking about concerts
I saw Alice Nine Concert Hello Dear Numbers
It was really awwwesome
I mean I saw Saga licked his bass and it was HOT
Well Shou sang way better than during the PSC tour
And the funny thing
Nao FALLED!! during the Encore
Damn funny he tripped over the platform LOL
Well Nao drum solo was really good
But without the sound effect it would be excellent
I just saw Kai's solo and was really shocked
I was really good....better than Yasuno
But because of that I saw so many fangirls screaming
That made me mad because....
1) His mine so no one is to like him
2) He have so many fans *jealous*
3) They remind me of ..... me
And I just read a Fanfiction of AoixKai
I was completely flustered by it.
Well I had finished my Music Project on Alice Nine
Hope you all like it........

Shocked! Reputation of Jrock

I was like so pissed with Yoshiki
He actually broke a brand new drum set
It totally broke the image of a rocker
He is like on some drugs
And it truly makes me shudder
I mean no one should break their drums
And to be honest S.K.I.N concert is not really nice
Unlike the other band that I have seen
They like do not have the bonding, kizuna
Unlike The GazettE, Alice nine, Kra and SID
That is what they lack....after all they are all soloist
For a pretty long time
I would not be surprise if Miyavi has forgotten about Due le Quartz
Or Gackt has forgotten his time in Malice Mizer
Or Yoshiki has to X Japan and Sugizo to Luna Sea
Maybe it was because I was not use to this....
Kind of *too wild* Rock Concert
But whatever it is I will feel really uncomfortable if i attended
Partly because I hate it when violence took place,
And because I am looking at someone who seriously
Looked like he ate a packet of drugs...or something
I was also really mad at Yoshiki
Because just his action has brought a bad reputation To ROCK genre
People may use him and judge that rock is not a good thing
Because I myself was shocked....
If I ever want to be a rockstar....
I will never learn from them....I will probably learn from Mayday
Afterall they were the one who taught me rock is a....
Form of expression Not a form of violence
I will learn from Alice Nine, Kra and Uverworld for lyrics
The GazettE and SID for visual style
Kaya, 12012 and antic cafe for fashion style
I will not and never touch anything that
Relates me to touch anything harmful
Causing to lose the trust of my fans
I will............................................
Lead my fans to a good path
Become one with my members and fans
This is what a good rocker is....
Some times I will add a few songs that was inspired from My feelings
That is all .... NO DRUGS MAN
Yoshiki, you are going nuts...X japan *shudder*
Now I have doubts weather Hide-san did sucidal
He creepy person bash his drum set
Better make sure Kai and Nao does not....
Bash drums ....Or I will so be out of Jrock

Budget Terminal

Well today was a day of fun

I went out with my uncle and aunts

My cousin came along

We went to Terminal Three, Budget Terminal

It was erm.... really new

Well not many things lar. All too new.

We started the day with a breakfast at....

East Coast Park Burger King

And it is really fun... watching the sea while eating

Then we headed to Terminal Three

It was really nice....very new

Kinda of like Korea airport

Then we went to the older Terminal

Then at Terminal one

Yuping (cousin) say that there was a really .....

Nostalgic place

Yea it truely was

When I was young
My whole family, uncle, aunts and cousin

Would head there for Swensens ice-cream

And it was the sweetest gathering we had

Both of us really missed it...

The place changed and swensen is now

Next to the Arrival hall

There is one too at Terminal Three

Well it is really fun.... Yar cheese!!!

Man...I really miss this happy girl

Well after that we head to Mellina Walk, Suntec City

(dont' know how to spell)

Well That all *smile*

OMG! fight...

OMG!~ They fought o.0
The two always friendly and caring brothers fought
And GREAT! They fighting because of me...
That got me really pissed and disappointed
Yar I know they were really worried about me
But hey if you are then please leave alone
Because your fight has really jeopardized me
And that you HAVE ADD ANOTHER PROBLEM IN ME
I really hate it when people fight
It really frightens me
It is just disgusting and horrifying
Especially it is people I know really well
And those people who are really nice and friendly
Well they were actually fighting over how to talk to me
How to understand me??
Well I dunno but i have this feeling they will never succeed
If my mum cant, could they?
The closest failed will the rest pass
They should just give up....
They should just let me figure the hard way
Like this no one is hurt
Not me, not them
So well .......................
LEAVE ME ALONE OKOKOK
I am darn freaking hecking
TIRED ARGH....
I sometimes feel really tired of this world...

Fight!

Morning

Preparing to a journey to pilgrimage.... LOL well not really

I was just heading towards the temple at River Valley

Actually I kind of like going to the temple

Especially those really peaceful ones.

It makes me able to think. Sometimes I will think

'Hey life is not that messed up'

Well it won't last long. But it truely make my day....

Well yesterday 0.00am. Brother Meng and I had a talk

He said he hate The GazettE for a reason...

They talked too lightly of death

A disrespect he thinks. I really admire Brother Meng

He went through Depression

And now....well his doing just fine

He did 'darken' through that period

Just ask him and he can explain to you in details

If you dare.........

Well he explain that music through can affect....

ones thinking... ones feeling...

Well for your information

Satan was The Angel of Music

MWAHAHAHA

*On the verge of sanity abortion*

Well thats all for today byee~

PS Company Carnival tour

Third row: Shou, Keiyuu, Miyavi, Ruki, Kaggra vocalist LOL

(Loved them most)

Nature Pleasure

Today was a sweet day.
Tuition was really fun.
Ah Leow and his joke just make me crack up like a freak.
Well one thing I learned
That academic is important
But so is your talent and skills
Well I cant really say I have a talent or skill
But I really like music
So I hope to create a skill in music soon...
I want to write really heart lifting songs like Shou-san
Scary and touching songs like Ruki-san
Happy, simple but straight to the point song like Miyavi-san
They wrote really well lyrics and I badly wanted to be like them
Maybe you would think I am over-thinking considering my age
But I think it would be nice to start when you are young
For example,
Miyavi-san started playing the guitar at 15
Then two years later he joined Due le'quartz
Which is really awesome
He learned so much in just two years
For me all I ever did was drooling at him....
And I was really jealous of Ruki at one point
I was really angry...
I was like 'Hey that guy is so cool'
He is like this really naughty boy...
Who has a cool band,
Who have one-man concert every year
And is loved by so many fans
While me a normal girl
With a normal life
Normal school
Only have a dream....
A dream to be like them
lol MOKKORI
OKies I learnt it from Tora
Pervert!~
Well anyway today
I accompanied my aunt and uncle
To a vegetarian cafe
My father came along
Well it was really nice
Eating while making small chats
Making a few small jokes
The cafe is really cosy
It's called 'Nature pleasure'
At fortune centre
So nothing went wrong today
I am glad ^^

The NEOlancer

Today in the morning I went for a walk.
Then headed to the kopitiam across the road.
I was repeatedly fooled by two hawkers.
At least I had the name of one of them
'Uncle john' .....-.-
Very cute, they were really funny
We were like acting all goofy in public
And we don't give a damn
I was having a really nice feeling
I wonder why everyone in this world act so cautious
They all seem afraid to step on the wrong stone
That may ruin their reputation
They follow the flow.....
Everything, from manners to fashion
Everything in this world is too well categorized
If you are a punk you must be punkish, u must be bad
If you are a well-mannered you must listen to Beethoven, wear long dress
If you are a Goth you must be all black
So weird
Is there a catergory where you are free to think?
If there isn't....
I will start one
'The NEOlancer'

Weird things

I said the weirdest things today -.-
My dad SMS me, using oka-san's phone
I feak and type.....
'.....are you mom....?'
And he freak...
Then just now
I said I was hungry
Then I said
'I am very hungry I need to go to the toliet....'
Weird... I never thought I like shit ><

'Pretty Normal Day'

I went to the temple at Geylang early in the morning
and had three hours of prayers .....
Relaxing?
Try kneeling for three hours
WITH no breakfast eaten...
Okies I am not suppose to complain...
Then I went with father to eat a Kushin-Bo
Had the sweetest Alaska crab tasted
Then catch a movie of 'Game Plan'
Very funny ^^
Well it was a 'Pretty Normal Day'
But everything is to the mind to create.....

Gazeboys new looks

>.<>

What did Kai do to his hair?

Aoi why did you f***king took off your lipring?

Just who do are you Ruki? Madonna?

Reita well still the same big brother look

Well Urha I really trust your style nowdays

You look HOT with short bangs!~

Vocalist: Ruki

Lead Guitarist: Urha

Guitarist: Aoi

Bassist: Reita

Drummer: Kai

Miyavi new singles

It was really nice and really entertaining
Miyavi had done another good job
In fact his vocals have improve
and the rap and everything fits much better than the last one
'Neo Visualizm'
I am glad to be able to hear it the very same day it was released
14 November 2007
Well keep up with the good job Miyavi
We will always back you up

I cried

I was listening to Kra - Setsugekka and i just cried in front of my two cousins and in front of my aunt and uncle. It was embarrassing.... but I cant let it stop flowing. I was really touched by Keiyuu. His vocal was really good. The melody just flows with my mood. It was also because I was worried with my dad. I just could not stop thinking of the lonely figure of him. The disheartened soul when I told him I can't go back home with him. I am really sad. Then that cousin of mine went to criticize jrock and this song. So i cried......

Concert Day

Well today was the same day slacking AND OH YAR RUNNING 0.O I ran with junjie brother, very xianz. Four round around the Queenstown complex. Lucky i Had my MP4 with me or i was sure to give up halfway. Oh i had the whole of the GazettE's new album Stack Rubbish. It was really nice. All the SONG was good but i find it was pretty messy the way they arrange the songs. It is like there is a slow song then a fast song than again another slow song. It does not help build the mood of the listener. But each song is nice. The melody itself was able to wow me. I really admire them. They really are true visual artiste. I really want to be like them. In fact i am planning to be like them...so anyone wants to form a band with me? I have this very weird feeling when i watch their lives. It is like this mixture of excitement because they are really unpredictable, happiness because i really like their music, Belonging, weird right i felt i was one of the members and the weirdest of all, Jealous. I am really jealous of them. They have so many fans, so many lives, so many talent, so many inspiration..... Me? i cant even think of anything. Even if i come out with a song...my cousin don't like it. They say it is too dark, too gloomy. Filled of sadness, lust, vengence and negative thinking. Well it is what i am thinking right now. I mean i can come up with happy things but the sad one pop out first. Well today i was suppose to attend a concert at Esplanade. The ~Rock A Capella~ or something. They sing a capella. I am not really a big fan of them, but why not try it right? I think they are kool creating sounds with their vocals without any need for instruments. I guess today was not a really good day for me. I was completely pissed today. Pissed at everything. I think i need to see a Shrink. lol. Or maybe Anger Management courses again. Because right now my chest feel really painful and heavy. Well i got to go already. Concert Time. LET ROCK !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND SING AND FORGET YOUR WORRIES LET IT DROWN, LET IT DROWN~

The GazettE - ☆BEST FRIENDS☆

This is the lyrics for best Friends

☆BEST FRIENDS☆
osanakigoro yume mita mirai yosouzu wa
ima mo iroasezu azayakani mae wo muiteiru
ookikunareru you ni senobishite mita keshiki
toki ni wa kujikesouni naru keredo gutto namida koraete

hitotsu no ookina yume ni mukai hashiri hajimeta
taisetsuna nakama ga iru kara ganbaretanta

tsuyoku ikiru shounentachi yo
hitori janai yuuki wo dashite
tsuki susunda sono saki ni wa
nakama to warai kagayaku kimi ga iru

kore kara aruku kewashii michi wa hikari ni ochita IBARA no michi da
yokumo warukumo saisho de saigo douse yaru nara yume wa kanaeru
mimamotte kureru hito no tame ni daisuki na hito ya jibunra no tame ni
ishiki no REBERU chou HIGH ni shite kyou mo aruku onore no michi

hitotsu no ookina yume ni mukai hashiri hajimeta
taisetsuna nakama ga iru kara ganbaretanta

bokura ga ima aruku michi wo
takai kabe de fusagarete mo
tomaranai sa buchikowashite
yume ni mukai susunde iku

tsuyoku ikiru shounentachi yo
hitori janai yuuki wo dashite
tsuki susunda sono saki ni wa
nakama to warai kagayaku boku ga iru

This the Translation of Best Friend

☆BEST FRIENDS☆
As a child, I dreamt of the future
Even now it doesn't fade, but is vivid as I look forward
So that I'd grow, I'd hold the tears in as I watched the scenery I grew
up with crush under time.

I began to run towards that one big dream
Because my good friends were with me, I did my best

Live well, young men
You're not alone, so muster your courage
Lunge forward, for right beyond this
You'll be laughing and shining with your friends

The steep path that you'll be walking will be lit, but full of thorns
Good or bad, from start to finish, you're gonna do it anyway, so make
your dream come true
For those who watch over you, for the ones you love and for yourself
Get your senses to a super high level, and walk your own path today

I began to run towards that one big dream
Because my good friends were with me, I did my best
Even if there's a high wall in our way, we're not stopping
We'll break it down and go on towards our dream

Live well, young men
You're not alone, so muster your courage
Lunge forward, for right beyond this
You'll be laughing and shining with your friends

OUTing

I went out with my aunts,uncle and grand mama. It was the usual Saturday outing at Plaza Singaura. But the problem is there could be tuition and i think i forget to go harhar... OKies never mind about that. It was really boring today... I went to Thiong bahru plaza later and yet another boring thing. I went to popular bookshop to select some assignment books. Arh.... That moment it kind of remind me of mum. Most of the time we will spend hours at Tao Payoh Hub's popular the whole day. That is how we wasted our time there. Just slacking our time there reading book and discussing about the various books we like. She like Chinese novels, I Like English novel. Even that quiet moment, we felt a sense of peace to have each other's company. Well i guess i am really alone now.... LOL Whatever... Then i went to Comics connection and guess what i saw.... Miyavi's Picture book for 2006. It contain mostly of Senor Senora Senorita Mv pictures. It was so nice ^^ I really wish one of them could come to Singapore to perform.... I mean since GazettE has been to Germany and Miyavi has been to L.A. why not come to one of the countries in South-East Asia right. Oh ya I found this book really nice. Yakuza Moon. It is really awesome. I am not going to give you spoilers. Here is where you can find this book. Harris in Orchard MRT and Thiong Barhu Popular. If there is other places please tell me. I am dying for that book.

This is Alice Nine.....

This is Alice Nine too....