INSPIRATION FOR THE DESIRED

On the first gray of dawn
I venture out alone
Towards a big black hole
A well, a century old

In autistic denial of the external world
I was enveloped into darkeness for an eternal
A thought that dampens any lonesome figure

A selfish creature emerged
who scourns at a droplet of tears
A porcelain mask
that covers even a tint of emotion
Until you break in...

You have fallen for me
The exterior me,
The one that please everybody
But the interior me,
filled with darkeness and mystery
will never satisfy your lusty fantasy.

So please forgive me
For the reckless first kiss
It really don't mean a thing
But a rush to feel you under my skin

What a wrong move
Now you are after my every move
To get me,
No matter how dangerous I may be
Yes girl you are making me crazy
You will only your own feelings

Back Off!
My world is too dark for a goth
You will just shrink away from the glow, please god
I know you will scream that two words for blessing
But can't you see ,
the trouble you will get in
just leave me to be free, to escape the agony
cause your eyes are too memerizing

I will take it you had an infatuation
A routine that is partially believeable
The praises for my sexy figure
And flawless countenance
It is a mistake to miss the lusicious entertainment

But it is not me you are after
But the hands of god that mould my cover
If you love, you will stir free
You will stay clear away from me
To create a distance to let me see you carefully

So girl the wrong move is made

Your lonesome tears

♥Your Lonesome Tears♥
Kry-Syella
When was it I missed your sobs
Was it the day you were not the top?
Or the time our conversation was a shallow depth

I am so sorry I have negelected you
Only thinking I feel worser then you
I know the apologies will never ease your anger
But I really want to say I will love you forever

I remembered the kiss you gave me
The touch that is now a blur memory
The tears we shed without crying
The mutal understanding

We promise to bring happiness to each other
But it only brought complication together
The love was too much that it hurt
A love that could be broken with a whisper

You asked for a moment, a recognition
The memories of the briefest moment
The touch, the tangle, a wire to bind us together
It's undone cause it weight to much for us

You say we are meant for each other
Where is the action to prove that statement?
Is it the night we spend together
That desire that lead to a false acceptance

I never once look you in the eye
Those eyes that give away my lies
I never once love you
So why are you crying for me
Baby you are putting me in agony

Is it remorse?
That cause our relationship to be forced
Or the guiltiness that flip your guts
HA! It pales when compared to my stabbed heart

Yes baby I once love you from my heart
But now I will only keep it to my heart
Be free and heal the wound I had cut
Please forget me on my behalf
I am not the right lover to fill you up

Love, it is a complicated word
But love, I believe you will understand it
But it is not me to tell you the meaning
I hope you find someone that show you that feeling
I will be contented when I see you with her

So please don't cry with me
Be strong for your future
I am leaving, so don't see me off
It will only break me more
My man, my love
Remember your the nicest man that I dear
It is just that we are not meant for each other

I am the moon, you are the day
We are an eternal away
So baby boy please find your sun
As the moon travel during the night time
To find refudge, to find her time
To leave her lonesome tears
A day behind

Bolevard of wonderful friendships

In a blink it is the end of 2008 and also the end of my fourteenth year as a human. What have learnt so far?... Well I will answer that as detailed as possible, after some thinking that I plan to carry in this long year-end vacation. One thing I am sure I had learnt would be friendship.
The chalet had allowed me to witness the friendship bond that my friends and I had tied ourselves in. The thought of someone amongst us leaving was something painful. I experience the sudden ache on the second day of the chalet. The shrinking posture and serene ambience of the beach make me tense and relaxed. It was a clash of emotions, and the thought someone precious to me hurt cause me to suffocate in sorrow.
No amount of pain could compare to the ache of my pounding heart. As if by coincidence, my tears just flow freely. The world does not mean anything to me anymore, my pride, my posture it was all thrown into the predestined sea. Like the sea my heart was filled with mysterious darkness that no one can swim into. It felt cold and lost as it lost a part of itself... the joy of friendship.
When someone cried, it was due to the unbearable mental or physical pain. And for [him] - a nice and cheerful person, it must be so painful it could not be tolerated. That was in my head.
The next thing i knew my hand was covered over my mouth as a gagged on my saliva, my tears formed from the corner of my eyes, it burst and flow down, my chest was heaving, in and out, in and out, I pound my chest to stop the pain, bending forward my mind was a blank. Who was beside me, who saw it, I cant care much....
All I want to say, to me my friends are like my brothers, my sister, it is not a code, not a statement, not a clique term, it is a feeling it is something that is from the bottom of my heart stirring my emotions and questioning my character.
Hey krysyella[shuji] friends out there I KRYSYELLA WILL ALWAYS BE YOUR PRECIOUS FRIEND.........

TOMODACHI 4EVA

KOREAN NIGHT

I am so going to the Korean night and not only that I heard there is special mystery guest OMFG>.< I hope it is Super junior at least or anyone man... sigh... if only visual kei will come. I really that will happen. Anyway just came back from my chalet and it was BLOODY HELL SADDENING .... i cried big time it is that sad and touching. this song is for my friends>>>


this is the lyrics {Big Bang - OH MY FRIEND}
OH MY FRIEND
[GD] 1, 2, 3, 4!
[DS] If this world makes you sad, say my name whenever and wherever
I am 911 emergency, for you only, I’m only 5 minutes away, yeah yeah
[SR] Your sorrow that you feel isn’t sorrowIt’s a rope that bonded us together
[YB] I’ll get wet in rain for you, run without a stop,
go through a rough wind yeahYour heavy burden,
dark shadow; I will block them all now
[Chorus NO BRAIN]Oh my friend oh my friend;
I will be your friend foreverOh my friend oh my friend;
only you can make me live
Oh my friend oh my friend;
I will become a tree behind you silently
Oh my friend oh my friend;
my friend I love you (dear) friend
[TOP] Let’s rock & roll, man I don’t control
Close your eyes and open your heart (Love & Peace)
Hope you dreamed (of), trust me, tells only truth without lies
Walk straight, limp at least once, mistakes can happen to anyone
Step on a failure and get up, goodbye to a wound that aches
[GD] (Yo) Come on! Hold my hand and let’s go, let’s look for a lost dream again
Let’s fly together, brush up dusts, let’s go together, a person next to you as well
We can’t see an end but future is bright, there are many chances because we are young
Let’s love each other, scream louder, FREEDOM!
[Repeat Chorus]
(Yea, yea, yea, here we go!)
[Bridge; DS + SR + YB]Leave from bored daily life as you dreamed
Run toward the dream, dear
Go away go away, let’s go away baby
Whoa ho, Whoa… oh oh ~ (GD: Big Bang, No Brain, haha once again(Yeaaa) Everybody RUN!
[Repeat Chorus]