LUNATIC running!!

OMFG. Here I was walking home from choir and I met this guy. Well he is a stranger. But at the starting he just as me where block 150 is? As I am new I don't really know either. But suddenly he just say thanks and shake my hand. Then not only that he ask me if I am scared of cats when we saw one. Mega LOL.... What the Hell he is really freaky. Then he ask if I am a Chinese. He thinks I am a Malay, Eurasian mixed. Well weird for a stranger to ask. Not that no one ask. I mean they will like say behind my back, 'Hey that malay girl can speak chinese' Anyway, he freaked me when suddenly he patted my back. Great I thought I will be raped anytime. SO I just walked quickly to the lift. Then he followed me. I was like really freak if he go into the lift with me. But he just stood outside. AND he ask me my name. Guess what name I gave? Lee Shu FU. I can't think of any name to give, so the first thing I thought and then say was SHU FU. Weird name maybe I was thinking of Tou Fu.... Well he ask me where I studied I said Queenstown. -.- BIG LOL. It is really freaky. I was like thinking... 'what will he do to me?' 'Is he a lunatic?' 'blablahblah.. I was like really shocked today when Andrea say she did erm.... oral sex with her boyfriend, Evan. And not only that erm well she dreamt of a BDSM dream with Evan??? CAn that be any grosssss~ Well I will never loss my virginity that young. But she seems more than eager to get married and you know.... S.E.X.... And you know when she told me told me that I was actually watching Decomposition Beauty and.. man was Aoi's scream damn nice man. It was good. He is a really sexy screamer and guitarist. Well I don't know if this is true but Khia lynn say he is married.... SHIT. I like love him a lot lor. Well I also admire him. He rmind me greatly of Miyavi. AND he also have anger management
problems. SO I will catch him in South-East asia like never. First to Germany but never to any near SEA. Like NLSG and MRD and PWB are only in Japan and so on. Never in the life of me will they Sinhgapore. SO pissed. I hope they will hold a PScompany tour again. I would really hope soo~. IMAGINE all of them reunited. Miyavi and AOI!!!!

TO JAPAN!!! \o/

OKOK this is really serious. I just find myself really happy this two days. Mebbie because I got my life back or something. Well I found a few really touching videos that I want to put in this lovely blog so I can remember it when I grow up. By then I would say 'hey that was the song that I like a when I was young'. WAY nostalgic.... Anyway I was like really going to study real real hard. WHY? Because if I get 4 As I would get to go to Japan. The place I always wanted to. OMG right!!! Then if I do better than that maybe I could buy a merchandise of any band I know. Unless if I come across lar. I don't think I will buy any albums because I could just download it online. RiGhT!! I mean I may find a Aoi PLUSHIE. LOL not buying Ruki's, or else Khia will snatch it away from me. MEGA LOL. Mebbie I should buy one for Khia. DID she like Ruki or Kai more?? Maybe there is Miyavi's concert DVD. ARH..... That is something not easily found in Singapore. WELL wish me good luck for year 2008!!!!
TO JAPAN MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



The last Performanc I cried because it was really sad. Miyavi cried too. I was like OMG. Why does all band have to end up disbanded one day???

What A DAY!!!

Wow I was like really happy and really mad. LOL. Mad because I was given by my all to nice cousin, WONG JUN MING. ARGH.... But anyway thanks to it I was really relieved... That I am still not a worthless computer geek. LOL. Well today I didn't really used the computer till now in the night. I was like watching the Final Fantasy Advent Childeren and... man was Cloud really good looking. Actually everyone in the anime is good looking. Even the baddie. And yea the baddie was the next handsome. BIG LOL. His voice kind of remind me of the vocalist from Antique Cafe damn cute. I loved all the fighting scenes. Meng brother love Tifa and long for his to come. MEGA LOL... Anyway well I forget to tell you something LAST saturday, first of december you know who I saw?? I think you also won't know. RYAN LEONG!!!~ He has grown up really fast. Well growing a bit more handsome haha. Well I really do miss him a bit. He was a really nice person if you know him well. And actually we got together *as friends* because he is a BIG FAN of Jay chou and so was I at that time. He is really nice prson trust me. Although he is a bit irritating and all at times. WEll I gtot my spectacles done. Purple totally fifferent no one I knowtried that so I gave it a shot. Well gtg reading naruto fanfiction

The GazettE

Well I still cant really get over them. I mean how can you forget them. There is like 3 sexy guys gods no 4, no actually five sexy guy gods. And all of them basking under all the neonlights during the concerts. And freak look and Aoi in that translucent see-through shirt. I mean it was them hot~. Shit my fangirl is all up again.... *WEE FEELING HYPER* Anyway I think the most I cant resist is Ruki and Aoi. They are like really kool and all that. And man, Ruki can do some really sizzling things like... He is like licking his fingers all over. And was dancing in front of Urha or worst pole dancing with the fence. Totally eccentric. Oh wonder Khia love him the most. And my oh my Urha's leg is totally eye-opener lar. He have such nice thighs, I wish to have it too. *pouting* At the starting I thought he was a girl. Major LOL. Their songs are really nice too. I love how Ruki sings and his stage presence is awesome. Oh and Kai OMFG. You I saw this part of decomposition Beauty. Kai was like looking at the camera with the side of the eyes as he continue drumming and it was like really kool. He look damn hottie. He don't really look that innocent. Sometimes he can continue drumming non-stop like a lunatic. And you do think he has gone mad.... It was like he like possessed. LOL he is like totally different in backstage lor. Oh I found a band that look like The GazettE. AND I SAY LOOK. Yea the vocalist look a bit like Ruki when Ruki have blond hair and there is one that dress like Urha and have really sexy thigh. LOL AND they are from the same PSCompany!~ SHIT Brother saw it again. WELL MEBBIE they are not really lyrical nice.... but I would to like to learn for stage presents. Well after all I want to be hot like them. I decided to learn from AOI and RUKI!!!!!!!!!!



The Starting would be very boring all talking blahblahblah but the drumming is really nice and so is the duet with Reita. I think they work really hard to perfect their indivdual skills. And I must say it is not easy playing a bass guitar. 1) You get really influenced easily by the drummer and mixed your rhythem up 2) It is darn heavy. Carrying all day could kill you as it nearly killed me. 3) And the strings are bloody thick and it is really painful to press.

Bloody make-up

Well today was the same Normal Day. Well other then the fact I scratch my face. I was like trying to follow how those visual kei people do their eyes you know... With thick eyeliner and all that. Well I just did a simple one... just with eyeliner. I learn it from the video. And well... it turned out nice with my hair down. I was make it well in the horror department. It was damn freaky... but I like it. But the problem is, it is bloody hard to remove it and I was like using the facial sponge to rub it. I rub for so long until can see my both eyes at the side got scratch. Very painful under the water... I wonder how visual kei people take it lor.... I learned a new japanese word koibito - sweetheart

Bloody Cursed Computer

So ‘The Legendary Computer’ once again has broken down. The connection is damn bloody weird. It is will totally not working in alternate days. I was thinking of watching this anime called ‘Paradise Kiss’ or see if Crunchyroll has this anime called ‘Blaue Rosen’… *Dirty thought streaming through my mind* Well you know the things I said about my aunt yesterday? Well I understand why she was so agitated. She was really angry with dad because he just left mum’s picture in that women’s car. Which mum would really hate. And she felt really painful that, yesterday it was mum’s last day and dad still treat it in a relax way. In fact, he even puts her picture in such a hateful position. So yar that was what she felt really angry. My dad had really angered my mum over the pass few years…. Causing her to get liver cancer over the pass few years. In fact she has depression. LOL My mum has depression and I have anger management problems. Well I think I really cool off a lot unlike when I was Primary 4 to 5. I don’t know why… I don’t get angry often when I was outside, but I get pissed easily at home. It is like I am against something. Well about my mum’s depression… Well she had it when our family went totally wrong. First is my dad, his job, money management, illness and…. rumored affairs. Second is me of course, I was really rebellious; I had anger management problems, and my TYPE of music and of course my studies. Well not that I say I am very bad nor I am very good. But my mum really expects a lot from me. The more her standards rise the more I get angry, the more I hurt her… Well I would say I am an average kid, or one who is trying to be an average kid. I don’t gang bang. I don’t take drugs. I don’t smoke. I don’t play truant. I don’t even skipped class. Yes, I do talk a lot in class. I do talk back. I do sleep or zone out in class. I do sometimes don’t homework. But other than that I am okok. My grades are average. Not the best, not the worse. I know she did not really like my class in Primary school. She was really angry that I landed in that class. But I must say without that class I would not learn what the worse is like. They were really nice people though. They are just all problematic. Like me. I was like them, they were like me. That year I finally felt that I was not the only one, there were others. But I guess it did not last long. I went to secondary school. Well I did make a few nice friends but not close enough. They don’t really like what I like, and a few of them are really scary people. They are like people with a mine bomb, the minute you say something wrong or do something wrong, they kind of explode. Weird people. Well never mind about that…. My mum also hates the music I listen to. She say they are people who take drugs, who do unmistakable things, and they are really dark people and worshipped the ‘wrong things’, their lyrics are very dark also. In fact their voice tone will not match my chorus voice. LOL. Well yeah it may kind of affect me in my voice color and articulation. But I never say I will make a living in the choral world. In fact I want to experiment with different genre of songs. And in fact visual kei really express me well. It is a genre that can express all kind of things anger, sorrow, happiness and best of all confusion. I mean which genre can express as well as visual kei. Rhythm and Blues only express love and lust no more. Have they ever talk about friendship about family? Pop genre… I think it is a very funny genre. It is a really commercialized but in the mind of a music person… it is a very shallow form of music. The lyric holds not much of a meaning. And I like Visual Kei song because the songs lift my spirit up, make me depressed… and so on. Like Alice nine and Miyavi and Kra make me happy while The GazettE and Plastic Tree make me depressed. Well that is all I can say. About My dad you know lar….. Hopeless Geezers

Plastic Tree - Harusaki Sentimental

I saw this PV and I was like really in love with this song. The vocalist is really handsome. And guess how old he is? HE IS LIKE
30++. The melody is really nice. I love it. It make me want to cry.
They are those lonely wholesome... Ryutaro is absolutely adorable. ♥

Outing with my dad

Well today in the morning went to temple to pray to mother. It was really... quiet I dont dare to speak and ... well the same things went on. But today early in the morning I was so pissed. I was like insisting that I must buy the flower but my dad said no..... And you know why he say no, because it is the last day and he say that it is no use buying flower because the helper in the temple will clear it up. Fuck it... What kind of attitude.... Your wife is dead and you can't even present a flower to her on her last day. What a husband??? Then later I went out with him. And we had a special guest. Aunty Jacaliqne. Great we had her. We went to make a spectacles for myself. She came along we us, for dinner too. We went to Kushin-Bo to eat. That was Gulity NO1. Oh there is this place beside Kushin-bo. It is a garden. There is a fountain. It is nice place, very pretty during dusk. I bet mom will like it. That was Guilty NO2. Then we went to eat. I was having a lot of fun. Aunty was nice. That is Guilty NO3 and NO4. I like her but not as my new mum. She was fun to be with, she is my friend... I never treat her like my real mum. Then I went home. My 2nd aunt found out I went out with that aunt. I did not tell her the truth. I lied to her I only went out with dad. Then she got angry because I was unfilial. Because I was enjoying my time with someone else other then my mum. I am really shocked by her way of talking to me. I now know no one liked me. First is my mum, then it my cousin then now my aunt. I know I am wrong, I am guilty but what am I to do? Don't go out with my dad? What? I am very confused. I hate it. I dont want to lie. I dont want to hide. I want to be normal. Is it wrong ? Please leave me alone. I am very tired. I don't want to be hated. I don't want to be unfilial. I don't want to hurt anyone. But why is everyone hurting me. First they disagree with my music, then my size, now they even disagree with my everything...... I did not mean to really... to just leave mum and have fun. I am really sorry. Actually now my current state, I realise something.... I have no one to love. In fact now everyone I think is hate and meaningles blabber. Whatever. You don't like me fine. I cant do anything. I give up. I am not nice anymore. And I will just remain nochalant.

I am so pissed just now. I was like using the computer and meng meng ask me to shut the computer off because I used for too long. Hell with it I was like darn pissed. But it did not last long lar. I went to do other things. I tried to add english lyrics to Alice Nine 'Q'(Question). It sounded soso but the meaning was a total mess. It was yet again a complete BLACKNESS. No meaning no happiness. *Sigh* when can I write like last time? Last time I wrote quite a few poems and it was pretty nice. I guess... Because when I showed others no one believed it was my work. LOL... I really hope to write more of them like this. Kitboy said it was due to the song I am listening currently. Well I must admit it is true *mostly*. Well I remember the last time I wrote a poem, I was a big, big fan of Miyavi. And now well ..... I like other band but I still like Miyavi. I think the cause was The GazettE. Ever since I listen to them I was like really obsessed with Ruki because of the lyrics he wrote. SHIT. I guess I will have to really forget them. So wish me all the best.... Ganbante

Yesterday Night

I went to somewhere really nostalgic. I went to Marina South. It was really nice. Peaceful and all. But most of it is empty. Only left the bowling alley and a few steamboat eatery. No more curry rice place. The flying kite area has shrink to only a limited area. I miss that place. I still remember flying the kite there. Eating the curry rice with my family. It is really nostalgic. Some how I find it is truely a peaceful place to be at.... It is really nice unlike the busy streets of 'Concrete Jungle' But sadly it would be demolished soon to make way for the new SANDS resort. With beautiful high class hotels and Casinos for rich people. Fuck it man.... I mean it would be nice if Singapore become Las Vegas number two, but wont it really sucks if all the old, familiar and nostalgic disappear... Places where it holds really deep memories?? Places that you go when you are young??? I really do look forward to IR but not so fast right....

Whoa today I woke and realised I cried.... While I was sleeping. I had a really terrible nightmare. I could still remember. 'She' was there.... 'She' came back again. Everything of her was scary. The way I shake. The way I was really powerless. I cant say a word, I cant move... And what is with the bloody arm there??? The way every muscle on her face move when she flare up was really creepy.... I can't say I love 'She' .... But the more I can't say I hate 'She'....Tomorrow would be her last day. I hope to make it the best... With whatever love and respect I have towards her. I wish her happy journey onwards.... Please forget me .

Jrock music

WELL….today nothing interesting happened (of course it is the morning now only)
But Today I am really happy…. I dreamt of guess ….. A group of fat people freaking me and asking me to slim down or I would be like them… And if I am not wrong I thought I saw the fatty guy in The GazettE PV ~Filth In The Beauty~. Seriously Creepy -.- Well yesterday I downloaded a lot of singles…. I finally found Charlotte mini-album. It is called, Sharundenashi BLUES. Ok lar the songs….very cute and it sound as good as Antique café. Oh Bou left Antique Café this year march… I wonder why? But I am like not really affected by it… I dun really listen to their songs… But seriously Bou is really cute. But without him and including Yuki and Takuya (New replacement) the band becomes more masculine and that was kind of ok… I mean how long can this kind of band last if they continue acting cute right??? Oh and Kra new mini-album, Creatures. It is really nice a blend of Jazz and rock. My favorite song is World. I think Keiyuu voice is really good lor… He is like 29 this year right. Oh wonder his voice so mature. I cried when he sang Setsugekka. I was really touched by his voice. I have this Singles by a new band called Sendai Kamotsu
It is really cute. I also have Neu a Indie band singles ~Splash!~ Wah like Takuya from uverworld meet Antique Café. I just don’t like the sound effect. It is very irritating. I have the Aqua timez ~Dareka no Chijoue~. It is really nice but I think their song last time is better. Last time was completely soft rock. Now more noisy. Not that I CANT stand noisy song, it is just that I prefer them softer for Aqua Timez because the vocalist voice tone not so fit for hard rock. His voice would sound much better with soft rock, more peaceful. I mean that is just my opinion ^^ Something sad is I cant FIND Alice Nine New Album ~Alpha~ It is like everyone is saying that it is really nice and I must admit it is I only have the Cosmic World PV and Blue Planet PV and it was really nice. Blue planet is like complete happiness, although there is this pinky bunny. I bet all the Fangirls are like totally angry when they saw it. LOL The bunny was like totally seducing them with that extra tight tight mini mini skirt that could just show her butt. So it was kinda disgusting Well gtg le byees….

The concert

Choir concert is coming really soon
It is really scary
All the songs are really erm....HIGH~
And there is so many songs to memorize
I mean how am I to memorize a french song
The pronounciation is so weird
Well talking about concerts
I saw Alice Nine Concert Hello Dear Numbers
It was really awwwesome
I mean I saw Saga licked his bass and it was HOT
Well Shou sang way better than during the PSC tour
And the funny thing
Nao FALLED!! during the Encore
Damn funny he tripped over the platform LOL
Well Nao drum solo was really good
But without the sound effect it would be excellent
I just saw Kai's solo and was really shocked
I was really good....better than Yasuno
But because of that I saw so many fangirls screaming
That made me mad because....
1) His mine so no one is to like him
2) He have so many fans *jealous*
3) They remind me of ..... me
And I just read a Fanfiction of AoixKai
I was completely flustered by it.
Well I had finished my Music Project on Alice Nine
Hope you all like it........

Shocked! Reputation of Jrock

I was like so pissed with Yoshiki
He actually broke a brand new drum set
It totally broke the image of a rocker
He is like on some drugs
And it truly makes me shudder
I mean no one should break their drums
And to be honest S.K.I.N concert is not really nice
Unlike the other band that I have seen
They like do not have the bonding, kizuna
Unlike The GazettE, Alice nine, Kra and SID
That is what they lack....after all they are all soloist
For a pretty long time
I would not be surprise if Miyavi has forgotten about Due le Quartz
Or Gackt has forgotten his time in Malice Mizer
Or Yoshiki has to X Japan and Sugizo to Luna Sea
Maybe it was because I was not use to this....
Kind of *too wild* Rock Concert
But whatever it is I will feel really uncomfortable if i attended
Partly because I hate it when violence took place,
And because I am looking at someone who seriously
Looked like he ate a packet of drugs...or something
I was also really mad at Yoshiki
Because just his action has brought a bad reputation To ROCK genre
People may use him and judge that rock is not a good thing
Because I myself was shocked....
If I ever want to be a rockstar....
I will never learn from them....I will probably learn from Mayday
Afterall they were the one who taught me rock is a....
Form of expression Not a form of violence
I will learn from Alice Nine, Kra and Uverworld for lyrics
The GazettE and SID for visual style
Kaya, 12012 and antic cafe for fashion style
I will not and never touch anything that
Relates me to touch anything harmful
Causing to lose the trust of my fans
I will............................................
Lead my fans to a good path
Become one with my members and fans
This is what a good rocker is....
Some times I will add a few songs that was inspired from My feelings
That is all .... NO DRUGS MAN
Yoshiki, you are going nuts...X japan *shudder*
Now I have doubts weather Hide-san did sucidal
He creepy person bash his drum set
Better make sure Kai and Nao does not....
Bash drums ....Or I will so be out of Jrock

Budget Terminal

Well today was a day of fun

I went out with my uncle and aunts

My cousin came along

We went to Terminal Three, Budget Terminal

It was erm.... really new

Well not many things lar. All too new.

We started the day with a breakfast at....

East Coast Park Burger King

And it is really fun... watching the sea while eating

Then we headed to Terminal Three

It was really nice....very new

Kinda of like Korea airport

Then we went to the older Terminal

Then at Terminal one

Yuping (cousin) say that there was a really .....

Nostalgic place

Yea it truely was

When I was young
My whole family, uncle, aunts and cousin

Would head there for Swensens ice-cream

And it was the sweetest gathering we had

Both of us really missed it...

The place changed and swensen is now

Next to the Arrival hall

There is one too at Terminal Three

Well it is really fun.... Yar cheese!!!

Man...I really miss this happy girl

Well after that we head to Mellina Walk, Suntec City

(dont' know how to spell)

Well That all *smile*

OMG! fight...

OMG!~ They fought o.0
The two always friendly and caring brothers fought
And GREAT! They fighting because of me...
That got me really pissed and disappointed
Yar I know they were really worried about me
But hey if you are then please leave alone
Because your fight has really jeopardized me
And that you HAVE ADD ANOTHER PROBLEM IN ME
I really hate it when people fight
It really frightens me
It is just disgusting and horrifying
Especially it is people I know really well
And those people who are really nice and friendly
Well they were actually fighting over how to talk to me
How to understand me??
Well I dunno but i have this feeling they will never succeed
If my mum cant, could they?
The closest failed will the rest pass
They should just give up....
They should just let me figure the hard way
Like this no one is hurt
Not me, not them
So well .......................
LEAVE ME ALONE OKOKOK
I am darn freaking hecking
TIRED ARGH....
I sometimes feel really tired of this world...

Fight!

Morning

Preparing to a journey to pilgrimage.... LOL well not really

I was just heading towards the temple at River Valley

Actually I kind of like going to the temple

Especially those really peaceful ones.

It makes me able to think. Sometimes I will think

'Hey life is not that messed up'

Well it won't last long. But it truely make my day....

Well yesterday 0.00am. Brother Meng and I had a talk

He said he hate The GazettE for a reason...

They talked too lightly of death

A disrespect he thinks. I really admire Brother Meng

He went through Depression

And now....well his doing just fine

He did 'darken' through that period

Just ask him and he can explain to you in details

If you dare.........

Well he explain that music through can affect....

ones thinking... ones feeling...

Well for your information

Satan was The Angel of Music

MWAHAHAHA

*On the verge of sanity abortion*

Well thats all for today byee~

PS Company Carnival tour

Third row: Shou, Keiyuu, Miyavi, Ruki, Kaggra vocalist LOL

(Loved them most)

Nature Pleasure

Today was a sweet day.
Tuition was really fun.
Ah Leow and his joke just make me crack up like a freak.
Well one thing I learned
That academic is important
But so is your talent and skills
Well I cant really say I have a talent or skill
But I really like music
So I hope to create a skill in music soon...
I want to write really heart lifting songs like Shou-san
Scary and touching songs like Ruki-san
Happy, simple but straight to the point song like Miyavi-san
They wrote really well lyrics and I badly wanted to be like them
Maybe you would think I am over-thinking considering my age
But I think it would be nice to start when you are young
For example,
Miyavi-san started playing the guitar at 15
Then two years later he joined Due le'quartz
Which is really awesome
He learned so much in just two years
For me all I ever did was drooling at him....
And I was really jealous of Ruki at one point
I was really angry...
I was like 'Hey that guy is so cool'
He is like this really naughty boy...
Who has a cool band,
Who have one-man concert every year
And is loved by so many fans
While me a normal girl
With a normal life
Normal school
Only have a dream....
A dream to be like them
lol MOKKORI
OKies I learnt it from Tora
Pervert!~
Well anyway today
I accompanied my aunt and uncle
To a vegetarian cafe
My father came along
Well it was really nice
Eating while making small chats
Making a few small jokes
The cafe is really cosy
It's called 'Nature pleasure'
At fortune centre
So nothing went wrong today
I am glad ^^

The NEOlancer

Today in the morning I went for a walk.
Then headed to the kopitiam across the road.
I was repeatedly fooled by two hawkers.
At least I had the name of one of them
'Uncle john' .....-.-
Very cute, they were really funny
We were like acting all goofy in public
And we don't give a damn
I was having a really nice feeling
I wonder why everyone in this world act so cautious
They all seem afraid to step on the wrong stone
That may ruin their reputation
They follow the flow.....
Everything, from manners to fashion
Everything in this world is too well categorized
If you are a punk you must be punkish, u must be bad
If you are a well-mannered you must listen to Beethoven, wear long dress
If you are a Goth you must be all black
So weird
Is there a catergory where you are free to think?
If there isn't....
I will start one
'The NEOlancer'